If Only
why talk about ex?

I just woke up from my sleep, I immediately sat down and patted my cheek many times. I then ruffled my hair, could this be a dream? Where maybe I really invite Bian to date, yes even if not directly. I got off the bed and intended to take a shower, but I immediately paused my intention because my phone was ringing. I took it right away on the nightstand. Suddenly my heart was beating fast. Aish is stupid of me, I thought.

"H-hello" why did I get so nervous? I heard Bian laughing across the street. "Why laugh?" Many protests.

"No, I just can't believe you said that last night"

I held my cheek that was already flushed. "Yes forget that if you think it's disturbing!" I shouted who was holding back shame. But Bian laughed even louder.

"Rapidly take a shower.in 15 minutes I'll be there"

"Jang ..." My words were interrupted when Bian broke the connection. I threw my phone in the bed. "It happened, it's my fault" I said resignedly. I walked into the bathroom shaved and occasionally yawned.

***

I was in the living room. Bi Uma came and brought him a glass of milk. I rarely eat breakfast, which is a waste of time.

"Bi, is Dad's room cleared?" My toot. Bi Uma shook her head.

"Sorry miss, as long as there is no master I do not dare to enter because there is no order" bi Uma replied. I'm nodding. "Then let me clean up now" he added, smiling.

"Look easy, bi. Don't rush" I said and returned his smile. Bi Uma left after getting an order from me. I focused on the magazine I was reading. Suddenly the sound of someone's footsteps made me stop reading. I immediately stood up as Bian's voice called my name softly. I threw the magazine in my hand. My heart better stop than beat like this.

"Are you ready?" Ask Bian. I nodded nervously. "You nervous?" Ask Bian who was trying to tease me.

"No. I'm just thirsty" I said. I immediately sat down and finished the milk made by bi Uma. Bian laughed and sat down next to me. He stroked my hair so that it made me bow a little.

"Well, you want to die?" Many protests. I was finally able to fight my nervousness even a little.

"It's okay to have her dead in your hand" Bian replied, smiling. God, why is his face so inhumane? I didn't lie this time.

I focus on the outfit. "Would you like to take me to a meeting or something?" Ask wonder. "Can't you just meet me, don't wear a suit like this?" Ask again. Bian immediately looked at his clothes which were indeed too formal.

"I'm sorry I have a meeting later so it must be neat" Bian replied and then grinned. I believe it because papa's mother is also a very neat person. I nodded my head. Bian clasped my finger and smiled. "Sorry because I haven't been able to take you to dinner together with a more relaxed atmosphere" said Bian. I shook my head.

"No problem. I'm also busy taking care of the company so we just don't have time" I said with a smile.

"But I will always pick you up like this" Bian said. "Because seeing you alone has become a nutritious intake for my heart" he added. I'm gawking, he's a human or a crocodile.

"How many victims did you say just now?" Tanyaku.

"Well, you think I'm some kind of land crocodile?" Tanya Bian did not accept. I nodded my head. Bian smiled ignorantly.

"really. I am a crocodile ready to pounce on you whenever I want" Bian said.

"You're scary" I said annoyed. Bian laughed at me who had an amused expression.

"Oh yeah can I ask you a question?" Ask Bian. I fell silent and then nodded. "May I see your late father's room?" Ask Bian again. I thought for a moment. Maybe it's okay because Bian from childhood also knew my father. I walked towards my father's room and workspace and Bian also followed me. I saw bi Uma was wanting to enter, I immediately called her. I ran a little and stopped right in front of him.

"Me and Bian will be in for a bit. Sofi will call auntie later" I said. And without much asking bi Uma immediately left. I opened the door slowly, the last time I entered about a month ago. I'm sure it must be in a lot of dust. I went in and found a switch to turn the lights on.

"This is your father's den?" Ask Bian. I'm nodding.

"His father was too simple so he combined the room and workspace" I said. "You were here as a child" I said.

"Oh yeah? Maybe I forgot" Bian walked through every corner. Sometimes he read some books. I follow wherever he moves. Bian looked at a picture where I was my father and my mother.

"Bian" called me when Bian never turned away from the picture frame. Bian looked and smiled.

"Me too" added me. "I'm going to the bathroom. So wait here for a second" I darted off to the bathroom.

I came out after a while leaving Bian alone.

"Bian" call me. I saw him a little surprised. "What's wrong?" Ask wonder. Bian shook his head. "Let's be late" I said. Finally Bian and I came out of my father's room. Before going to the office, I called bi Uma to clean up my room.

In the car I was silent. I am still awkward when it is not the first time I have been close to a man. If this was Randu, I would have been singing aloud from earlier and he would have praised my voice which was really melodious. Ah I haven't been able to turn away apparently, but to return is also impossible. I just need to get used to Bian. He's not a bad guy either and I'm sure slowly I can get used to it. I looked over and then pulled out one hand for me to hug.

"Hey. What's the matter?" Bian asked confusedly. I shook my head.

"I'm sorry" I said.

"I'm sorry for what?" Ask Bian.

"I'm sorry I'm still thinking about the others when you're here now" I said. Bian kissed my head long enough.

"Then don't think of anything but me" Bian said. I nodded my head. Bian sighed. "Actually I was thinking about something too" he said. I pulled my head.

"Think what?" Askaqua.

"My ex-lover. She will get married tomorrow" Bian replied casually. I was silent about his honesty.

"Why do you have to think about the wedding?" Sinister manyu. "If that's what you're marrying him for" I said.

"If not already an ex maybe I will marry him" again Bian replied casually and without straining at all. I laughed in disbelief. It really hurts. Uh it looks like my little heart is really crying. "Tomorrow I'll invite you to come to her wedding" he added.

"I'm sorry Mr. Abian Saguna I don't have time for unimportant things" I refused with a bland smile. I turned my face away because I was upset. She could talk about her ex who is even getting married tomorrow.

"I'll arrange your schedule Miss Sofia Hanlim" Bian spoke formally to me. I wanted to bang my head against the windshield so many times. Whatever you want to say, I'll keep it quiet until tomorrow.

[Office; the next day]

Today I went to the office faster than usual. I walked into Haris's room. I knocked on the door and opened it a little.

"Sofi can come in?" Ask slowly. I entered when I got permission from him. I took a chair and sat on it.

"How is Aunt Dona om?" My toot. Yes, after Fahyan's departure, Aunt Dona fell ill and underwent hospitalization.

"It's better" replied Haris. I nodded my head.

"Om, can Sofi ask for something to help?" My toot.

"Solicit what please?" Ask about Haris.

"Today alone prevented Bian from changing my schedule" I replied in a panic. "Om know, Bian today will invite Sofi to his ex's wedding, who is not upset" he added.

"Today you really do not have a meeting schedule or anything" said om Haris casually. I gawk. I am a candidate for President, yes, I do not have a job like this unemployment.

"Om, Sofi ka ..." My words were cut.

"Bian canceled everything last night" Haris said. I'm gawking again, I want to move to another planet like this. I dropped my head on Haris's desk. He laughed and ruffled my hair.

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