Pamite
55. Dying

Anang came home empty-handed, empty of his life at this time. With a limp he stepped away from Ayu's house. Sometimes he looked back, maybe Ayu changed her mind. But hope remains hope, let alone change your mind, open the main door that Ayu did not do.

"Dad, are you here?" ask Alif who just came home from Bu Lin's house. The little boy was with his two younger siblings and also Jaka who was holding Anin.

Anang was a little stunned, his son's attitude was very different from a few days ago on Agil's birthday.

"Ah, yes, son. I met with Mom. You how are you?" asked Anang awkwardly

"Meet? I'm fine, oh, yes I want to apologize to you about yesterday. I shouldn't have spoken rudely with Dad."

Anang tried to crouch down to keep his height level with Alif. Months of using a stick and getting used to the situation makes Anang did not meet difficulties when doing anything.

"You should be the one apologizing. I was wrong with Alif. Alif is now happy with Mom and sisters. Promise to be a good and obedient child, so a good brother for sisters. You also have to take care of Mom, you're a boy and a kid first, so you have to be strong on your shoulders for Mom and the sisters, yeah."

"Yes, Dad. I'll be a good, obedient boy. I will also take care of Mom and sisters, I am calm just don't worry about us. Do you want to go home? Why don't you tell me that Dad's here."

"Yes, I want to go home. Dad who can't tell you earlier, I think you're still angry with Dad and don't want to see Dad. So I just met Mom. Oh, Alif if I invite you to see Grandma? Grandma's in the hospital. He said he wanted to see you with Mom."

Alif did not answer the mother's question. Ayu opened the door and shouted at them.

"Alif coming in is the night time to study!" ayu shouted from the middle of the main door.

Jaka who had been silent since just stared confused at what happened. Why is Ayu's attitude so cold and upset? The confused Jaka.

"E, I'm sorry before, I have to bring the kids in. His mother called him" Jaka said, not feeling well.

"Oh, yes. Just take it, I'll go home, too."

Anang kissed his three children before actually leaving.

"What's up, anyway? Why aren't you in that mood? Like some more sprains? Why, hmm?" ask Jaka after arriving home.

As if understanding his mother's heart was not okay, Alif immediately entered the room and studied, while Agil and Anin played together in front of the TV by scattering all the toys that were there.

Ayu let out a rough breath, "Anang came here asking me to meet her mother who is being treated in the hospital. He said his mother wanted to see me and Alif, "he replied in a fit of annoyance.

"So he also said that to Alif. From the look in his eyes, he needs you."

"Are you going to persuade me to obey what Anang said?" ask Ayu not to believe.

"No, I won't persuade you. I don't know how sick you are, I don't know what mistakes your mother made besides her mistakes yesterday, I don't know what happened between you two. So I can't say anything." Jaka shifted his seat to get a little closer to Ayu.

"You forgot? Did you ever tell Alif that if we have a vengeful heart, anger, and hatred it will not be good for health? Not good for our peace of mind? But you did it?"

"This is a different context, Mas. I'm still not ready to make peace with what happened in the past. Okay, I don't want to talk about this. Me, you want to be quiet without them."

"Yes-yes, don't sulk that way, dong!"

Once at the hospital, Anang was surprised by the presence of Fadil who was outside the room sitting with a face that is difficult to describe with words.

"Why are you outside? Whose mother is it?" asked Anang in panic.

"Against the Doctor, Mas. Just now Mas Anang just left, I was like breathing trouble. It's still checked, not finished."

Anang drowned for a moment. The feeling of anxiety that had been bothering him since was answered already.

"How's Mom doing, Doc?" anang asked a bespectacled man who was slightly younger than his mother.

"Sorry, sir. Better just let your Mother, we've tried our best. But it seems like God has other plans."

"What does that mean? DON'T SPEAK UNCLEARLY!" snapped Anang.

"We've raised our hands, sir. There's nothing else we can do but wait for time to..."

"Obsteady y'all." Without hearing anything else from the doctor, Anang rushed into the room as well as Fadil.

Anang no longer have the energy to stand to see his mother who is dying. His wand just fell down and he was sitting limply on the floor. With the rest of the calm, he reached his mother's bed by dragging his body as much as possible.

"Mom, why is this Mom? Mom wants to leave me too, Mom says you've forgiven me, if you've forgiven me you should've held on for me, Mom." Anang roared beside his mother.

That's when Galuh came with a face that was messy anyway. He remembered very well, how his father breathed before leaving. He is still traumatized by death. And now, his mother also showed the same breath as his father before completely closing her eyes for good.

"Take a lead, Mom. Don't make it harder for me, look at Mom." Galuh approached the brother and grabbed his shoulders.

Anang who is limp and unable to speak again is only able to shake his head with tears that continue to pour.

For how long, Fadil and Galuh took turns whispering sacred sentences in the mother's ear, but things did not change. The breath of Miss Lasmi is still stuck in the throat with eyes that are not able to open.

"Mas, please sincerely Mother, Mas. I know it's heavy. Not just for you, but us three kids, Mas. It would be more pity if Mom kept this up. I beg you, Mas. Poor Mother. Let him go quietly and peacefully. We just pray from here, I beg you, Mas," Galuh asked with a hearty tone. He could not bear to see his mother who was tormented in the seconds of his return.

"Mom, go home if you want to go home. Me or the others didn't stand in my way. Let me cry like this, Mom. Go home and don't mind me. I've been sincere if you want to rest." Unable to say his own words Anang hugged Galuh tightly. Spilling all her cries on the shoulders of her sister.

While Anang was roaring, Rahma came with all the confusion. He did not want to ask much, he saw Mother Anang who had wanted to meet her death, but was in great pain and suffering.

Rahma only met with Anang's mother yesterday, Ananglah who brought them together. The woman only knew Anang as her friend and employee, but somehow seeing Anang who was so unprepared to lose made Rahma's heart feel pinched instantly.

"Mas, please let him go" said Rahma approaching Anang. I don't know how many times Anang heard that phrase. He was sick and wanted to be angry.

"I've let Mother down, I don't want her to be like this either. I myself do not know why Mother was so tormented like this," Anang said angrily.

"Mbak Ayu, we're going to Ayu's mother's house, Mas. Maybe with the arrival of Ma'am Ayu can change everything. I remember, when I could still talk I wanted to apologize to Ayu Ma'am," said Galuh always got enlightenment.