BECOMING HONEY'S SISTER
BE SILENCED

[Mas, I've reached the village. It was picked up by Dad. Now I am gathering with family. Mas, mbak Ayu and the kids how are you?] a message I sent to Ilham. Only read, but not reciprocated by it. I think positively that maybe Ilham is still busy taking care of Ayu.

But it turns out my estimate is wrong, mbok Asih said that Ilham mas have returned home shortly after I left. The one who keeps Ayu's mom in the hospital is currently Madam Sila alternating with Iqbal..I don't know what his consideration is.

I would love to contact Ilham. Apologize for daring to leave without his permission, but I pare the intention, worried to disturb him. Ayu said, this month will be the busiest month in Ilham, this is the determination of whether he deserves to be the chairman of the foundation or not.

Unfortunately, three days have passed, the messages I sent have not been returned. Even the last message is no longer read. Is he still angry? Is Ridha not him yet? There is no way that Ilham did not have a little time to reply..It feels impossible.

"When are you back in Jakarta, Mil?" suddenly my father was standing next to me. "Your husband didn't come to pick you up? It's been three days that you've been here, he's okay, right? How was his first wife? Is it still in the hospital? Do you know what pain?"

"Mbak Ayu is still in the hospital, Dad. Still recovery. Had to go through some more therapy just get back home" I replied.

"Hurtful?"

"Lumayan, sir."

"Yes Allah. Then your husband?"

"Mas Ilham is still preparing for the election of the chairman of the foundation. So yes, we are patient first. Besides, can't Mila stay in Mila's own parents' house for long?"

"It's not so, Mil. Ayaj is just worried that there is nothing with your household. Nothing to cover up. It's sad to know from others, not from your own children."

"There's nothing, Dad. Everything's fine. We're just being tested for the pain of Ayu. Just pray that everything is okay so that Mila can go home quickly. Mila actually does not feel good to have to leave at a time like this, but how else, Mila has missed Yumna so much." I said.

"Mil, but you're really not hiding something, are you?"

"But, dad. Of course not, for Mila there is no need to be a secret with father and mother." after talking, I then leave the room because I do not want to be asked again by Dad.

My heart could not calm down before Ilham replied to my message. Being scolded is fine, as long as he wants to talk. Being silenced like this really tormented me a lot. It feels like hanging.

***

It's been ten days. That's why I called Ilham. Unfortunately, my phone did not answer. Three calls, all three were ignored. When I called to the mansion, Hana replied, Ilham also refused to talk to me..The reason is that it is awaited by the journey. Even though it's online. I'm more and more convinced that Ilham is really seriously angry with me. Then, will he carry out his words, not pick me up? Oh my God, what do I do then?

Mas, do not misunderstand first.I force to leave not because I do not want to obey mas. I am a mother whose weakness is her child. I really could not bear the burden of longing and also saw my son suffer because he did not meet me. I'm sorry, mas. Please forgive me. If you read this message, please reply. At least, for the sake of my calmness which also affects the baby in my womb.]

No other weapons, I was forced to use my child in my womb as an excuse to get back at my message, on the grounds that he could be destroyed. But it didn't work either. Mas Ilham just read it, he did not reply at all even though I had waited for hours.

***

"It looks like Ilham won't pick me up, Uni." I said to Uni Dewi. Today he met me at TPA, after I taught teaching. Since three days ago I did return to teaching here like before marriage to fill the time. The Goddess Union came according to my request. I think only he who can currently be used as a friend to tell a story because however the Union of Dewi knows Ilham mas and mbak Ayu. I also felt more at ease telling her than my own family. Worry adds to the burden of their minds.

"You should not go home without permission Ilham sir, Mil" said Uni Dewi. "That's the same way you're subjecting yourself to rules within rules."

"But everything has happened. I have also arrived in the village now. Then how else? Time continues to regret the decisions I've made."

"Hmmm, I'm also confused Mil. I don't know what to do to help you."

"Can't Uni talk to Ilham? Tell him I'm really sorry I broke his words. But that doesn't mean I don't obey. There's a reason I can't tell you.".

"I also don't dare talk to him under these circumstances,"

"Areally how familiar is Uni with them?" there are many things I should know from Uni Dewi about mbak Ayu and mas Ilham. Honestly I was also curious, did he know the condition of mbak Ayu who suffered from depression and mental illness?

"He knew you, Mil. As you know, his father Pak Ilham is a man who is in two villages from our village, they quite often return home when his father is still alive. Mr. Ilham also often helps other residents who need help. Including for TPA we also never get a donation from Mr. Ilham and mbak Ayu, as I told you before.

The stories of Uni Dewi did not answer my curiosity about them.. Actually I want to know about something more specific than them. But it seems like even the Goddess Union does not know too much.

"Why don't you ask your in-laws for help, Mil? aren't you guys close enough?"

why did I forget my mother? yeah, he seems to be the only person who can help me get out of this.

I want to hurry home and call my mother-in-law. He was the one who was heard by Ilham.he was the right person to reconcile us.