Married by Accident
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Buuuuugggkkkk....!!!
Bambang fell down, I immediately grabbed him who was groaning in pain. His hands and head were cold, I panicked. With the gesture of his hand Bambang asked me to take the medicine in his pocket. I immediately took and helped her take the medicine.
I put her head on my lap, I hugged her hoping to share the pain she felt. I cried but no longer lamented my fate, I felt sorry for the man I still loved. The weight of the pesikis is heavy, but I just add weight to his mind.
"I'm sorry, Bam, I shouldn't have added to the burden of your mind." I said in between my sobs.
Bambang was too weak to answer, he just rubbed my hand that was coiled around his neck. I rubbed his head and soon he fell asleep.
I kept looking at his face, I was sure he would come back to me the way he should. I'm sure he's still mine. The girl has improved, I'm sure her mind is good too. He should have thought again about this wedding.
Events like this continue to repeat, Bambang will return to his home when his condition deteriorates, on the grounds of service outside the city. And will return to the girl's house when her condition improves. I was always there when he needed to, because after all only that way could I spend time with him.
The more days my love for her gets bigger, although Bambang's eyes now only radiate love to the girl but I haven't yet found any reason to completely stop wishing and leave this feeling. The more I try to leave the more this craze grows over my heart and my sanity.
Although it feels impossible, but believe me it feels like I have not been able to. Still hope this is all just a dream, and want to wake up in a normal life as usual.
Until one day, Bambang was sick with typhus and had to be treated. I took on the role of taking care of him alone, I'm sure he gave his wife another reason for service. Maybe God answered my prayer, the girl came and saw Bambang lying on the hospital bed, and of course she was surprised to see me there too.
Just a few seconds I felt victorious, the next second I saw Bambang suffering from the girl's departure. Not only was love emanating from his eyes, but it was also an overwhelming worry. I was wrong and I lost. I realized right then and there, that not only his body but his whole heart had completely gone from me.
I think I still mean a lot to him, because I know loving that girl has brought suffering to Bambang. But I was stupid and didn't realize that Bambang was enjoying the suffering. And I finally realized Bambang would not come back, fate would not bring him back to me, fate plundered him forever without a second chance.
From those eyes, I finally found a reason to abandon this feeling. I'm tired of clapping myself. Although I still do not believe, in the end Bambang was able to turn away. I have to let go.
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