If Only
Jealous again

  I just came out of the bathroom and I was surprised to see that Haris and Fahyan were already here. I saw Fahyan who immediately raised his regretful gaze at me. I walked towards Haris.

"was it from earlier?" my many.

"yet. Fahyan wants to say goodbye to you" answered Haris. I looked at Fahyan.

"are you going back to the dorm?" my many. Fahyan nodded.

"take me to the airport" Pinta Fahyan. Instantly I turned to Bian who seemed to be upset. Look, he's jealous again. I looked at Fahyan again.

"what time?" my many.

"now" he answered. I nodded my head.

"yes it's a ...."

"can't!" Bian cut my words.

"why?" ask Fahyan. "just for a minute" he added.

"i can't be alone" replied Bian. It was as if I was seeing two kids arguing.

"there will be my father" Fahyan said.

"no ma ...."

"just for a second" I tried to relay what happened here. I walked over to Bian. "after delivering it I'll be right back" I said. Bian sighed then nodded.

"not long" he said. I nodded and smiled. I immediately prepared to take Fahyan to the airport.

[travel; car]

   I was in the car with Fahyan. From now on he was just silent, usually he would continue to talk while being with me like this. I looked up trying to ask.

"Fahyan" call me. He turned his head with all his aesthetics. "have you eaten?" my many. He just nodded then refocused forward. You why?" many finally.

"why what?" askalanya.

"why shut up?" my many.

"then what should I do?" ask again. It turned out that he could become quite annoying at a time like this.

"what are you asking me for if you finally let it go like this" said I, who then looked out. I was surprised when the car stopped, I immediately turned to Fahyan. "why stop?" many confused.

"you slept in the hospital last night?" tanyakanya. I nodded twice.

"why??" my many. He took a deep breath.

"do you not understand at all?" she asked. "can't you see I'm jealous?" ask again. Jesus, are all men like this?.

"why? why jealousy?" my many.

"i like you" he replied. The shocked me was only able to fall silent. "can't you see it?" ask again.

"but that's impossible" I replied. He looked at me clingy.

"why is it impossible?" tanyakanya. I swallowed my own spit. My breath suddenly became crowded.

"you can't be like this" I said nervously.

"why? why can't I?" ask again.

"Fahyan don't be like this" I said. "you shouldn't have these feelings" I said. Oh my god, let alone this. "i've considered you like my own sister" I tried to make her understand. He sighed then turned on the car and drove it forward.

   And create an awkward atmosphere here. We didn't talk after. I'm really confused how to. My problem with Randu is not finished Fahyan added.

 Until we got to the airport, I took him inside. Before he got inside, he stopped and looked at me. He stretched out his hand and it made me frown.

"let's hold hands before parting" he said. I who understood immediately took his hand and grasped it. We walked together holding hands.

"be careful on the road yes" I ruffled her hair. He was shaking his lips.

"misrupt again" he protested. I laughed to see it. We finally parted, I waved until he was not seen again. I got back in the car and drove my car back to the hospital because I saw ten missed calls from Bian. He was so possessive that I didn't think he made it.

  I got to the hospital, I quickly stepped into Bian's room. I opened the door slowly and I saw that he was asleep. I closed the door slowly, I gasped when I heard Bian thumping loudly. I looked up and I saw he opened his eyes wide.

"why long?" ask Bian. I approached and sat down by his bed.

"no, it's just your feeling" I replied. He squinted his eyes.

"i'm hungry" he said.

"you haven't eaten yet?" my many. She shook her head innocently. "why?" my many.

"i'm waiting for you" he replied.

"why wait for me?" ask again. He put on his cold face and immediately I goosebumps. "okay let's eat" I stood up and took the porridge I had bought earlier. I helped her sit down so she could eat.

"open your mouth wide .. aaaaa" I said as I lifted the spoon full of food into his mouth. "good boy" I said as he complied to open his mouth. He took over the spoon that was in my hand.

"now open your mouth" he said. I shook my head but after that I said it because he opened his eyes wide.

"the sick are you, Bian, not me" I protested.

"you also have to eat otherwise you will replace my position here" he said. "this is a sign that I love you" he added. I nodded my head.

"what if I don't love you?" my many.

"it doesn't matter. I'll make you love me" she replied easily.

"if the tetep can't?" ask again. Bian flicked his shoulders indifferently.

"i don't care about that" he said. He put a mouthful of porridge in my mouth.

"i'm full" I refused when she wanted to put in another mouthful. "now change you who have to eat" I said, but she beautifully refused.

"i don't feel right here Sof" Bian complained.

"then you must recover quickly so that we can go home quickly" I said. He just nodded innocently. I then took my phone to open social media. Lied if I told you I'd forgotten about Randu. I now open the sosmed instead to look at it, but afterwards I was stunned. My tears suddenly fell, my heart ached. Bian who realized that was approaching immediately.

"what's wrong?" tanyanya's confused. I just shook my head while wiping my tears. Bian immediately picked up my phone when it arrived.

"Return it back" I tried to take my phone but my efforts were in vain.

"are you crying because of this?" tanyakanya. I shook my head with a hand that kept trying to reach my phone.

"return Bian" I asked.

"are you crying because of this?" ask again. "answer" he said half up. I flinched because this was the first time he yelled at me. I cried again, Bian sighed and then pulled me into his arms.  He gently stroked my back.

"Randu" I said in between my sobbing.

"you see he doesn't love you anymore, right?"  ask Bian. He left you for another girl" he added. I'm shaking.

"there must be a misunderstanding" I said. Bian let go of his embrace and looked at me.

"misunderstand what else?" she asked an upset. "you saw for yourself he left you and chose to be engaged to another girl instead of fighting for you" Hearing Bian's words instead of making me calm it made me cry even more. I got more and more excited and again Bian pulled me into his arms.

"don't cry.you still have me here" he said softly. As my ears pressed against his chest, I felt his heartbeat that seemed to be very weak.

"Bian ..." call me.

"hem"

"you're okay, right?" my many.

"hem" he replied as he nodded. "why?" tanyakanya. I'm shaking.

"quite healed" I said. "sorry it made you like this" I added.

"thank you, thank you for coming back" he said. She tightened her arms and it made me warm.

seriate........