If Only
Fevers

Either my feelings or how, this morning it was cold but I was angry. I groaned as I felt something cold touch my forehead. I opened my eyes slowly, I was surprised to see Bian already in front of me.

"Away awake?" Ask Bian. I tried to sit down but he forbade me. "You rest" he added.

"You here?" My toot. I really don't have the energy.

"So where should I be?" Ask back. "There's no way I'm gonna let you get sick alone" he added.

"Who's sick try?" Just pissed. Instead of answering, he took a bowl of porridge that was already on the nightstand.

"Let's eat first" he said. I frowned at me. With an annoyed look on his face, he put down his spoon. "Do you know? The whole house is so panicked because you don't wake up all day" he added. I immediately sat down.

"Where's the stretcher?" I asked unconsciously. Bian looked at me.

"Don't try to look for it again" he replied with great emphasis. I realized what happened before I was here. I looked down and cried again. Bian immediately hugged me when I knew I was crying. "Don't cry over him" he said.

"Why is it like this?" I asked while crying pleasugukan.

"It's not your fault" he calmed me down. "Now you eat first" he added.

I still feel weak until now, I only eat three spoons and I feel like I've been throwing up. Bian was still loyal beside me, I told him to leave but he was indeed a stubborn child. I slept sideways facing Bian who was sitting on the sofa with his laptop. I watched her clingy, I recalled how she helped me when my schoolmates bullied me. When we used to go and go to school together, eat in the same place, hide in the same place, and play together.

"Abian ..." Call me lirih. He looked at me for a moment and put down his laptop. He walked over to me and sat on the edge of the bed.

"What's wrong?" Soft question. "Is anyone sick?" Ask again. I shook my head weakly, then closed my eyes. I felt calm when he was next to me like this. What else when I felt her hand gently stroking my hair. Without waiting for long, I fell asleep.

[Home; dining room]

I woke up about a few hours ago. This afternoon is still like yesterday, my heart is still cloudy.I sit at the dinner table alone, om Haris gave me a lot of rest until I was bored. I didn't expect it, but Bian didn't call me at all.

"You waiting for me?" I looked up when I heard Bian's voice. With a big smile he approached me. I did not answer his words, I only spoke a thousand languages. He sat down next to me and looked at me sharply and then checked my forehead. He breathed a rough breath. "I want to teach him a little lesson" he said which immediately made me stiffen.

"What do you mean?" Ask wonder.

"You're this way because of him" he replied with emotion. I took a deep breath.

"If you don't tell him this won't happen" I said. "You realize you started it" I said softly.

"You're blaming me?" Ask. "You made me do this to him" he added. I laughed, not believing what he just said.

"What's your real purpose?" My toot. "Do you realize what you're doing?" Ask again. And now replace him who speaks a thousand languages. I got up and left him there alone.

I went into the room with shaky steps. Bian has really changed drastically. And honestly I miss her, miss her warm smile.I put my body back on the bed. I lost my energy and appetite due to the presence of Bian who carried emotions. I will continue my sleep until night turns morning again and so on.

But time does not turn that fast. I woke up at nine in the night, I tied my hair while walking down to the kitchen.

"Where was the man sitting here?" I asked Bi Uma one of the servants in my house.

"I'm sorry but I don't know" he replied. "Didn't he just walk into Miss's room?" Ask her. I frowned at me.

"He's in my room?" Ask wonder. Bi Uma nodded.

"But maybe he's gone because the car is no longer there" he said. "Did something happen, miss?" Ask. I'm shaking.

"Nothing" I replied with a smile.

"But I found this on the floor" replied bi Uma. He gave me a paper that had been squeezed and when I opened it was a photo of Randu.

"Photo Randu?" I'm confused.

" Yes, but I don't know why it could be on the floor" he replied, I got up and ran to the room. Sure enough, the photo of Randu that I kept in the drawer has disappeared. I immediately ran to get my car keys and jacket.

"Where are you?" Ask directly.

"What's wrong?"

"Where are you?" Ask again. "I'm sure you won't do that" I said.

"You know, from childhood I couldn't see you getting sick ... Is it because of this bastard"

"Hey this is not his fault" I said in a panic. "Where are you? Quickly tell me" I asked.

"Don't go out ... You're not well"

"I asked where you are" I asked again.

"I'm on XX street"

I drove my car there. I look like an undead now. I finally arrived at XX road which was meant by Bian. From a distance I saw their presence. It felt like my heart was broken to see the already helpless Pandu. I stopped not far from Bian's car. I went down with a shammer and immediately approached Randu who was lying with a battered face.

"Randu get up hey" called me while patting her cheek. Randu opened his narrowed eyes and it was able to make me cry pleasantly.

"Sorry" he said. I shook my head strongly.

"Hey, it's not your fault" I cupped her cheeks together. I stroked her cheek gently. I was so worried about Randu that I forgot that Bian was here too. I stood up and walked up to him.

"Why are you doing this?" I asked in between my sobbing. His gaze was still the same, cold and piercing.

"Am I wrong?" Ask back.

"You can't do this" I replied. I hit his chest many times. "If you hurt me like this" I said.

"Now let's go home" he said flatly. I looked up and looked at him in wonder.

"You're really crazy" I said annoyed. "I hate you more, I'm not going home with you" I said.

"I said go home!" His impact. I flinched but soon I fought it.

"Why did you come? Why don't you just die? You can't come and do this to me!" My yelling.

"Well if that's what you want. Today may be the last day you can see it" Bian said. I was unaware of the whereabouts of the two Bian guards who were preparing to beat up Randu again. I immediately turned around, and sure enough Randu was already in their hands. I looked back at Bian.

"Dian!" Snap me. "You ..." I stopped, I cried again.

"You want him dead?" Ask Bian. I'm shaking.

"Don't do it" I clenched my hands together and begged him.

"Now let's go home" he said. I turned around and looked back at Randu. Maybe the way I saved her was by staying away from her.

I looked back at Bian. "I'm home, but don't bother him anymore" I said.

"Come home" she asked again.

"Don't leave him here, you should take him to the hospital" I said.

"They'll both take care of it. You come with me home now" he said. I nodded resignedly. I walked behind Bian. I stopped for a moment and looked back. My tears are dripping.

"I'm on a time bomb that can destroy you in an instant. And the only way to save you is to stay away from you"

Seriate........