BECOMING HONEY'S SISTER
AYU'S MOTHER IS VERY SICK

I'm lucky that mom and dad didn't force me to tell you everything because they still value privacy. Even when I saw me showing discomfort, my parents told me to rest.

It feels that this body is no less tired than the liver, after traveling long enough, plus in a pregnant condition. Arriving at the room, I who should have taken a break chose to reflect on everything. Consider, whether to tell or be silenced with different consequences. But what would happen if one day they all knew this? Ahhh, all the choices are really dizzy.

***

"What are you doing here for?" I threw away the sight when Ilham came to meet. Apparently my father told him that I was home, so he rushed here.

"Mil, how are you? Where have you been for three days? You're all right, right?" ask me Ilham.

Stale questions. I choose not to answer.

"I understand you must be shocked and angry with all this reality. When I knew I was as shocked as you, so I chose to catch up with you because I was really worried. Unfortunately you didn't come home, so I was confused about where else to look."

"Then how did you respond?"

"Mil, by Allah when I found out I was so angry with Ayu. There were no words I could express other than leaving him at that moment because he had dared to lie to me and of course you."

"He's been playing with my feelings!"

"Yes Mila, I understand and you have every right to be angry. But ..."

"But what?"

"I came here to punish Ayu a little bit so that she would realize her mistake. But two hours ago mom called, telling me that Ayu's condition was getting worse. He is currently in the hospital. Ayu is undergoing treatment, her doctor who handles Ayu also said that the time might not be long. When I heard that, all my anger immediately began to fall. It's true he made a very fatal mistake, but he already regretted it Mil and he already declared ready to take responsibility."

I didn't answer. Hearing Ayu's mother hurt badly my heart was not rusty, but on the one hand also I hope justice for bang Hasan.

"Mila, forgive me. I think I should go back to Jakarta. I will accompany Ayu in the end." mas Ilham took a breath for a moment. "And ... If you'd like, would you come home and meet Ayu?"

I who initially threw away the direct view turned to Ilham mas, looking at him questioningly. Is it true that I have to do all of that? Oh no, my heart is still broken. I have not been able to let go of what happened to my husband, how can I now be asked to go back to see Msbak Ayu.

"Mila, you want to?" ask me Ilham.

"No. Don't ask me that." I said. I threw away my face, holding back my strength so that no tears could be spilled even though it felt like this chest was too tight. I can't see I'm Ayu right now.My emotions still can't be controlled. I don't want to hurt him with words, if I remember what he did to Abinya Yumna.

"Alright Mila. I've understood. I will be back today to Jakarta. Allow me to always tell you what happened to Ayu, yes. If you change your mind, don't hesitate to call because I'll pick you up right away."

"Yes Mil,"

"Would we just split up?"

"Mila?"

"I can't be part of your family. I can't afford to be the honey of Ayu. I want to end it all. I really felt sinful to Abinya Yumna, to Yumna and mother as well. So let me get back to my family like I used to. I ...."

"Not Mil, until whenever I will not release you or Ayu. You are my wife that I have to take care of until the end of my life. We will talk again after Ayu's health condition improves. Now let me go home first. When your mother is emotional, so you better calm yourself first."

But Ilham is gone now. While I can only cry because my feelings are messed up. Worrying about what to do.

"Yes Allah .. What should I do? One side of the servant does not have the heart to see the mother of Ayu sick, the other side of the servant is also not willing to what happened to the husband of the previous servant. He had to die alone without being helped when the culprit could try to help." I'm still crying.

"Mila," suddenly mom comes into the room. "Mom actually from the beginning did not agree with your marriage because the test must be much harder than a monogamous marriage. But, after you decided to live it, and now that you are pregnant, mother can already accept your marriage. Even I hope and always pray that your marriage is mawadah warahmah. I want you to be more patient, more sincere in your marriage whatever the test. Don't be quick to think about ending it all despite the weight, Mil. Because your second child candidate also has the right to be born in the middle of a complete family." advice mother who does not know the real reason why I came home because I did not tell, as well as the Ilham mas.

Right now I'm not ready to tell anyone. Let them know, but not from me.

***

It's been two days since Ayu went to the hospital. Mas Ilham reported that since last night he was unconscious. His condition is getting weaker. Madam Sila also called, hoping I would come and apologize to her daughter. But that request I can't grant.

"What's your plan now, Mil?" ask Dad, after we had breakfast together.

"Why Dad? Are Mila and Yumna not allowed to linger here?" my many.

"Astagfirullah, it's not Mila. Mom and dad just want to know your next plan. His first wife Ilham is sick, should you go back there? Looks like they're in need of your help. Remembering the children of Inspiration from his first wife was still small. Maybe you can replace his first wife's role for a while and ..." I haven't finished talking, I cut him off.

"If you don't come back, Mom. Mila just wants to be here. If mom and dad object, Mila will stay with mom." I said. I called Yumna and invited her to visit my mother.

"mil ... Mila! My mom and dad didn't want to throw us out. This is your home too. I just want you, Ilham and the others to be better. Whatever your problems." ask mom, as we go.

"Not going to be able to forget everything that fast, Mom. It can't!" I said. While walking. "We went to duku. Assalamualaikum." I guided Yumna's hand out of this house.