Married by Accident
Wait for me Irin

IRIN POV

After being calm I went into the room that Mas Bam had occupied first. I sat on the edge of the bed and observed every corner of the room. I never even got in here at all. I realized how selfish I was. Mas Bam and I were both wounded, both shaken and equally played with destiny.

I walked up to her wardrobe, I was surprised that she still left behind a few pieces of clothes and other items.

I grabbed the sky blue shirt he used to wear. I hugged and I felt the smell of Mas Bam there.

Suddenly I was sad. How selfish of me. Mas Bam tried to live to make me happy, but I never tried to understand it at all. I was too focused on my own life, with my own wounds. So it was not realized that Mas Bam had wounds as big as mine. I cried, letting go of the pain I thought was my own fault.

"I'm sorry I misunderstood you. Accusing you of cheating, turning a deaf ear to your explanations."

But I also still feel tight, my heart hurts again. Remembering what Mas Bam did to me. Before, I had admired her determination so much, not to touch me before I allowed her. I didn't even recognize him back then, completely like everyone else. Still imagined scene after scene of coercion that Mas Bam did. No matter I cried, begged, and cried asking him to stop. But Mas Bam still took the crown I kept for him. Later. Even if it was his right, could he not wait for the right moment? when I willingly surrender myself. I'm very disappointed. Ah, it's funny. I was interviewed by my own husband. It's hard for me to forget. Every time I close my eyes, it's a nightmare. Fortunately, my college schedule has been tight lately. I could forget it a little by sinking into the heaping tasks. Even at night I would fall asleep more easily due to extreme fatigue.

I don't know whose fault is the biggest. Me or him? Just as big for me. I was so worried, did I have to meet him and apologize? But what will I get after that? But the mistake I cannot accept either. I didn't have that much courage to meet him. This marriage also hangs up, so unfair to me, she doesn't even try to see me. God give me a way.

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I was woken up by the dawn alarm from my gawa. I fell asleep in Mas Bam's room. Soon I went to my own room. I had to take a shower and prepare for morning classes. Even though my head is heavy and my eyes are swollen. I have to stay in college, there's an important class today. I want to graduate soon. A lot of my parents' business is waiting. I can only rely on myself now.

I look at a box for a moment. Then I grabbed back the ring inside. The wedding ring I've been with for a long time. Now with a steady heart I will put it back on, in the hope that there will be a bright spot in the matter.

As usual, I had breakfast and brought back. I ordered an ojol that would take me to college. Damaged car I accidentally let dilapidated in the garage, I have no intention of repairing, I'm still traumatized to drive alone. Suddenly there was an incoming message on the green app on my watch. Mas Rian's.

[For the beautiful lady. I'm sorry it looks like tonight I can't be your love-jek. There was an important meeting about the opening of a new clinic outside the city. I hope you come home safe.]

Hhh, Mas Rian is so nice. Although the guy sucks and his behavior sometimes pisses me off. But that's what entertainment is for me. One more word for him, he was extremely aggressive and unyielding even just for trivial matters.

I remember when he asked for my number. He just doesn't know I'm married yet.

[Alright] My answer is short.

[In exchange you will have to accompany me tomorrow night to the event of one of my fellow doctors. It's my big arm empty.] The reply was quick, he was very pity.

[I don't owe you anything. So I have nothing to change.] I tried to resist it, in a subtle or firm way. But still.

[Oh, thanks. I'll pick you up tomorrow at 7pm, Miss Pretty. Don't dance too pretty, I'll be fascinated!] Reply again, please allow my guess. He won't give up.

[Go to the service station for your phone, sir. It looks like your phone is broken and the letters are not well read.] I knew he would come later. I refused it anyway.

[Health, see you tomorrow.]

Hhhh, I'll say it soon. So that he would stop chasing after me who was married. Although it will either end what my marriage is like, but the rush to establish a relationship is also not in my plan. I need to focus on my college.

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At 5 pm I immediately tidied my work desk. Before my boss asks me to overtime. There's something I have to do. I drove the car against the heavy vehicles in the afternoon.

I have to get to Irin's house before she gets home from college. I left some important documents there. I need it now to get my work done. I used to think I'd be back in that house and back with Irin. But I was too stupid and made a terrible mistake. I still hope to return. Somehow the way will be. But not for now. The highlight of Irin's eyes the last time she left was the most angry and disillusioned look I had ever seen.

I entered the courtyard of the mansion, it was a pity that Irin had to be lonely there. All's fault. How unfortunate you are, Irin, and how guilty I am. I got down and stepped up immediately, but I saw Irin's broken car run down. The dusty atmosphere indicates that the car has been so long. My mind guessed what happened to Irin. I was so anxious that I ran and knocked at the door calling out to bi Ijah like a fidelity.

I regretted all this time ignoring Irin's condition. I thought he would be happy, but I regret not knowing what happened to him. Is she okay? But Winda said Irin's life was good and she was busy with her studies.

The door opened, and Ijah was shocked to see me, and I immediately asked about Irin and what happened to her, almost without spaces I asked. Bi Ijah told me to calm down and took me to sit down. I set my breath and bi Ijah gave me a glass of water.

"Auntie misses the same Mas Bambang, why did Mas Bambang never call again? Does Mas Bambang not care about Non Irin anymore?" the old woman cried, bi Ijah seemed to love Irin very much.

"I'm sorry Bi, the length of the story. That's how bi's story is? Irin why? The car up to that saperti?"

"It was time to get home from Mas Bambang's house, Non Irin's accident."

I was so shocked, stupid I didn't know it. If I had chased him, ahh. I understand how devastated Irin was then. But I didn't expect it until a car accident.

"How's Irin doing, Bi?"

"Non Irin is good Mas, just a minor injury to the head. But Non Irin traumatized bring his own car. Now Non Irin ride ojek continue, sometimes also docked, uhh his friend, Mas."

"Accosted to who, Bi?" I asked to hear something strange from bi Ijah's speech.

"The theme is Non Irin Mas, after all why did Mas Bambang disappear? Don't-don't what Non Irin told you is true huh? Aunty actually does not believe it, but Mas Bambang disappeared aunty so wonder if Mas Bambang really betrayed Non Irin?" Bi Ijah asked me a question that made me realize. I disappeared and even made the misunderstanding widen.

"I'm sorry Bi, everyone misunderstood. Irin was very angry. I failed to be a good husband to Irin, I failed to make Irin happy, Bi. I just don't want to make Irin bother avoiding me. So I think I should just stay away and let her be comfortable and happy. But I'm sorry, the accident shouldn't have happened. I can't think long, whether it's good for Irin to exist or not for me, Bi."

"Mas Bambang can't do that. Mas is still the husband of Non Irin, Mas should fight for what became the will of the late Father. Kasian Non Irin, he doesn't have anyone else, Mas."

"I'm sorry Bi, I didn't think long. I regret. I'll fix everything, give me Bi time, a little more."

"Yes, aunt can only pray for you."

"Thank you, Bi!"

I immediately say goodbye after taking my needs. I'm still not ready to meet with Irin, I have to come up with an explanation for her to believe. And for my foolishness at that time I will beg until he forgives me. I won't give up on him this time. I pledge.

I stared at the car in horror. If Irin doesn't survive, it will increase the length of people who die because of me.

Tunggu aku Irin.

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