If Only
Want to be together

This morning Bian and I were able to go home. With arrogance he said that he was healthy when he still had to be guided while walking. I nag him every time he says he can walk on his own.

"wait"

"Dresses"

"later you fall"

He didn't listen to me at all. He continued walking on his own with slightly shaky steps. He was like an important person, followed by ten bodyguards plus me. I ran and managed to reach his hand. He looked and smiled.

"I'm glad you're after me" Bian said. I laughed in disbelief. I didn't stop yelling at his name and ran after him.

"From that moment I kept chasing you, you made me tired" I protested. He's messing up my hair.

"we go home okay" he said with a sweet smile. I nodded with a smile.

In the car he was constantly complaining about me who had never been looking for him. I just rolled my eyeballs lazily as he started to blame me.

"you know I'm waiting for you every day" Bian said for the umpteenth time, "you're absolutely ridiculous" he added.

"i'm ridiculous?" ask me not to accept. "are you not the silly one?" ask again.

"obviously you're the one who's ridiculous" Bian replied again, "you know I'm moving and you don't ask me where at all" he added. I took a breath and looked out the window.

"you also moved why not say it" I said. "had I been lazy to argue with you" I put on my headset to listen to music. But Bian is still Bian, he took one and put it in his ear.

"what is this song?" bian asked confusedly. I looked at him.

"sleeping song.I'm tired of your nagging" I replied lazily. He smiled and put his head on my shoulder.

"we go home to my house" he said. I immediately put my head away.

"are you crazy?" my many.

"i just got well. I just got out of the hospital" Bian said casually.

"i don't want to" I refused. "why am I sleeping in your house??" just pissed.

"yes, take me to your house" said Bian.

"no!!" I said half yelling, "there'll be a Minah bi who can take care of you" I said. He nodded with his lips forward.

"you want me dead, huh?" that's a very nonsensical question.

"you want me to die of exhaustion taking care of myself, the company, and now you're asking me to take care of you?" askaku. He lifted his head and looked straight ahead.

"you can't forget who I am" Bian said with his bravery. I nodded my head.

"yes, really too. Bian is still Bian who is always annoying .. because of your spoiled attitude I forget who you are" I said. "I will take care of you but not to sleep in your house" I added.

"where do you want to go?" ask Bian. He looked and we looked at each other.

"yes, come home to me" I said, "do you think I don't have a home?" just pissed.

"when are we home?" ask Bian plain-ass.

"wait, I will" I replied with a laugh. Bian pinched my cheek until I complained of pain. I hit his arm so he took off his pinch. "sick Bi" I shouted. But the driver really tried not to care about what was going on at the back, he just focused forward.

"sick?" tanyanya relax.

"you think?" ask me back. "you saw my cheeks become red because of you" I said protest. He laughed and looked out.

"don't try to leave again" Bian said, sounding cold. A few minutes ago, he was warm. I sighed, I hated being in this situation. "I can do whatever I want. Don't forget that" he added with emphasis. I can't believe it. Does he have a dual personality? I asked in my heart. I just kept quiet without saying anything, I prefer to listen to the music on my phone and fall asleep by myself.

[house; night]

I just got out of the bathroom and still have a towel on my head. My phone is ringing. When I found out who called, I picked it up.

"where's sis?" ask Fahyan. Yeah, the one who called was Fahyan.

"i miss" Fahyan said. "when can we meet again?" tanyakanya.

"i'm lazy to meet you, it's annoying" I replied and of course it was a joke.

"No. I won't be annoying anymore" Fahyan said. I felt something strange, so I asked.

"is everything okay?" my many.

"hem" Fahyan just answered like that.

"i'm serious" I said again.

"yes what the hell is going on?" ask her while laughing.

"i just want to make sure you're okay" I said. "have you eaten?" my many.

"already" replied Fahyan. "Why not return my message?" Ask.

"You're sending me a message?" I'm confused.

"Hem. Not a normal message" he replied. "It's an amazing message" he replied again.

"what's that?"my many.

"My message of love has not been answered, but I have waited a long time for it" replied Fahyan and again I ran out of words. I cleared my throat to neutralize my heart.

"don't start again" I said. It's nothing, I think in the end he will get hurt later

"was I wrong?" tanyakanya.

"no. not so" I said. I let out a breath. "Listen Fahyan, love isn't that easy to get. You're just obsessed with not wanting to have one" I replied.

"Optional?" Ask Fahyan. "I think this love grew as I grew" he said.

"Fahyan ak ...." My words were cut.

"Aish don't discuss something that is not important" said Fahyan arrived. "Next month is my birthday. Can I have something?" Ask.

"What do you want?" I'm nervous.

"Next month I'll be home. I want us to spend the whole day together" Fahyan replied.

"You're on vacation?" My toot.

"It's okay, I'll set the time" he replied. "What about two or three days?" Ask Fahyan.

"Aish can't ... I have a lot of work" I replied. "At the same time you're still a brave boy to ask me out on a date" I added.

"This once. As a gift for my birthday" Fahyan insisted with a whine. I let out a breath.

"Yes already. Just let me know when you get home" I said at last. His voice was cheering across there.

"Yes, I turned it off, good night little girl" she said in an overzealous voice, I would still nag but her phone was hung up.

"Aish basic Fahyan a rancid boy!!" Shouted in the room. I haven't thrown my phone yet, it's been ringing again. Who this time? Ask myself. Bian called me, I was lazy to deal with him. I threw my phone on the bed and out of the room. I walked towards the back garden, the usual place where me, mom, and dad used to sit together.

I sat in one of three chairs. I stared at the chair, I felt it was still warm. I turned to look up at the sky, the star was shining brightly.

"You're the bright shining star God gave to mom and dad" that's the word they always use when we sit here together. Unknowingly I was crying, I missed them. I was crying, it was so painful. I squeezed my chest that hurt, I coughed from crying.

"Why did you leave me alone?" My yelling. "Why did you let me feel this pain on my own?" I scream like a possessed man. If there was a phrase that could explain my current pain, I really wanted to use it. "Dad, mom, is this a drama? Does the main character always have to lose everything in order to be strong?" Tanyaku. "If so, let me be weak so that I don't have to lose you both" I hugged my own knees, I drowned my face there. My shoulders were shaking violently, I couldn't stop crying.

"It's not the first time I've seen you cry, but why is the frequency always the same? Why is the wound not lost or reduced?" Ask someone behind me. I lifted my head and looked back.

"Abian ... "

Seriate....