BECOMING HONEY'S SISTER
I'M SORRY

Now, the three of us are already in Ayu's bedroom. For a long time we were silent to each other. Mutual thought. I don't know where to start the conversation. But at least I'm calmer because now Ayu's already a bit quiet. He no longer cried, the infusion on his hand had also been repaired by the nurse.

"I'm sorry ..." Suddenly Ayu spoke. "If you want to divorce me, that's okay. Justdoit. I realized there were too many problems I was making and they were all very fatal. Sorry mas .. sorry Mila." Said mbak Ayu. "But, before the mas divorces me, can the mas grant one of my requests. Please, if we get divorced later, don't ever show up in front of me again. If you want to see the kids, do it somewhere I can't know. Because I don't want to see your face anymore. I don't want to get hurt more. Again, I'm ...."

"Mom, that's enough!" my door. I don't feel like I can hear it. I'm pretty sure, actually Ayu didn't want all this to happen, she was sick, bearing this heavy burden was definitely not easy. I don't want him to get into the new problem of losing someone he loves so much. I don't know what kind of broken heart mbak Ayu later. If anyone should back off, it's me because I'm the new person in their life. If I retreat, there are not many hearts that hurt, while if you are Ayu, there are children who will certainly be very hurt.

"What a Mil. Mas Ilham loves you. He deserves the best. Let it. I'd love it if you guys stick together. I hope you're happy" said Ayu. "Now go, leave me alone."

A smile was thrown by Ayu. Seeing him like that makes me feel guilty.

"Mbak, don't say that. If anyone should back off, it's not mbak. But me!" i said, affirm.

"Not Mil, Ileham loves you. While I ... his love for me no longer exists. What else to hold on to. Aye, right?" he smiled back. The smile that makes anyone see it will be pity.

"No, let me go." I said again.

"Enough. No one needs to leave. We have decided to live a home life like this. As the head of the family, I will be responsible for both of you. I will try to be a fair husband. Even if I can't, please understand because I'm still learning. From now on, I hope that you two be patient. Our goal is to undergo polygamy not only for lust, but because we want to practice the law of God. Do not let polygamy sharia become worse because of the inadequacy of people like us." said mas Ilham. "So now, let's start again renewing the intention. If we previously practiced polygamy because of something other than Allah, now we re-align the intention that Allah is Ridha to us. Do not be tired in the world, tired in the hereafter. We both learn."

"Mas ..." mbak Ayu sniffled. "I'm sorry." he tried to reach for Ilham.

"That's it. Then we forget it. We know God, may God forgive us. You also have to really change. Do not love anything more than your love for God, Yu. If you keep maintaining your principles, there are you who lose." said mas Ilham.

The lovers embraced each other. Honestly, I was really relieved to see the two of them reunite. I hope this will be a good start for the three of us.

***

As her honeymoon sister who also lives with her, I was determined to keep Ayu's mother until she recovered. After all, while in the hospital we've forgiven each other. I've been trying to get along with each other, even though I don't really mind anything. The past let it pass. Now it's important to fix everything. As Ilham said. Everything must be equally learned, the mistakes of the past no longer need to be revealed.

"Later, get home mbak want what masakin?" I said. After the three of us were in the car, it slid towards the house. Mas Ilham who drove, while me and Mbak Ayu sat in the back.

"Anything Mil. Don't bother." Ayu smiled.

***

There was a lot of hope after Ayu got out of the hospital. One of them is my relationship with her children. I hope they can accept me with open arms. Think I'm no longer the destroyer of their parents' households, especially Hana. To be honest I could not bear, a child like Hana, who according to Asih mbok good and saliha, had to turn out to be rude and arrogant just because I had not been able to accept my relationship with their father.

"Bu Mila has to be patient." pinta mbok Asih. "Trust me, sincerity will definitely be a winner later. Although sometimes to get the need for extraordinary sacrifices." mbok Asih who became my confiding friend during the stay in this house tried to calm because he saw for himself how rude Hana was to me.

The girl still does not accept it and several times still call me as an actor. I threatened him. Actually I don't want to be too hard, especially because I was asked to Ilham mas some time ago, Hana really scolded her father.

I myself cannot. But that's my weakness. Somehow it was always easy to get stuck when he mentioned those words. Especially with an expression that really pressured me.

"Mbok calm down, I have prepared a lot of patient stock. Yesterday I was wrong. It was easy to get caught by Hana. But I was determined not to be defeated by emotion anymore. I'll still be kind to her because Hana's my daughter, too, right?" I said, while trying to smile even though the heart is still sliced.

"No. Just yummy. I'm Abi and Umi's son. Not Aunt's son. Don't be reckless. I'll never be a Auntie's kid!" he spoke loudly when he overheard our conversation.

"Yes, if now you don't want anything. I hope I will." I smiled, looking at her cheeks. While he quickly brushed it off.

"No way, just don't want to!" the sixth grader of elementary school immediately put on a sullen face. Meanwhile, seeing Hana's expression reminded me of Yumna. Ahhh, my little daughter who is now far away. He also likes to sulk if I am jahilin like that.