If Only
Meet again

I was still stunned in my seat. The other students were still outside to enjoy their food while I was on the bus, today we will be home because the activities here are over. During this week, I kept thinking about Bian, Randu, and also Fahyan. I shed tears, after a long time I finally cried again. My chest again felt an incredible tightness. I miss them, papa, mama. Two years later, this wound is still wet. I wiped my tears but he still wouldn't stop. Suddenly my phone rang, when I saw the number was unknown. I was about to ignore it, but my eyes kept on going there. I then lifted it up. For a moment the phone was silent. Just as I was about to turn off the connection a man's voice sounded.

"Sofia" call the man. I was still silent, as if I was no stranger to that voice. "Are you there?" Ask again. "How are you? Is everything okay? I missed you ... We're all here to miss you" said the man. I hold my HP tightly.

"W-who are you?" I'm nervous.

"Didn't you miss me? Don't you miss my sister? Your folks?" Ask the man.

"O o-my parents what do you mean?" My toot. "Who are you?" Ask again.

"Abian ... I am Abian Saguna" replied the man who turned out to be Bian. I stammered, I couldn't say a word at all. "I miss you" he added. My crying suddenly exploded. Last I saw him still lying in the hospital with various life support tools. I didn't find out about it because I was afraid I'd regret knowing the truth.

"You're alive?" I asked in between my cries.

"Rem ... I'm alive and all this is because of you and my sister" he replied. "My brother gave his life and you gave your love" he added. I cried again when I remembered Randu's sacrifice for me and Bian.

"I thought ... I thought you were ...." I did not continue my words, because my stuffing was becoming more and more.

"I won't let you live alone" he said. "Are you going to stay on the bus?" Ask Bian. I wiped my tears.

"How do you know?" My toot. I heard Bian laughing.

"Get out" said. I looked out the window. My heart immediately wanted to stop. Without waiting for long I ran and got off the bus. But when I got off there was nobody here. Only other students were enjoying the food. I came back crying, I crouched down hugging my knees. How can I hallucinate so far? I even very clearly saw his handsome face.

"You're so crybaby" I looked up slowly as I sobbed. I was crying again. Bian is right in front of me right now. I can't believe I'm gonna see her again. He crouched down and hugged me tightly, very tightly.

****

I still listen faithfully to his heartbeat. I kept sticking for almost 3 hours. After calming me down, Bian led me into his room. Damn, the company we stayed in for a week was his. My friend's been gone for the past 2 hours, and I barely care about it. We sat on the couch and I kept hugging him.

"Have you?" Ask Bian. And it's been almost 3 hours that we haven't spoken at all. I'm the only one listening to her heartbeat. "Sofia" call her. I kept my body away so I could look at her.

"Why?" Ask slowly. Bian looked at me a long time ago and smiled.

"Why are you so evil to leave me alone" he said. "I even struggled to come back alive to be with you. But when I woke up I realized that I was back alone" he added. Bian laughed a little. "I kept looking for you and I finally found you. I'm grateful for that, because I can finally end our loneliness" Bian said. I saw Bian wipe away his tears that had already accumulated in the eye pelup. I patted her shoulder.

"Cry" I said. And then her crying broke. He cried in my arms and kept holding his chest.

"I lost them, I lost their love, how am I supposed to survive?" Said Bian who was still crying. "I've also made you lose people you love, I keep making mistakes. At first I wanted to give up and get out of your life, I didn't want to see you suffer continuously because with me, I couldn't see the hatred in your eyes" he added. The one who cried could only stroke her head gently. Either a curse or a fate what made us suffer all this time.

"I didn't stay away because I hated you, how could I look at the man whose body had the heart of a man who was almost 6 years with me? How should I strengthen my heart when I have to deal with you? I tried to ignore you from my mind, I tried to forget everything that happened. I try to live without your shadow and people who have left me" I added.

"Don't ever go again" she asked. Bian clasped my finger and continued to hug me. I took my body away and smiled.

"Ah yes ... Let's go see Aunt Dona and Haris" ask me. Bian nodded his head.

"Wait a minute, I still miss you" he said. I just sighed, letting Bian drown in my arms.

****

"You're Bian, right?" I asked who still did not believe. I looked up so I could see it.

Bian shakes. "I'm not Bian" he replied casually.

"Then who?" I asked innocently.

"Your husband" replied Bian. "I won't ask or ask for your consent, next month we'll get married" he added. I immediately distanced my body.

"What's right?" Manya surprised. "I'm still in college tau" I shouted annoyed. Bian just flicked his shoulders indifferently.

"Looks like you only love Randu huh? You know, let me die" Bian said. I looked at him sharply.

"I'm more and more sure you're Bian" I said cynically. "I don't want to fight with you" I'm back in his arms. And cup, a kiss landed on my forehead.

"I love you so much" he said.

"Me too" I hugged his arm even more tightly. I closed my eyes and prayed everything would be fine after this.

Arriving there, I immediately went down and followed by Bian. Without further ado I directly knocked on the door. I knocked many times because the door was not open.

"Is Aunt Dona not home?" Asked Bian who was already standing next to me

"You know, we're the same as we weren't here before, how do I know" chirped me as my hand continued to knock on the door. Bian just grumbled.

"Let's call Aunt Dona" tell Bian. I, who did not care, kept calling Aunt Dona, and the door opened. For a moment we were equally silent. Until I finally came forward and immediately hugged Aunt Dona who was already crying.

"Why did you just come back?" Ask Aunt Dona sobbing.

"I'm sorry Sofia Auntie" I stroked her back gently. I took off my arms so I could see his face. I smile. "Sofia returns Aunt ... Sofia's coming home" I said. Aunt Dona nodded her head while wiping away her tears.

"Let's come in, Haris must be very happy with your arrival" asked Aunt Dona. Finally Bian and I followed Aunt Dona into the house.

****

I was walking to my class. After a long debate, Bian finally allowed me to continue my studies. But with the record he'll keep an eye on me. I used to hate it if he was too overprotective of me. But now I want Bian to keep doing that.

When I came in, Wendy came straight to my desk. He then looked at me.

"You're getting naughty" said Wendy. I looked at him flat. Wendy then sat down on the empty bench next to me. "That's nasty. You have a very handsome friend but you don't intend to introduce him to me" said Wendy. I rolled my eyeballs lazily.

"Aren't you enough to have a nice guy like Jun?" Ask me annoyed. Wendy sighed.

"We've broken up"

"Huh!!"

Seriate...