If Only
Snake bottom
"Sophia!!" I flinched back as Bian again snapped at me, and this time with a higher intonation. "You hate it or not I don't care at all, but remember one thing I won't let you go!" Added. My tears suddenly dripped, I guess after I vent my anger all this time I will feel relieved. But my chest even felt tight, my breath even became irregular. I lowered my head and squeezed out my trembling hands. Bian yelling at me? I hope he apologizes and realizes his mistake. I dare not even look him in the face. I was silent with the most painful heart.
When I got home, Bian took me inside. I just kept quiet and so did Bian. I gontai walked in and followed Bian behind me. I continued to step towards the room.When I was about to enter, Bian held my hand and made me turn around. I kept my head down, with no intention of looking at his face.
"Remember my words" said Bian flat. Hah a few seconds ago stupidly I still hope Bian will apologize. I remained silent neither answering nor merely nodding. I look more like a mannequin. "Sofia" called Bian in her high voice. I nodded my head. I then forcibly removed the handle and went straight into the room. I sat down on the floor and my tears split. I cried so hard, I still can't believe Bian the man who used to love me so much is now hurting me so many times. I squeezed my clothes firmly with my hands still shaking. I got up and walked towards the sofa, I put my body there to sleep and cried again. I kept crying until I was exhausted and fell asleep.
[Room; nighttime]
I woke up in a different position, as I remember I fell asleep on the sofa and when I woke up I was already in bed. I took my phone and got a call coming in from an unknown number. I didn't pick it up right away, I put my phone back down and got off the bed. I lazily walked towards the bathroom. A few minutes later I finished the shower and again my phone rang. I went back and it was the same number that called me. This time I lifted it.
"Hello, who is this?" My toot.
"It's me Taeil" he replied. I straightened my body. Taeil called? Yesterday afternoon we exchanged numbers.
"Oh yeah, what's up?" My toot.
"Did something happen?" Ask Taeil. I'm silent, do I have to tell you? It doesn't matter if he knows.
"It's nothing" I replied.
"You lied again" Taeil said. "Tell me what you want to tell me, don't keep her alone" he added. My tears came and I finally cried again.
"She didn't even apologize for her mistake" I said in between. "Am I wrong if I'm angry?" My toot. "He can hug his girlfriend and even laugh with the other woman in front of me" I said.
"So you're actually Bian's girlfriend?" Ask Taeil. Suddenly I felt like I was in reality. How can I be angry? I'm not even who.
"Not" I replied.
"Then why do you keep going with him and hurt yourself?" Ask Taeil. I cried even more with Taeil's question.
"You think I'm gonna stay with him?" My toot. "I would have left if Bian hadn't forced me to stay with him" I said.
"Then go, you shouldn't love and hurt yourself" Taeil said. Right, I just need to find a way to go. "If you need help, just say it, I'll be ready to help you" he added.
"How do I go?" I asked. "i didn't even dare to look at his face when he yelled at me earlier" I said softly.
"Bian yelling at you?" Ask Taeil.
"Hem" answered. "Because I keep mentioning the name of someone he hates" I said.
"No, no, it will only make her more angry later" I replied. "I don't want you to be fucked because of me" I said. I heard Taeil laughing.
"You think he can hurt me?" Ask Taeil. "Sofia if you want to go, go. Don't hurt your own heart like this" he added. I wiped the rest of my tears.
"I'll try" I said.
"good. Now rest" said Taeil. "For I can really ask you out" he added. I smile.
"alright. I turn it off" I turned off the phone. I put down my phone and walked towards the balcony. I miss my apartment. I haven't been there in a long time. Without thinking long I went straight in, I combed my hair and gave it a thin rasp. I took the car keys and left immediately.
[On the road]
I was driving with your car, I got into the basemant for parking. I got down and walked to my apartment. Suddenly I saw a woman who was no stranger to me. A woman walked in the opposite direction to me, and when she was near she looked up and we looked at each other.
"Sofi" said Rose. Yes, the woman I said was Rose. I smile.
"Hi, we meet again" I said as well.
"Where are you going?" Ask Rose.
"I'm going to my apartment" I replied. Rose nodded her head. "Where are you going?" Also ask. Rose pulled something out of her tote bag. He showed me a watch.
"I'm going to Bian's office, I want to return the watch left in my room that day" Rose replied. "I also just found out that we live in the same apartment" he added with a smile attached to his lips. I'm speechless in a thousand languages, does that mean Bian's staying at Rose's apartment?.
"Then I go first" I was about to step away but Rose called my name again. I turned to look at him.
"It seems like I would be too outrageous to say you should stay away from her, so do it now so that I don't have to say it" said Rose, who still had a smile on her lips. "You know, we love each other" he added. I frowned.
"If you love each other, why aren't you the one with him right now?" My toot. The smile on his lips instantly faded away.
"It's because of you, so go and stop being a barrier between us" Rose replied.
"I'm not going anywhere, if you want, try" I said. "Bring Bian away from me, so I don't have to bother getting away from him" after saying that I went straight away. I heard Rose keep swearing but I didn't bully her. I thought she was a good woman, and she was a snake like her friend. I went into my apartment and started packing the things I wanted to bring, including the photos that were still on display. I stared at a picture where there was me and Randu there. I started to regret something, that day when she asked me to stay by her side, I should have agreed. But I prefer Bian who turns out to be more of a jerk. I'd rather not find out about Randu, than I'll get hurt eventually. I cleaned the whole room until I was exhausted. I lay my body on my soft bed. I haven't slept here in a long time. I looked at the clock and it turned out to be 11 p.m. I'm just sleeping here, I thought. I then took my phone and called bi Uma so she wouldn't worry.
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