If Only
Want to start again

This morning the atmosphere is still the same as it was a few days ago. An overcast cloud again enveloped the sky. I was on my way. I'm going to Zoya's bakery, I don't know what yesterday she called me and told me to come today. I drove off casually, because today is a holiday. I listen to a song and sing a little.

"Someday ... I must return ... I'll walk by myself...."

  This is one of my favorite songs, and also the soundtrack of the drama that I forgot the title. I swerved into the parking lot to park my car. I got down and walked to the bakery.

"Sophy!" Call someone. I directly looked. I smiled as I waved my hand.

"Sir Zoya from where?" My toot. My sister and I Zoya walked together.

"Have bought fruit ice for Raksa ni" replied Zoya. I nodded my head.

"Why did you tell me to come, brother?" My toot. We were already in the store. Zoya's sister returns after giving her husband some ice.

"There's nothing at all" he replied with a whimper. "You feel better?" Ask brother Zoya. I nodded and smiled.

"It's not good to dissolve in sadness" I replied. I let out a breath. "God may be too affectionate with Fahyan" I added. Brother Zoya smiled then stroked my shoulder.

"I believe you're a strong woman" she said. "Oh yeah, what do you want to drink?" Ask brother Zoya.

"One ice coffee" I replied enthusiastically.

"Okay patience let me order" said brother Zoya. He left and returned with two cups of ice coffee. The two of us chatted quietly until my phone rang. I peeked a little, and it turned out that Bian called me.

"For a while, brother" I said. I'm a little away from Zoya's sister. "Hello" my hello.

"Where are you?"

"At my friend's house" I replied.

"Where?"

I let out a breath. "At Zoya's shop, Bian" I replied lazily. "Why ask?" My toot.

"is it wrong to ask where are you? I'll pick you up now"

"Eh don't bring my own car" I said half-creaming.

"Yes I'll ask the driver to take me there, wait for me"

"Replace ...." Suddenly the connection was severed unilaterally. "Yahoooo! you stubborn bastard" I nagged myself. I went back to Zoya's sister.

"What's wrong?" Ask Brother Zoya when she sees the look on my upset face.

"There's nothing, brother" I replied, smiling. We went back to chatting casually, discussing work and also the past school years.

"Omong, what are you and Randu saying?" Ask Zoya to arrive. Yes, the news of Randu's engagement has reached Zoya's ears. I smiled wryly and then shook my head.

"Maybe this is the best way for me and him" I replied. "I see now that he's happier, and that's enough to make me better" I smiled as if I was okay. And when I say I'm okay, maybe it's made up of some lies.

"It must be hard for you" said Zoya. "But I'm sure you're strong" he added cheeringly. I smiled broadly.

"I've lost a lot of things, but it doesn't make me weak" I said. "I don't think too much about it either" I added in a cool pretentious style.

"Think who?" I fell silent, I marked whose voice it was. I looked at the source of the voice. Bian, he's really coming. He walked and sat beside me. Zoya and I looked at each other. "Think of who Hem is?" Ask Bian.

"You hear me, it looks like my husband called me, I went there first huh" Zoya got up and just left. I was about to prevent her from leaving but quickly Zoya's sister disappeared. I immediately sighed, I turned my head and it turned out that Bian's face was only a few inches from my face. The surprised me immediately turned my body back.

"What the hell" I said while hitting his arm. Bian smiled broadly. "What's? What does that rich smile mean?" Just pissed.

"Nothing" Bian replied as he shook his head.

"Enak once be you, can run around and not take care of the company" I said cynically. "what kind of CEO are you" I added. I was about to take my drink but Bian's hand took it first.

"What kind of presidential candidate are you, instead of going to the office gossiping here" Bian said while mimicking my way of speaking. I'm glaring.

"Hey, I don't gossip" I said cynically. "You too, why did you come here?" Many protests.

"Of course I'm monitoring my employees" he replied, playing with his eyebrows.

"You're not my employee, but my future wife" he said with confidence. I gawk.

"Where did you get that word from?" Just pissed.

"You asked me, I don't know either" Bian replied. I put on a flat face.

"I'm going home" I took my bag, I left after saying goodbye to Zoya's sister and her husband. I'm not alone of course, because Bian keeps following me. We walked together, but suddenly Bian stopped while holding his chest and looked a bit in pain.

"You okay?" I panic. I led him to get into the car. "Let me drive, we go to the hospital" I said still worriedly. Bian shakes.

"No, don't go to the hospital" Bian said. "It's not what I'm okay with" he added.

"How can it be okay?" Just pissed. "Now come to the hospital" I started driving my car.

"no need to go to Sofi's hospital" said Bian gently. "We go home" he added. And without a second thought I immediately agreed.

[Bian's Residence]

  When Bian asked me to deliver it, I immediately agreed. Now I'm at her house, and it's been almost three hours that she's been hugging my arm. Yes, this spoiled guy asked me to accompany him to sleep but in fact his eyes have not been closed.

"When are you like this?" My toot.

"Until I sleep" Bian replied casually.

"when are you going to sleep?" Ask again.

"Patience a little I'm trying" replied Bian loudly.

"No, don't be angry!" My words are not less loud.

"Yes" he said again. I breathed a rough breath.

"i want to go home" I said, but I didn't move in the least.

"Yes has gone home. But I don't want to wake up anymore" Bian said. I reflexively hit his mouth slowly.

"has your mouth never been fed nutritious food?" Just pissed.

"Often, but it just passes by and stops in the colon" he replied very innocently. I who heard that laughed. "Why laugh?" Ask protest. I shook my head with a laugh.

"I want to go home" I said whining.

"In a moment" again Bian forbade me to go home. I remembered his illness.

"Are you really okay?" Asking me worried. "Let's go to the hospital" I worried.

"You're afraid I'm leaving you too huh?" Bian asked with a seductive smile. As soon as I fell silent, he probably didn't realize that his question was returning to bring me to yesterday's wounds.

"Never try to leave" I said seriously.

"If I go you can easily find my replacement" Bian said. He still continues his joke. My eyes had started to glaze over, I turned my face away trying to cover up the pain that was still clearly drawn. "Hey, I was just kidding" he said after understanding what he had said. I looked back at him.

"You have to promise me that you'll never leave me" I said seriously.

"Don't you hate me?" Ask Bian. "You don't remember the beginning of our meeting?" Ask again. I admit, I used to hate him so much. But not anymore, not out of pity, but because I started to love her. Don't ask me where I spent my 5 years with Randu. I don't think it's that strange when one person separates and starts to open his heart to the other. No, Bian is not someone else. He was once an important part of my life.

"I don't hate you" I replied, smiling.

"You just feel sorry for me" Bian said. I shook my head.

"Let's continue the rest of our story" I said enthusiastically. Bian was a little surprised but finally got excited.

"Today, I want to start again"

Seriate......