BECOMING HONEY'S SISTER
SECRET OF AYU 2

"You can imagine, Mil. How about me? Really tired, Mil. I was so tired I wanted to give up. That's why I want to end this." Ayu cried.

"Sir," I clasped his hand. "I'm sorry I just found out, ma'am. But why not talk to Ilham? Try to be at peace with yourself, madam. I am sure mas Ilham will not demand anything from mbak, he can certainly accept mbak as it is without mbak need to sacrifice anything."

"No Mil, I can't say anything to Ilham, I don't want to make him sad or he's disappointed in me. I can't, Mil!"

"But pity yourself, also the children."

Ayu continued to deny my proposal. He still blames himself, causing me to worry.

Problems in their household actually do not need to exist. But mbak Ayu has invited himself a storm in his household and he has to face it. How could Ayu continue like this. He tried to be perfect, but he killed himself.

"You or anyone else can't stop me from being happy. She will continue to see me as the most perfect woman who will give her a lot of happiness. He'll get whatever he wants!" mbak Ayu.

"Astaghfirullah, don't be so mbak. Do not force yourself because there is no such thing as a perfect man."

"There's Miles. There are! And that's me! You know Mil, Ilham will look back at me lovingly. He would be proud to have a wife like me. Did you see how people responded when I found him a second wife? Everyone praises me, Mil. They were really amazed by the greatness of my heart. Rarely, it may even be very rare for a woman to share a husband. Only the truly saliha, Mil. And it was me! Me, Mila. Me, wife of Ilham. He must be proud, right?"

"What's? So can I arrange a second marriage mas Ilham to get praise and judgment as a saliha woman by people? God, why can't you think like that. Know what effect it has? For the children, they hate me because they are considered to have destroyed the household of both parents. Their emotions have been playing tricks. And for Ilham as well. Do you know, even now he is confused with the polygamy he is running. Imagine the effect mbak, if plmenikan for the second time but not ready, can not be fair. Later Ilham can be prosecuted in the afterlife. What is mbak tega? Don't just care about other people's judgments."

"Mila ... Mila's. You don't know yeah. After marrying again, one of the dreams of Ilham mas will be realized, namely being the chairman of the foundation. Auntie Sila will support her as she promises. So, Ilham was also lucky with this marriage. Understand you?"

"Then what about me? Am I just you guys taking it as bait to make your wish come true? Tega mbak plunged me for ambition, mbak."

"You don't have much need, anyway I give a small reward for your family. Don't you forget Mil, how much we paid? Very big for the size of an uneducated village widow!"

"Astaghfirullah, no. I don't accept what I've done!" I can't hold back my emotions, I feel very disappointed after hearing Ayu's words. Why can he do all this. Only for the sake of such great love for her husband, she had unwittingly sacrificed the feelings of her children. Me too? Yes, I who had already fallen in love with Ilham, was only used as a tool to fulfill his obsession.

Why is he so hearty?

"What do you know, what is the mental state of children? They're victims of mbak's behavior!" I said.

"By playing with other women's feelings?"

"What do you mean, Mila?"

"Yes, you should also know that I am also in love with Ilham!"

"No, you can't fall in love with my husband!"

"Mas Ilham is not only my husband, but also my husband. Remember that mbak. We are married both religiously and in the country. Besides, Ileham loves me too."

"No. Mila, don't. You and Ilham. This must be a lie. You're just making up stories so I'm getting worse, right? Yes, right Mila? Tell Mila. You can't be so mean."

"Evil? Who's the bad guy, mbak? First one who started this game. The mother who made me and Ilham finally united. Don't blame us for falling in love because we're halal."

"No. .. no .. no. no. You and Ilyam cannot love each other. I'm the only woman I can love!" Ayu's mother was crying hysterically. He shouted to the point of pulling out the infusion hose in his hand. Fortunately the guard nurse immediately came to the room to calm Mbak Ayu. "Mila, please ... I beg you, don't take Inspiration from my side." pinta mbak Ayu before he finally unconscious.

O Allah, why do you play with fire if you are unable to burn?

Marrying a husband to another woman is not easy. This is the highest worship in marriage. If not ready for faith, it could destroy the household ark itself. Why should we care about the judgment of others? You have to be provoked by someone else's statement. Those who want to remarry from their hearts because they are able, if we are not able, you should not try.

I completely collapsed on the floor. I feel like my body is limp. Can't do anything but cry while Mbak Ayu was lying in his bed after being given sedatives by the nurse.

What am I supposed to do? After going so far, is there still a way to go back?

Suddenly I remembered Hana's words. He called me a actor a few times. Am I really becoming an actor? Thorn in marriage mbak Ayu and mas Ilham. After all this mess, can we all feel happiness?

There was a sense of regret because at that time he did not hear the words of mother.he was so adamant that I refused the offer to be a second wife. Even my mom was being tough on me. But I accepted it instead. If only I had followed mother's words, maybe now I could still laugh gathering with Yumna even though our lives were far from enough.

If this is the case, how else can I get together with Yumna. Ayu said all that she didn't really want to share a husband with me. Do I have to endure, have I become the destroyer of other people's households?