Married by Accident
Flash Back Wind Up

It's all so heavy.

On that day, I was waiting for my lover, Bambang. It's been a long time since I spent time with him. After me and him were both busy pursuing careers.

He should have arrived when I received word from him that his car was in an accident. Like being struck by lightning, I imagined scenes in movies. Somehow, his voice on the other end of the phone sounded shaky and nervous.

Without waiting any longer I immediately ordered an ojek online to get to the hospital quickly. I went to the IGD and found Bambang with a look of shock. Sure enough his hands were shaking, I was relieved when I saw he only experienced blisters in some parts.

"Are you okay, baby?" I clasped both of his hands that were shaking violently and cold as well.

Then he looked at me implying such a great fear. I immediately hugged her giving her a little strength. For a moment I felt astonished that he looked fine, what made him this scared.

All of that was soon answered when came a crying girl roaring.

"I killed the girl's mother." Bambang told me as if he could see the confusion in my eyes.

I was so shocked and devastated, what is this ordeal? then without realizing it my hands and my whole body were shaking. But, I must strengthen Bambang, my beloved.

I remember, the girl looked at Bambang. Like a lion ready to pounce. Many times had to be broken by many people because he kept trying to hit, hurt, and even strangle Bambang. And at his peak he had to get a sedative injection because it could not be handled anymore.

I feel sorry for that girl. His father is also critical. I saw Bambang who resigned to the treatment of the girl, she seemed ready to accept any punishment for her negligence. Of course I feel sorry too. He blames himself so much. I was determined to always be by her side, accompanying her through the bad times of her life. It's ordeal.

The girl began to improve, not always the loyalty when seeing Bambang. His father is starting to realize, I hope he recovers soon and improves. Bambang is also ready if this problem must be brought to the legal path. He will be fully responsible.

Destiny said another, during the day the girl's father was pronounced dead. Though Bambang said he had met him this morning and was still fine, they had a dialogue. I immediately got my permission to go home from work, and immediately came to the hospital. I tried to come as quickly as possible and look for Bambang, I was afraid that the girl went berserk again.

When I got to the room where the girl's father was being cared for I immediately entered. Just when I opened the door I heard the lafadz that had been my dream all along.

"I accepted the marriage and marriage of Airina Kamalia Naylun bint Alm. Herman with the dowry in cash."

I'm glued, don't believe it. Very incredulous, even I had almost forgotten to just breathe in that second. My boyfriend, my girlfriend, my future husband?!

I went out and sat on a row of benches in front of the room. I felt my breath so intermittent with an irregular heartbeat. My body sank for a moment, maybe I misheard. Even to cry, I cannot. I can't believe it. There must be an explanation.

I heard a string of prayers from inside, after some of them compactly said 'SAH'. My heart is getting less and less wretched, I have to wait for these people to leave, I can't possibly make a fuss here. For a moment I saw the girl looking down so deeply, she was silent, unlike my worries that imagined her going berserk.

Right after the men left, it was seen that the room was so busy preparing the bodies. The girl fainted, calm down without a sedative injection. It was then that I appeared to ask for an explanation from Bambang.

"Win," he said so softly, even his voice was not as loud as earlier when I heard him say ijab qobul.

"What's this?"

He immediately pulled my hand and took me away from the girl. I saw him so fucked up. He knelt down and hugged my feet, and cried so bitterly. I realized that not only was I confused, he still did not understand what had just happened.

I grabbed him and took him to sit down.

"Say my dear what happened!"

"I'm being punished Win, maybe it's a life sentence. Mr. Herman asked me to marry his only daughter just hours before he died. I can't refuse Win, I can't. I'm sorry!"

I who refused to believe would not want to believe. My feelings? Haancuuuur!

My tears also flowed profusely, I who intend to strengthen it weakened and needed to be strengthened. I left Bambang, trying to find peace. For a moment I looked back at the girl who was drooping weakly helplessly, her face implying a deep sadness. But it's none of my business, my heart is broken. Soon I walked quickly through the room.

A few days after that incident, Bambang did not contact me. Uhh! he already has a wife, but what does it mean to him that I don't? At least call me, and fight me. As if my world had collapsed from her loss, I decided to come to her house. Looking for him, wanting to see him, missing him so much.

I hit the bell with a thumping heart. Shortly after, Bambang appeared to open the door. There was a sense of calm when I saw his face, I was still his lover. At first glance I saw his house was a mess, like the end of the world war. He asked me not to be noisy and asked me to talk on his porch.

"Did you really marry her?" A silly question I regret.

"He ... is here?"

"Yes," Bambang answered me softly with each question, I almost did not hear his voice.

"Then, Us?"

"I'm sorry Win!"

"Easy then?"

"Nothing is easy for me Win."

"Should you really marry her, Bam?"

"It's all fate Win, find a man who is more everything than me Win! You don't deserve me, look I'm just a killer. You deserve a good man, not like me."

"But ...."

"Let me serve my sentence, with the girl."

I spent years with him. Together trying to conquer the capital, with a myriad of college assignments and various difficulties in life, as well as the struggle to reach the ideals. Whatisthis? destiny? All destroyed in an instant.

Suddenly it sounded like things were being slammed inside the house. Bambang immediately ran in and I followed him, just as his house was a mess, the girl kept throwing whatever items she could reach. Good Lord! My people face all of this every day. Alone.

And that's when I saw the thing that really broke my heart.

Bambang hugged the girl without caring if she got hit or scratched, Bambang still tried to calm her down. I don't know what Bambang whispered into the girl's ear. It took a long time to keep the girl quiet. My sambang? My guy? He seems to be so passionate about his role. Did he enjoy this punishment?

After the girl calmed down Bambang approached me who was in shock with Bambang's new ability to conquer the girl.

"Sorry Win, you better not see this. I need to clean up Airina immediately."

Looks like clothes and body of the girl covered in porridge, it seems like Bambang forgot to get rid of that thing because of my arrival.

"You? Bam?"

"Yes Win, who else?"

"Let me be Bam, I'll help you." I walked closer but Bambang prevented me.

"No need to win, it's my job."

"But she ... woman!"

"But I'm Win's husband, and she's my wife." I gasped at it, for a moment I forgot, didn't I! I'm so not used to it.

"Enough Bam, let the girl be cared for in a decent place. He ... he's crazy Bam!"

"He's indeed depressed Win, but not crazy, I just have to give him the spirit to live on."

"You're enjoying your role, aren't you?" It's stupid of me to ask like that, I'm jealous.

"Win .. understand!"

Without looking at her I immediately left the house with a broken heart.