BECOMING HONEY'S SISTER
SHOULD SURRENDER?

"Mbak Ayu told me everything." I said, when Ilham came to pick me up. We decided to talk in the hospital garden. "Do you know anything about Ayu's obsession, which makes her depressed? Do you know the burden he's been carrying all this time?"

But Ilham just shook his head.

"Mas, Ayu is depressed and I believe that is the cause of depression. She's burdened to be a wife, mas."

"I? But why me? I never felt bad about Ayu. The responsibility I give, not far from the responsibility of a wife and mother. There are no excessive demands."

"But Ayu is obsessed with mas!" tell me everything Ayu said to me. How he always tries to make all the hopes of the Ilham come true. Whatever shape. If he does not succeed, it will be a burden that makes Ayu depressed. Even he had fallen ill until he had to be treated in the hospital because it was thought. But what is known to Ilham at that time was that Ayu was sick because of stomach acid that tipped typhus.

"Astaghfirullah's. Ayy? Oh, my God, why does he have to?" the shocked Inspiration looked so guilty. "I really don't know. Really Mil. I didn't realize that he loved me so much that he destroyed himself." I'm Ilham.

"Now everything has happened. Even we're married. When in fact, Ayu was not ready." I covered my face with both hands. "Also the kids. They weren't ready to have a second mother." I also told them about Iqbal and Hana's attitude. Also Hana's words about the actor she pinned on me.

"Oh Allah .. Why is everything so messed up like this? Unconsciously I was already the cause of the injuries to them."

"I took part in making a wound in the heart mbak Ayu and the children."

"Not Mil, you're not wrong. I'm the one responsible for all this. You are also a victim of all these problems. It should have been from the beginning that I was sensitive since Ayu's attitude changed. Oh no, to be exact, since we were married actually Ayu has shown an excessive attitude in expressing her feelings. But due to lack of associating with women, I consider it ordinary. It turned out that his obsession was so great that it ended up like this."

"Then what should we do? It's impossible to let Ayu continue to experience all this."

"I'm also thinking about everything Mil. A way to get all our problems done."

"Do we have to end this relationship?" Although hesitant, I still question everything to Ilham. To be honest I was really disappointed with what Ayu did, betrothed me to her husband. But as a human being with a heart, I also feel sorry, especially considering that he has many children. In addition to Ayu, I also could not bear if their children became victims of all this. They are not ready to lead a polygamous life. But I myself can not deny that now already fell in love with Ilham.

"What are you talking about, Mil? It was hard to get married again from the beginning. But I also will not be able to make it easy to end all that" said Ilham. "Since the beginning I have said Mil, so that you will be patient. I'll try to fix all this so that things get better."

"But the root of the problem is Ayu, mas. If it's hard, what about us."

"Don't give up, Mil. We haven't tried it yet. The marriage we had was no joke. Ayu may reason that he did all that because he was carried away by emotions, but he also could not manage everything according to his wishes. All decisions have consequences and ready not to be ready, we must all dare to face because this is our choice. Besides, don't you feel sorry for me, Mil? I really need you to support me. Under these circumstances I am fragile too, Mil."

"Mil, please .. believe me, I don't want my two wives to be in an uncomfortable position. I was afraid to answer to God. But I can't bring you back like that either. This marriage is no joke. Please Mil, don't ever say to step down or end our marriage. Or if not ...."

"What mas?"

"If our relationship must end, then with Ayu the same!"

"Astaghfirullah, mas ...."

"I'm sorry Mil, but I'm just a human being. I won't be able to act as if nothing happened if you leave. Because honestly my love for you is much greater than the love for Ayu. Maybe even now there is no love for him other than pity."

"Enough, enough!" suddenly, Ayu was standing not far from us. He stood carrying an infusion tube in his hand. His pair of neutrals instantly flooded with tears. There was a deep wound there."Why, why? After everything I gave for the mas." he shook his head quickly, then staggered back to his room.

"Oh Allah is Ayu!" I called him in a stifled voice because I didn't want to invite the attention of many people who realized something was wrong between us. "Mas, why shut up? Hurry up and follow Ayu!" my door.

"Leave it Mil," said Ilham with his head bowed. It looks right it's getting depressed.

"But why? I'm not afraid of anything happening to Ayu?"

Anxious because Ilham did not act, I finally decided to chase Ayu to his room. There is such a great regret, that Ayu should not have heard all this. I'm also too stupid, why also talk to mas Ilham in the park not far from the nursery room mbak Ayu.

Arriving at Ayu's bedroom, I found a heart-slicing sight. He was sitting on the floor, leaning on the bed with an infusion hose that was still attached to his hand but was thrown away. There's blood rising towards the hose. The sight that made me scream.

"Astagfirullah mbak, don't be like this." I said. Closer to him. Confused what to do. I could only cry while holding her hand. "Sir, remember the children!" I said, trying to strengthen Ayu. Usually, for mothers, this method is most powerful because children are the strength of a woman who has the title of mother. But Ayu didn't budge. He just kept quiet with tears flowing. "Sir, wake up." I asked again.

My thinking is really short. Instead of looking for help, she cried beside Ayu's mother. Maybe because I was panicking too much. Fortunately, not how long the nurse came, he immediately acted when he saw Ayu's condition.

"Mom, if there's anything with the patient, don't leave it alone. Please tell us to get immediate treatment!" the nurse told me. He looks annoyed, maybe because of the anxiety with the negligence that I did earlier to be considered dangerous mbak Ayu. "Waiting patients should not be careless, should be people who ambush." added the nurse again.

"Sorry, sorry!" I said, lowering my head a few times.