Pamite
5. Disclosure of Fraud

"What do you see from my bag, deck?" asked Mas Anang weak, I do not know where all the energy he had used to hold me.

Without answering I walked out of the room and set foot into the living room. I turn on the light, I deliberately leave the room, so that my son does not wake up with my conversation and Anang mas. Not long after, Mas Anang sat beside me after I sat down. I was still silent with tears that continued to pour out endlessly.

"My answer's deck, what do you see?" asked Mas Anang once more by cupping my face with both hands.

"Think of yourself, I guess why I can do this after looking at the contents of your bag? Why are you still asking me?" I answered with a sharp eye. I can't really explain how I feel now. It felt like I was dust in the middle of the city, there I was, but only to be trampled, overheated and not considered.

"I can explain, this is all just a misunderstanding." Mas Anang still berkilah while he was being squeezed like this.

"Explain where my misunderstanding is. Are you going to say that the two things you used to have sex with are not yours? The paper with the check in at the five-star hotel is also what happened to be in your bag?" Whatever emotions I have right now, I can still control and I still keep my words, I still keep my intonation when talking to him. Because I'm aware, emotions are not the right choice right now. If I follow demons that poison my mind and heart, Anang will also be emotional and will add scratches to the wound in my heart.

I saw the confused face of Mas Anang, feeling guilty and I don't know, maybe he was already sorry for putting those things in just any place. Perhaps in his heart he also cursed himself for being this stupid. No-no, he's not stupid, but I. I'm a fool, how could I miss something like this. How bia I was in kelabuhi mas Anang so easily.

Right now my mind cannot think of anything positive. I became dubious mas Anang, I doubt about his small salary, indeed all this time I have never seen the savings book mas Anang. Being too trusting in him is what might have led me to a situation like this.

"Listen to me, what you see doesn't mean it's the truth." Mas Anang was still convoluted, whether he was messing with my mind or indeed he was still thinking of the right reason for all the things I met in his bag.

"How does truth continue?"

Anang was silent again. And the silence, makes you think that what I think is the truth.

"Silence you answered everything. Why did you betray me? What's my fault, mas?" I sobbed again, my chest felt tight until I had trouble breathing.

"You're not wrong, I'm wrong. Sorry I'm khilaf." I finally heard those words from his mouth.

"How long have you been doing this? Andwhy? The person who is a khilaf will not go that far, stay together at the hotel, have sex, and you say khilaf? Khilaf you did many times? The name of the affair is no one is khalaf mas."

I've been trying to hold back my anger since, but Anang is still convoluted. I wiped my rough cheeks that were already wet from tears. I dragged Anang to Alif and Agil's room.

"You saw them! Look at 'em! Have you ever taken them for a walk? Have you ever bought toys for them? Ever mas?" I started to slightly raise my tone. I was furious to remember my husband taking another woman to a five-star hotel. "You just never take us for a walk even though only to the park, I took a slam in order to make ends meet, so we do not owe much. And you easily and lightly bring another woman to stay at the hotel? What are you covering up from me?" I continue to shower him with questions.

"You've had enough of Ayu. I explained at the beginning that this was just a misunderstanding and I was being khilaf. Why are you so pervading everywhere as if you are very meritorious with your fried sausage business." Mas Anang already seems to be starting to get emotional with me. I made him even more upset.

"Aren't I really meritorious? The life I now live is very deviant from the promise you once said to me. Need me to remind you? Even until now I do not know on what basis you hurt me secretly like this, mas."

"I told you I'm a khilaf."

"LIED! You are well aware of our condition. And you're wasting money on women****** out there. It was not a khilaf, but an act OF DELIBERATION!" I don't know what demons are controlling me. With courage and no manners I shouted in front of the face of Mas Anang. Never had I been like this before, even Mas Anang looked surprised and could not believe I could have this clover.

"Whatever you like, I think how." Mas Anang replied to my words with that dime. Without guilt or intention to calm me down, he actually stepped out of the house at the hour that had shown ten o'clock at night.

I can only cry bitterly, it feels like my heart is breaking, my life also feels unexciting. I slumped my body to the floor with tears streaming down. I bent my knees and hid my head on my knees. As much as possible I disguise my so that I don't hear the children.

I spent a lot of minutes sitting down and hiding my face and crying. I then moved from the room and intend to dismantle the closet, I want to know the savings book mas Anang who from the beginning of marriage until this moment I never saw the shape.

I rummaged through the entire closet, I took out all the clothes and files such as home certificates and motorcycle letters mas Anang. I searched for a long time, but I met. I don't want to give up, I have to find that thing right now.

There was no corner of the room I missed. Until I finally found Mas Anang's savings book under the mattress where we slept. With a tremble I took the book and opened it slowly. I'm afraid if I find out the contents I'll get worse, but if I don't see I'm very curious. And besides, Anang will continue to lie to me if I stay silent.

My eyes and mouth were wide open as I looked at the rows of numbers listed in the savings book of Mas Anang. My heart just feels worse. I removed the rough cheek that was back in the tears. I was furious and very hurt by what was hidden from Mas Anang.