Married by Accident
Rainbow country

Floe was currently seeing the look on the face of his parents who were resting on the other bed. Indeed, the room in the hospital that is currently occupied, there are two beds that are there, so it can be used to rest.

The mother was sleeping on the treatment bed to her left, while the father was currently asleep on the sofa.

He had told his parents to rest because they saw the look of their tired faces and did not have the heart. So, he was trying to act while asleep as well.

Though actually his mind is currently filled with various things, especially the tremendous sadness when losing a fetus that has begun to be received well and also feels has a very strong inner bond, he said, so that the love of a mother arises in her offspring.

However, everything is now gone and makes him really hit, but must act like not too sad to lose his fetus that is not destined to be able to see the beautiful world.

Floe had closed his eyes for a long time waiting for his parents to fall asleep and once he heard the sound of regular breathing from them, now opened his eyes and fell silent like a statue while on the bed.

He long enough to look at his parents who are always there for him and love him very much, so that from earlier trying to comfort so as not to drag on in sadness when thinking about his fetus.

That's what makes him not want to continue the protracted sadness in front of the people who are always there for him when he is down and in the lowest phase of his life.

Satisfied staring intensely tired faces of his parents, especially the mother because it was close enough, while the father was far enough away while sleeping on the sofa, he said, he turned to look towards his flat stomach and rubbed it.

Until now his eyeballs are glazed and trying to refrain from crying and being heard by his parents who are dissolved in the subconscious.

'Forgive Mama, Honey. Mama is the meanest parent because she can't take care of you and can't be born. Mama should not have come home because she was disappointed and hurt by your father. If time can be turned again, then Mama will go home with your father, ' said Floe who could not resist the swift flow of tears that escaped without his permission.

Until he is currently smothering his mouth so as not to make a sound when venting sadness like a normal woman, namely by blowing up all sadness through crying.

The difference between men and women is very clear. If a man prefers to stay silent or sometimes express sadness by challenging death when on the streets when feeling sad or disappointed, while a woman vaporizes it by crying sobbing so that it can be a little more relieved.

Even the time it takes to heal yourself is also different because the woman will be destroyed at the beginning and slowly rise again with blood until it heals by itself.

While the men at the beginning will not feel too bad because they try to forget by filling the busyness, but over time everything feels empty and realize the disappointment and sadness are getting stiffer.

So, when women feel healed and fine from the slump experienced, while the men have just realized the destruction and increasingly regret felt.

As is currently seen from the figure of a woman who is still trying not to make a sound when the culinary tears have been creek and maybe make her eyes moist.

Floe was still smothering her mouth when she could not hold back the rushing tears that flowed down her cheeks. 'You have to be strong, Floe. Everything that happens to you is not the end of everything.'

'There are parents who have high hopes for you and if you dissolve in sadness, it will make them feel guilty and sad. My son, can you move on with your life after your loss? Why not take your mom when you leave? So that we can gather together up there.'

Floe who could only complain to himself without making a sound, currently seemed to have no spirit of life because something very valuable from him had left.

Between guilt and sin, he felt because he wanted to abort in the beginning and now feels like he got karma for everything he wanted to do.

Choosing to serve all the punishment for him, Floe is currently trying to encourage him not to blame the fate of God for the path of his life that has been determined by Him.

'O Allah, I am sincere in believing that everything that happens to me is the best of You. I will accept everything without complaining in the slightest because it is all my fault.'

'If I don't become a weak and careless woman until I end up in a nightclub when I'm disappointed in Rafadhan, maybe none of this happens,' floe lirih in the heart and now closed her eyes to try to normalize the feeling of bloating that makes her tight and difficulty breathing.

Floe had even freed his mouth that had been smothered so as not to make a sound because it was a little calmer and did not cry anymore. Although there were still remnants of the globules of sadness that made his face puffy and rubbed it roughly.

He tried to be strong even though his heart was broken into pieces because he had to experience two misfortunes at once at the same time, that is, there is no hope for her to wish for Erland to fall in love with her and reciprocate her feelings of secretly liking the man.

Then followed by her fetus who chose to leave because it does not believe her as a mother who can raise offspring well.

He opened his eyes and tried to normalize his breathing which was still crowded because it was filled with sadness. Until a while later his mind now turned to the figure of a man who was already in a different country.

'Did he meet the woman named Marcella? Was Erland relieved and happy to finally meet the woman she loved? Then, does she not feel sorry for me who just lost her child?' Floe shook his head in a sense that what he was doing was wrong.

That thinking of a man who does not love him at all and may already be happy with his lover, it is something wrong and can only hurt his heart more deeply. However, he still could not take his mind off the curiosity over the figure of the man he wanted to get rid of from his heart.

'You must forget Erland, Floe! You must not think of a man who does not want you at all and will be happy with a woman who is loved. Be aware because right now he is not thinking about you at all.' As he was still desperately trying to dispel the thought of Erland, he hoped to continue living as the old man who had high hopes for him said.

'You're completely worthless in Erland's eyes, Floe. Don't stupid. You're thinking about her now, but she's only thinking about Marcella. You'll never be able to beat a woman from Erland's past. Like what I've always heard that new people can't replace the presence of old people, ' murmured Floe who now pulled her hair to hurt herself.

Hoping to do that can make him aware and not constantly slumped in pain when loving the wrong man.

'I mustn't torture myself with my feelings for Erland because my love clapped one hand.' Floe felt an excruciating pain as her scalp was hot as the pull she was doing was extremely strong just a moment ago.

He was seen grimacing in pain because he thought that what he was doing could make him forget the pain in the heart.

'This feeling is both invisible and equally painful, but why is it so much more pain in the heart than in my head that I pull so strongly? The taste that is left behind will also be different. But I'm really afraid that the face in my heart can't heal forever.'

Floe tried to take regular breaths when the tightness dominated and made it difficult to breathe. All the arousing feelings were felt at this moment when his heart was broken into pieces when it was not the choice of a loved man's heart.

Until a while later he who was still trying to be strong and strong by not continuing to think about the feeling of unrequited for Erland, now trying to make peace with his heart.

'Forget everything, Floe. You live in this world not only about love because there are many things you have to achieve. Moreover, you are the only daughter of the Madison family and have the responsibility to continue the struggle of your parents.' He looked back at his parents who were still sleeping soundly and made him a little relieved because he did not know that he had earlier expressed his sadness.

'I have to be a strong princess for them. I can't be weak just because I feel for Erland. Yes, I will be fine after forgetting everything and opening a new leaf in my life.'

'Patient and conscious means different, though almost the same. It's like how I and Erland feel that they're never in harmony and the same because here I'm the only one who loves her, and she loves Marcella so much. To make me feel like fate wasn't on the side of the love I felt for her.'

Floe is now determined to rise from the slump and choose to focus on the future without thinking about the love he has for a man who will soon be an ex-husband.

'We will get divorced and there will be nothing left. Everything really ended after our statuses changed and lived each other's lives. Yes, all that will happen and I must not be constantly destroyed like this, said Floe who now feels like a broken glass to be reunited.

Although it took time and effort to do so, he realized that everything was not as easy as turning the palm of the hand. There will also be marks from the shattered glass when it is put together slowly and may take a long time, but he still wants to be optimistic if time can heal the wounds in his heart.

'Daddy's right because everything will be fine and I will be healed by time from getting used to living with wounds. Let time answer everything and starting tomorrow, I will open a new page after completely eliminating my feelings for Erland.'

'The feeling that is left behind now will slowly be eliminated bit by bit. Help me to heal this wound, O God, for all that I feel also comes from You and will come back to You.' Floe now rubbed her face with her palm and her feelings were now much better.

He has now decided never to find out a bit about Erland in London and is trying to focus on college in order to continue his father's company someday.

As she now thinks of becoming a great career woman like the father because it is the only hope of parents, because it is, deciding to focus and wanting to become a bright student suddenly remembered the man who saved her from death.

'I'll ask him to teach me to be as smart as he is. I can't be a stupid woman because a company will go bankrupt if it has an unintelligent leader.' Floe was silent for a moment because he was hesitant about his decision to trouble his classmate.

'I must not be seen close to him on campus because it will be the consumption of the students. There will be misunderstandings in his relationship with his lover.' Floe suddenly changed his mind and he wanted to find a private lecturer instead of having to trouble Harry.

Until he thought of his lecturer who was a friend of Erland. 'Will Mr Tegar help me if I reveal I want to make him a private lecturer for me? There's no harm in talking to her about this when I recover and go to college.'

Floe actually felt uncomfortable attending the new university and there was an intention to move to the old campus, but because he thought it would only be gossip because of moving around while in college, thus undoing the intention.

'It doesn't matter that I stay in college there and have to focus without thinking about anything else.' Now she is determined to focus on college and after graduation will immediately work in the company of her father in order to become a great woman someday.

Floe stared at the father who was far away from him. "Dad, this daughter of yours will one day make you proud."

Then he turned to look at the mother who was fast asleep. "Mom, I love you so much. Thank you for being such a wonderful mother to me that you love me so much even if you always disappoint me."

He spoke in a very soft voice so as not to be heard by the two parents who are very dear to him. Although the uniqueness of the night in the best room of the Hospital still makes a soft sound heard meet the silence of the early morning.

Floe currently felt his feelings much better after blowing things up a while ago by crying silently and unbeknownst to the parents. Now, he felt confident that the words of the father would really make the wound in his heart disappear slowly.

That time will heal everything and he will be happy when it comes to finding someone who is proud to have it and uniting it like the father who always loved the mother.

'For my soul mate, I hope I can be like a mommy who is always loved from beginning to end. Hopefully my partner will be grateful to have me, making me feel like the happiest woman in the world. I leave everything to You because You are the best screenwriter of all Your people.'

There will come a time when sadness turns to happiness like a rainbow that comes after rain. Floe hopes that her life will someday end in a rainbow country when she meets her soul mate. Although he does not know when and who, but very sure if God has determined the best mate for him.

To be continued...