If Only
Bitter tragedy

"Rope ...." Randu immediately hugged me and it made me cry.

"I miss you" he said. Randu took off his embrace and then switched to rubbing both of my cheeks gently. "I'm sorry" he added.

"I'm sorry" I said reluctantly. Randu.

"Let's fix everything" said Randu. I looked up and we stared at each other.

"You know it's impossible" I said. "Everything has changed" I said.

"What's changed?" Ask Randu.

"Time and feeling" I replied. Randu was silent and slowly lowered his hand which was still on my cheek. "Time changes everything Randu, feelings, circumstances" I added.

"So fast?" Tanya Randu lirih's.

"My heart wants to, but circumstances push us back to get away from each other and forget" I replied. "Because of the many hearts I ended up hurting" I added and then I cried again.

"Sofia ...." Call Randu lirih.

"I'm going to go and forget everything, so you have to" I said. I got into the car and drove it away leaving Randu who was also injured just like me.

[Home]

For the first time after that day, I went home. Bi Uma immediately hugged me and stroked my back gently. He cooked my favorite food and also made me a good cake. When I said that he had to rest first, he was confused.

"Rest?" Ask bi Uma.

"Sofi will go to XX city and will probably live there, so bi Uma can rest and meet with the children at home" I replied.

"You mean auntie got fired?" Ask lirih. I felt my eyes heat up. Bi Uma is already a part of my family, right now she is all I have. But I also don't want to involve him in difficult conditions later.

"Auntie has to go home, Sofi doesn't want auntie alone in this house" I replied. "Sofi hope aunt understands, we will definitely meet again later" I added. Bi Uma nodded with my decision.

After finishing breakfast, I immediately cleaned my goods as well as with bi Uma who today will return to her hometown. While I was cleaning my desk, my phone rang and it turned out that Zoya's sister called.

"Kalo brother" greet me.

"Why didn't you tell me?" Ask brother Zoya.

"Sorry brother" I said. "Sofi doesn't want to involve a lot of people later" I added.

"Then what are you going to do?" Ask brother Zoya.

"Sofi will go to XX city and will probably stay there for a few years" I replied.

"Why so far away?" Ask Zoya again.

"This is too stifling" I replied softly. "I'm going to my apartment, will you come?" I try to divert the mood.

"I want to" he answered. "We met in the lobby yes" I agreed and after that the connection was cut off. I sighed, today I will end it all.

***

I reached the lobby of the apartment and met Zoya there. He ran and hugged me.

"Why should I go anyway?" Ask. We walked in tandem.

"How else" I said with a small laugh. "At least I have to start something new" I said. Brother Zoya nodded her head.

"But remember, if you come back you have to stop by my house" said Zoya. I smiled and then nodded. We arrived in front of my apartment. I reached into my bag about to pick up the phone but it seemed to be left in the car. I opened the door to my apartment.

"Hi" her greeting. His smile was terrible. "I want to talk to you" he added. I frowned at me.

"Speak" I said. Rose shakes.

"Don't come here, come" Rose walked up to a nearby car. I immediately followed him and I was already between two cars. I was surprised that Rose wasn't here. Suddenly my head ached, something hit my head really hard. I staggered forward and after that I was instantly unconscious.

***

I grimaced a little because of the pain in my head. I tried to open my eyes, and all I saw was darkness. I was so scared this time, I cried when I realized something bad was happening to me. I sat with my hands tied back.

"Please!!!" Shouting raucous. My throat is sore and dry. The door opened and the light from outside immediately highlighted me.

"You're sober?" A familiar voice appeared along with the incandescent light that lit up. Rose's? He walked over to me.

"What the hell are you?" My yelling. Rose laughed and it was really scary.

"You scared?" Ask Rose. "I don't know how to act good in front of you anymore" he added.

"Basic snake! What do you want?" My yelling.

"I want to finish you off" Rose replied. My body immediately stiffened.

"You're really crazy" I shouted, and a successful slap landed on my cheek was very strong.

"I wasn't this crazy before I knew Bian" Rose shouted. "I almost won her heart but you came and broke all my efforts, I waited for her for a very long time, I was willing to give everything" he added, still shouting.

"It is not my fault that your love is not reciprocated" I said.

"Oh yeah?" Ask Rose. "Then it's not my fault you die" Rose pulled a gun out of her pants pocket. I almost fainted because my heart was completely out of control. I came back crying because the true fear gnawed at me.

"Don't, I beg you" I said between my lines.

"I might have accepted your request if you had listened to my warning at the apartment at the time" Rose said. "I'm sick of seeing your face, I'm sick of your name Bian used to say when he was with me" she added.

"I told you, it's not my fault that you're hurt by your one-sided love" I said with a gasp of breath. I don't know, but my words really made him lose his mind. He backed off and pointed his gun at me. But then someone opened the door and surprised me, too, Rose. I was astonished, Bian entered with a giant step.

"Don't do it" Bian said in a hoarse voice.

"Bian, you don't interfere" Rose shouted. "Let me kill him" he added.

"You can't do that" Bian walked by holding onto his chest and his faint faint face I saw as if he was enduring pain. I cried even more because I remembered the illness that I believed must be relapsing.

"Go Bian, you have to go to the hospital now" I shouted. Bian shook his head and walked closer to me.

"Stop right there!" Shouted Rose. "Or I'll shoot this woman right now" he added. Rose shakily raised her gun. Bian fell in my arms along with a loud voice coming from the gun. I close my eyes tight, slowly open them. I looked at Rose who was still trembling and then turned to look down.

"Bian" call me slowly. I came back crying because I knew Bian was my shield.

"I love her so much" Rose muttered. I saw her tears dripping. "It's all because of you, you have to pay for it" Rose returned to brandishing her gun, I closed my eyes. The gun came back but I felt nothing. I don't know what bad luck, but because I'm two people injured at the moment. The police came in along with my loss of consciousness.

***

I heard strange sounds around me. Like the sound of a clock, or also like the sound of a bomb that will explode. I heard people crying and it made me cry. My memories go back some time, to my parents, to my childhood, to Bian, to Randu, and to my present life. It was like I was somewhere, faintly vague I saw my parents walking with Randu. I wondered why they were so willing to leave me when I begged them to stay. Suddenly my body fell along with my eyes that opened perfectly.

My eyes went through every corner of the room. I saw Aunt Dona, Haris, Zoya's sister, and Raksa's sister here. But I didn't see Bian or Randu. I asked but no one answered. I cried again considering that the true events traumatized me. My chest is painful and my breath is also tight. My eyes closed again and my consciousness was gone.

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