If Only
Not to be married
Bian and I are busy taking care of each other's work. Next month Bian and I are getting married. Actually I don't want to, but Bian keeps pushing. No, I also want this wedding sometimes. I'm busy taking care of some work aided by Aunt Dona and Brother Zoya. And oh, don't forget that Wendy is also down here. I don't really want a wedding like this. But Bian said, marriage is only once in a lifetime, so everything must be carefully prepared. Bian said this marriage will be more luxurious than the marriage of his ex-girlfriend yesterday. Huh imagining her friend coming makes me think, should I cancel my marriage with Bian? Haha that sounds reasonable but impossible.
"Sofi, what's the concept of your marriage?" Ask Wendy.
"Monochrome of color" I replied. They looked at me for an explanation. "It's like, Hem how to say it ... We went through many obstacles before, we were like a monochrome painting. Slowly but surely we started to fill the color in it" I sighed. "We are here, everyone must have had a difficult time. Especially Aunt Dona and Haris, and Sofi wants to create a new color in your life" I added. I saw their smiles grow.
"I didn't expect this day to happen" said Zoya. "I had thought that the harsh reality that was in my mind would happen, but this is really a miracle, both you and Bian alike learn to mature and go through everything together, together, you're like twin brothers who grew up together" he added, smiling.
"Sofia and Bian are similar" said Aunt Dona and then laughed.
"True, the first time I saw Bian, I thought he was the older brother of Sofi, but it turns out I was wrong" Wendy continued. "I almost loved it back then" he added, laughing.
"Well, what's the love triangle going on here?" Cockroach of Zoya. And his words made this place a sea of laughter in an instant.
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Many say, when approaching the wedding day there must always be a fight. I assumed it wasn't true, but I seemed to realize that it had a point. Right now I'm upset because Bian keeps accusing me of liking Taeil, because a few days ago I met Taeil. Though only discussing about chatering for our wedding later. But he kept getting suspicious and told me that I wasn't really serious about this marriage.
Today I was really tired, almost all night I sat in front of the computer just to choose the appropriate decoration for my wedding concept later. Actually, it was all done a few days ago. But when Bian found out that Taeil also helped me find the appropriate decorations, Bian immediately asked me to replace them. Today Bian invited me to eat out and talked about the concept and decoration of our wedding. In the car, neither I nor Bian were as silent.
Arriving at the cafe, I just ordered Americano ice coffee. I have absolutely no desire to eat anything.
"Why just order a drink?" Ask Bian. I smiled and then nodded.
"I don't want to eat anything" I replied. Bian looked at me and sighed. I immediately took out my laptop and showed some decorations that fit the concept.
"This is a recommendation of some decorations that are in accordance with the concept that we make later" I said. At first everything went well. We discussed it one by one until Bian finally chose one of the six decorations that I recommended.
"This is the most suitable" said Bian. I'm nodding.
"Have you seen his shirt?" Ask me. Bian shakes.
"I only saw the picture when I was measuring yesterday's clothes" he replied. I then showed her the picture.
"The tailor, we can meet him and try him out tomorrow" I said.
"It wasn't yesterday that the dress you picked out was ash?" Ask Bian wonder. I nodded my head.
"But I think it's too dark, especially yesterday the decorations we chose also tend to be dark" I said. "So I told the tailor to replace it with a lighter color but still look soft" he added, smiling. For a moment I thought Bian would smile, but I was wrong.
"What was the dress yesterday also Taeil's recommendation?" Ask Bian. I try to stay calm.
"So it's true that Taeil also gave an opinion?" Ask Bian. I let out a breath.
"Bian, it's really my own choice, Taeil also has nothing to do with this. Why do you always bring it?" Just pissed. "Everybody is free to think, right?" Ask again.
"But I don't like that, you should know enough that I hate men who try to get close to you" Bian said. "Or aren't you serious about this marriage?" Ask again. Oh, my God, those words came out of his mouth again. Enough, I'm tired.
"When are you going to blame me?" My toot. "Today, when you brought me to eat together, I thought we were fine. I thought you'd stop fighting me" I added. I let out a breath. "My head was dizzy because almost the whole night I didn't fall asleep, I kept being in front of the computer just to replace the decorations you thought were wrong. I was overwhelmed looking for a suitable chatering for you, I took care of almost 70 percent of our wedding, I took care of the clothes, food, decorations, and you kept blaming me when others helped me" he added. Oh, my God, I feel like crying. I felt my head explode. "If you don't believe me, you take care of everything yourself, if we need to just cancel this marriage" after saying that, I got up and left. I knew Bian was after me so I took a taxi and left. I was crying in the taxi, I didn't realize that the driver was watching me from the glass.
"You okay?" Ask.
"Eum?"
"You look pale, let me drive you to the hospital" said the driver.
"No need sir, thank you" I then asked him to take me home.
Arriving home, Aunt Dona opened the door as I knocked on her. I could see Aunt Dona was shocked to see my face was indeed very pale. He immediately led me to my room. Yes, just info, after graduating, I live with om Haris and also Aunt Dona. I occupy Fahyan's room which has been a favorite place since the beginning.
Aunt Dona instantly made me porridge and also brought me medicine. And I'm feeling better now. I closed my hot eyes and finally fell asleep.
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I woke up when I felt something touch my forehead. I slowly opened my eyes and I saw Bian looking at me worriedly. I, who was still too upset, turned my face away and closed my eyes again.
"I'm sorry" said Bian. "Sofia" call her. "I'm sorry I keep hurting you" he added. I don't understand what's inside his head. I didn't respond to his words. I thought he was leaving, but I was surprised when Bian also climbed onto the bed and hugged me from behind. "Don't be like this, I'm sorry, I was wrong" Bian said. I couldn't hold back my crying. I turned around and returned his embrace while crying.
"You know I love you so much, but why do you always suspect me? Why don't you ever trust me? Seeing your suspicious gaze has hurt my heart" I said in tears. Bian hugged me tight.
"Sorry, sorry" Bian smelled at the tip of my head. "I'm sorry Sofia" he said again. I don't know why I can't hate him anymore. My love is bigger than my pain.
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Come today, the day I see everyone gathered and happy for my marriage. I saw everyone smiling happily with me. And beside me, there stood the man I would see every day, whom I would see every morning when I awoke from my sleep.
"Eventually happiness is on my side. At first I thought I would be alone until I died, today I can finally see everyone laughing at me. No, they laugh with me. Everyone gets hurt in the process of growing up. But do not be discouraged, because after the pain, it will be the new us. Happiness does not always have a smooth path. The main character also does not always have to lose to be strong. Everyone becomes the main character in their life journey. They also fell and lost. Never measure the happiness of others by your happiness. Everyone has their own portion of happiness. After today, I'm not sure I'll always be happy. But I will always be grateful"
...The end's...
...Thank you for your support all this time. Thank you to readers who have always been loyal to the love story of Sofia and Abian. I, as a writer and author, hope that those of you who read this, will appreciate life more. Love the people who love you too. I hope you guys will be happy and don't forget to always be grateful. daaaa!!!...