If Only
Happy day

Today Bian and I will go to my parents' grave. In the car we were silent.

"Have you eaten?" Ask Bian. I just nodded. Bian then held my hand. "What's wrong? Something bothering you?" Ask Bian.

I'm shaking. "I just miss them" I replied.

"Today we will go visit them" Bian said. I smiled and then nodded.

Arriving in front of the tomb, Bian stopped me and then looked at me. "Please promise me you don't cry, prove you've lived well all this time" Bian said. I held her hand on my shoulder.

"I won't cry, I promise" I said. Me and Bian then walked towards the graves of my father and mother. Me and Bian were crouching between the tombs of the two.

"They must be proud to have a beautiful daughter like you" Bian said. I'm turning.

"Am I pretty?" My toot. Bian looked and smiled.

"You're perfect" she said, then ruffled my hair. "Tell them that you're happy with me" she said. I'm nodding. I then closed my eyes.

"Papa, mama, I hope you're okay there because I'm fine here too. Right now I'm happy because there's Bian back to fill my void. I always thought everything I'd been through before was a nightmare. About how I could lose you, lose the people closest to me. How I lived suffering for so many years. About how then my life changed drastically. About my knee having to feel the pain of falling down so many times. I once thought, what to use in order for me to survive and stay strong. It has to be how I live the rest of my half meaningless life. I miss you so much and you will miss me, see you in your next life. I always pray, in the next life we will be together longer"

Bian stroked my shoulder slowly. "Let's go home" he asked. "the day is overcast" he added.

"But I want to go to the graves of Fahyan and Randu" I said.

"We can go tomorrow dear" he said, pinching my cheek. I sighed, the day was already overcast. It is still noon. "Now let's go home, tomorrow we go, I miss my sister too" he said. Hearing Bian say that, made my smile expand.

"Alright but promise me we'll go tomorrow" I said with a smile. Bian smiled and nodded. We walked towards the car, I kept hugging his arm. And I always pray that our love grows together.

[Two years later]

"Sofia let's take a photo together" Wendy shouted as she ran towards me. I welcomed her well and a smile broadened. Today is my graduation day. Two years passed, today was the culmination of my struggle.

After taking a picture, Wendy looked at me who was indeed a little moody.

"Is something bothering you?" Ask. I smiled wryly.

"I still hope to share this happiness with my loved ones" I replied.

"You can share it with me and my mom and dad" Wendy said. We throw the same smile.

"Thank you very much" I said, almost crying. Wendy nodded and smiled.

"Congratulations to you Sofia" Wendy's father and mother appear from behind. I turned right away. Wendy's mother then hugged me. "I didn't expect to still find a strong girl like you. Believe me, your parents must be proud to have a daughter like you" he let go of his embrace.

"Thank you Auntie, um" I wiped the tears that had dripped when Wendy's mother held me.

"Don't cry" Wendy's father said, rattling my hair. "Om happy Wendy met good people around her" he added.

"When he was so stubborn" the mother whispered a little.

"That's how mom talks like that, I heard her know!" Wendy Sahut. I could only laugh at the family interaction.

We talked a lot and after that Wendy's mom and dad went to see a friend of hers who was also here.

"Can Bian really not be present?" Ask Wendy.

"What am I expecting? He is even more concerned with his work" I replied annoyed. Yeah, Bian couldn't attend because he was out of town. I was angry and also upset, but then I tried to understand his busyness.

"Hey, this is a good thing, today all the forces gathered here. You and I can get one of them" whispered Wendy teasing me. I shuddered in horror at what Bian was going to do.

"I don't want to take any chances" I said in horror. "You don't know what Bian looks like" I said. Wendy melengos's.

"Well, do you miss him?" My question is flirting. Wendy nodded.

"Since the breakup he never contacted me or appeared in front of me" replied Wendy.

"Why don't you try to find him?" My toot.

"Where should I look for him?" Ask Wendy to me who obviously doesn't know.

"Why are you asking me? Why don't you go find her house?" I said give advice.

"Ah done. Why should I be busy looking" said Wendy annoyed. "After all I can look for another" he added.I just rolled my eyeballs lazily.

"I also intend to" I said.

"What do you intend to do?" Ask Wendy.

"Finding a new one" I answered and laughed. But after that I immediately fell silent because I heard someone's deheman's voice. And sure enough, Bian appeared with a large bouquet of flowers.

"What are you looking for again?" Ask Bian.

"Sof, I don't want to take any chances, I'm leaving first" Wendy just left.

"Wen!! Ah you unfaithful man!"I said half screaming. I remembered again that Bian was still here. I directly looked.

"You're getting naughty" Bian said, then pinched my cheek.

"Why are you here? Why not just go out of town?" Just pissed. Bian laughed and ruffled my hair.

"I want to surprise my future wife" Bian replied. Bian then kissed my forehead. "Happy graduation day baby" she whispered. My cheeks immediately turned red. "Stay part of my life" he added. I nodded and went into his arms.

Today, I finished my education and today I dedicate it to Fahyan. Fahyan must be proud to see me continue something he couldn't finish. No one knew that I had been studying at Fahyan University. It feels good to be able to realize his dream.

Today I also dedicate to my father and my mother also to Randu. I am happy at this time, Haris and Aunt Dona are also present to fill the void in my life. When I thought I'd be forever alone, but then this person was present in my life.

"Have you eaten?" Ask Bian. I'm shaking. "Let's eat" he asked.

"Om, auntie, come with us" take me.

"Well yes, this will be exciting" said Bian and laughed.

"Where are we going to eat?" Ask Aunt Dona.

"Sofi knows a place where the food is delicious" I replied. And I'm sure after knowing the place Bian will definitely put on his wry face.

****

"Is there a new menu?" I asked Taeil. Yes, I took them to Taeil's restaurant that opened a new branch not far from my campus.

"We have something new, you want to try it?" Taeil asked and smiled. I'm nodding.

"Of course, Tan, um, this is Taeil Sofi's friend" I said introducing Taeil.

"What do you mean he's your friend?" Bian Sahut. "He's my friend" he said.

"At the same time Taeil doesn't mind" I said. Bian glared with his grim face. Aunt Dona and om Haris just laughed at Bian's already flushed face holding back the upset.

We finally had a conversation after we finished eating. Taeil is here with us. After everything we've been through, we're gathered here today.

seriate.....