BECOMING HONEY'S SISTER
BOTH WITH YUMNA

Oh Allah ... Can you please stop for a while until I can be with my daughter even longer? Really, I was overcome with regret for making myself a gap with my daughter.

A pair of round eyes belonging to the little girl looked at me fixedly. According to the people, her face was a fusion between my face and Bang Hasan's. Half-baked. His skin was white, following me, as well as his sharp nose and oval face. While both eyes, hair and how to carry it are very similar to Hasan bang.

"Mi, why are you crying?" ask Yumna.

"It's okay." I wiped the rest of the tears. We didn't have much time, I didn't want to leave sad memories at the end of our meeting until we were reunited. "Na, you know, I'm a pity for Yumna."

The little girl nodded with a smile.

"Na, umi dear Na." I said again. Several times I had to throw my face away so that tears would no longer spill. Ahhh, I really can't deny how very sorry I am about my second marriage. I should have just refused. If so, what else can I do?

"Umi, Na knows that umi loves Na. Kan Umi often hugged Na, often fat even though Na was already big. Umi also likes to accompany Na when playing and never even though Na sometimes plays dirty" he said.

"Sorry Umi yes, Na."

"Miss nothing wrong."

"Na, umi will go ...."

"Where are you going?"

"To Jakarta."

"Jakarta where is it, Mi?"

"Away. On the opposite island. To get there must take a bus, a ship or a plane."

"A plane flying in the sky?"

"Yes." Yeah."

"Na's coming, Umi."

"Sorry Umi, Na. But, grandfather, grandmother and mother ask that Umi not bring Na."

"Why? It's not bad."

"Yes, Yumna is Umi's good son."

"Then Na's coming, Mi."

"Honey, umi promise, as soon as possible will pick up Na after Umi is sure Na will be comfortable there."

"Indeed there is no house, Mi?"

"There is, but not our home."

"Then you don't have to go there."

"Na, I'm sorry Umi. But the Union has to go there."

"Because Umi's married to that om?" Yumna looked at me. "Umi's not married to Abi anymore?"

"But Mi ...."

"Na Umi's good boy, right?"

"Yes Mi. Na will be Umi's good boy. Yumna's going to meet Umi. Yumna will also pray that Umi will soon pick up Na. Mr. Ustadz said, the prayer of the orphan was heard by God because the righteous orphan was loved by God."

I really can't hold back these tears. I reflexively hugged Yumna, she did the same. As if he understood that the farewell was getting closer, he hugged me tightly.

"Mi, Na no longer has Abi. Umi has to promise to go home quickly. I don't want to have an Umi too!" he spoke with tears.

***

One of my cloth bags has now moved into the trunk of the car. One by one my relatives and neighbors loved me. Now, it's Yumna's turn. He and I were standing a few centimeters apart. He was silent, so am I. It is like losing the spirit within us. I don't want to do anything but be around without a word without a sound. Simply looking at each other can fill the part of the soul that began to empty because imagining separation.

"Mil, let's fast say goodbye to Yumna. You must immediately go to Padang so as not to kesorean on the road. After all there mbak Ayu has been waiting, from earlier already called, nanyain you have walked or not." The Goddess reminded.

Again I can just be quiet. Like losing consciousness. It was so hard to say the word separate to my little daughter.

"Mil, come!" dad reminded me. Maybe it's not good for Ilham who starts to look agitated waiting for me to say goodbye.

Ahhh, why can't you wait a minute. Soon, Yumna and I will be separated. With a distance not close and I don't know when I'll meet again because I'll be held captive on the other side of the island while he's here, although accompanied by his grandparents but he had no father and now had to lose his mother.

"I can't!" I said, in a hoarse voice.

"Can't how? You decided to get married. It's been said before to rethink, but you easily decide to accept the proposal. Now you have to follow your husband!" said mother with a firm tone.

Yes, I'm the one who accepted it. But it never occurred to me that I would part with Yumna. I thought I could take Yumna.

"Now, don't talk much. There, leave. Start a new, better life. Don't act like that, it's the same as leaving a burden for Yumna!" added mother.

"Mil, come!" the Uni Dewi.

"Na, forgive umi. Umi darling Na. Later, Umi will definitely pick up Na soon. Umi darling Na. Honey, what a pity. Na is everything in Umi's life. Sorry Umi!" I could no longer look at the little girl's face because tears were flooding in. Led by the Goddess Union, I got into the car. As soon as the car closed, there was a sound of Yumna's crying broke. From the rearview I could see her trying to get closer, but my father hugged her so tightly that my little girl could only thrash around to call me.

"Come sir, walk!" say to the man sitting in front of the steering wheel.

Slowly the car began to run, from behind the window I could only see my little Yumna struggling to call Umi.

Oh Allah ... O Allah, this parting is like a sharp dagger that draws out my heart. I'll die for it.

"Yumna ... Yumna's a good umi. Forgive Umi, Son. Forgive Umi. Promise, Umi will soon pick up Yumna after Umi is sure there Yumna will be safe and comfortable. Umi will never feel happy if she has not been together with Yumna. Umi will always miss Yumna, forgive Umi." I said while shedding tears.

Sometimes, we have to go through a fate that is so sad and does not want us to live. It is totally up to God.

"When do you cry?" the man sitting next to me finally opened his voice as well. He who had just been a spectator showed his reaction as well.

"What's wrong with crying?" I retorted loudly, not caring that he was now my husband who I should have said meekly to him. After all, be ready to tell you to talk like that to a mother who must part with her child. After all this separation happens one of the causes is it. He took part in the sadness in my life and now lightly asked like that.

"No. That's not what I mean, but ...."

"But what? Is it because you just married me that you have the right to forbid me to cry? I am an ordinary human being, entitled to be sad because I just separated from my daughter when we were always together." I immediately attacked her with words until the man could not answer.