
Renjani employees thanked Kelana for buying them dinner at a fancy restaurant. They eat instant noodles together in the office alone is happy let alone eat steak at a fancy restaurant plus meet directly with Kelana. They could capture the moment by taking pictures with Kelana.
When out Kelana saw his papa car parked in front of the restaurant. He could not have mistaken his papa car even though such a car was not the only one in Indonesia.
"We went home first, thanks again." Speak to Renjani employees. They retreat from there on motorbikes each leaving the restaurant's parking lot.
Kelana's guess was right, Wira got out of the car with an expression of restraining anger. Kelana was not surprised because his papa always put on such a face when meeting him. Even Kelana forgets what her papa face looks like when she smiles.
"That's Papa." Renjani.
"You go in first." Kelana opened the door for Renjani to enter first, the feeling was not good because Wira suddenly met him.
"You have plenty of free time." Wira smiled obliquely, now Kelana remembers it turns out that the smile of Wira is very creepy.
"Just get to the point." Kelana does not like to linger talking with her papa. Surely Wira will only talk about Valia or the evil of Kelana made-up. It was never good enough for the hero.
"You deliberately made a difficult song for Valia, even her music teacher couldn't play that song well." The hero had already chosen the best violin of the new production on Valia but the song still could not be played well. Wira is upset because Kelana must have intentionally done that.
"Why did Papa pick a bad music teacher for Valia?" Kelana laughs mockingly.
"You're so high-hearted." Wira brought her face closer so Kelana could smell the smell of cigarettes from there.
"I learned from Papa." Take a step back.
"Make a light song for Valia." Pinta Wira with a jerking tone.
"If Valia can't play the song I made it means she has to train harder instead of asking me to make another song."
"Don't test Papa's patience."
"Don't overindulge Valia, she won't be able to develop the way Papa treats her."
"Papa knows better, you're also like this because of Papa right?" If Wira hadn't put Kelana into Melodi it wouldn't have been what it is today.
"That's a father's duty." Goes not to lose.
"You're exactly like Karalyn, you're both stubborn and crazy about the violin." The hero finds a way to make Kelana die of lice by offending Karalyn.
"Mama's crazy about the violin but Papa's crazy about other women."
"Don't say anything!" Sentak Wira with a high tone stole the attention of people who passed by in a million there.
"Parents begin first." She closed her face just in case someone was photographing her secretly.
"Papa cheated because your mom spent more time in her studio than she did with Papa."
Renjani looked from the window worriedly, Kelana and Wira looked tense. Renjani is afraid that Kelana cannot control her emotions. Renjani is about to get out but Yana holds her back.
"Don't Mommy."
Renjani let out a sigh of resignation, she could only see papa and the boy from inside the car.
"Don't make that the reason Papa cheated, that day Papa deliberately did our key in the room?" Kelana's eyes reddened like pricked thorns ready to let out the water. It's the most sensitive to talk about her mama.
"Papa accidentally brought the key to the reading room, how many times has Papa said to you?" The hero clenched his hand strongly, he also felt lost but Kelana always blamed him for the fire disaster.
"If you don't have the key with you that day, you won't die!" Shouted Kelana, now he did not care if anyone recorded it. Kelana could not stand his papa attitude anymore.
"Kok you're so bad Papa, it was all an accident!"
"Obviously I've been willing to obey Papa." Kelana passed from there with a big bad heart because her papa brought up the late Karalyn. Even until the end of his life, Wira never showed love to Karalyn. Kelana wonder why they decided to get married if in the end Wira duet Karalyn.
"Kelana." Renjani shifts her seat when Kelana gets in the car.
Kelana looked down in hiding her face that had been soaked by tears. Whales are like limes that flush old wounds of Kelana that have not fully healed. No, that wound will never heal.
Renjani touches Kelana's shoulder with a hesitant gesture, afraid that Kelana will be angry with her.
"Kelana." Renjani's feelings were also shattered seeing Kelana's sadness. Renjani pulls Kelana into her arms even though her hands are not quite hugging Kelana's body as a whole.
To hide his face to Renjani's neck, he did not want to cry but the tears shed by themselves.
Now Kelana does not look like a perfect violinist who always smiles in front of the camera. He is like a human being who can cry when sad. Going like this only in front of Renjani, usually he cries alone in a room or music studio when remembering his mama.
Arriving at the apartment, Kelana immediately threw her body onto the bed. He looks very different from the usual. Before going to bed, Kelana usually has a ritual of brushing and washing her face and changing her clothes with pajamas. Even if Renjani goes straight to bed without cleaning herself before, Kelana will get angry. Or Kelana will change Renjani clothes slowly and remove the makeup.
Kelana keep her eyes open because every time she closed her eyes she would see the shadow of her mama's body burning fire. She hated herself at the time because she could do nothing to save her mother. If time could be repeated it is better Kelana hugged her mama and let the fire burn them both.
It took a long time for Kelana to recover from the trauma due to the incident. But now Wira easily brought up about Karalyn. In the past Wira was once the only backrest of Kelana after losing the mother. But after the presence of Ratih and Valia Kelana's backrest collapsed, he had to stand on his own two feet.
Kelana decided to leave the house after she released her first song at the age of 21 years. He could no longer be in a house like hell for him.
Renjani sat on the edge of the bed staring at Kelana who looked adorable. Traces of tears were so obvious on Kelana's face. Than to see Kelana like this better Renjani hear Kelana's nagging. Renjani doesn't like to see Kelana like this.
"Don't beat yourself up." Renjani rubs Kelana's hair.
"I'd better go with Mama then."
Renjani shook her head, "grateful that you can still live until now, so you can realize Mama Karalyn's dream that has not materialized, surely now he is proud to see his son has become a great violinist and famous everywhere."
Kelana smiled faintly, fortunately there was Renjani who could comfort her at a time like this. Kelana don't know what it would be like if there were no Renjani. Maybe he will swallow a lot of sleeping pills like before and end up in the hospital. He should not have done that and become a coward but he could not remember the incident.
"Can I be honest?"
"You have to be honest."
Renjani dropped her head on Kelana's chest, "you're more handsome than a smile like that just now."
Kelana's smile widened, she rubbed the hair of Renjani who was scattered.
"Oh yeah?"
"You don't know the girls on the yell that you're smiling." Renjani recalled the fan sight that was attended by only 50 people but their screams were heard until they exited the building.
"I didn't pay much attention to that."
"I don't know how many girls are crazy about your good looks out there."
"Try counting."
"Maybe as many stars in the sky."
"But it's cloudy tonight, no stars at all."
"Good." If it may be selfish Renjani wants to have Kelana only for himself but of course it is impossible. Kelana also belongs to the fans. But when in a room like this, no one can have Kelana except Renjani.
"I want to take medicine, maybe tonight will be hard to sleep."
"No need to take medicine, at that time you also said you would not be able to sleep but in fact you sleep well until morning."
Renjani is right, Kelana also does not realize that Renjani can be a substitute for her sleeping pills. Kelana knew sleeping pills were not healthy for her but she used to have severe insomnia. But now Kelana almost never takes medicine again. Kelana only realized that it turned out that her feelings for Renjani appeared since then. It was too late to realize that his mind was used to Elara. She thought she would never be able to feel for others after Elara left her.
"I've heard people say, parents anger because they love their children but even though I think about it, I can't find love in Papa." Kelana's view looks up to the ceiling.
Renjani also thinks like that when her mom and dad often fight and then her mom will vent anger to her. Renjani feels no love for themselves.
"At the end of the day, only we can love ourselves." Reply Renjani.
Kelana was silent contemplating Renjani's words. Like now they get used to living without parental affection. Although not like other children but they must still live happily and love themselves.