Pamite
9. Caught

A few months after our quarrel which somehow to how much, my relationship and mas Anang still the same. We are still not reprimanding each other, but you still show our relationship is fine if in front of the child. Still joking like before.

After the incident I was caught holding a hape mas Anang, the man so never again put his hape in any place. That flat object was always nearby. He even took it everywhere. I'm having trouble figuring out who the Winda is.

Actually I know, your wife must be the woman***** who has ruined my household. But somehow I was very curious and something stuck in my heart. Shakila's name never escaped my head, I'm still very curious whether Winda is a married woman and cheating with Anang mas, he said, or Winda is the woman who became the mistress of Anang until she became pregnant and had children?

That's what I didn't know until now. I don't know how I'm going to investigate this, I don't have access to go back to smash Anang's cell phone. To follow him was very difficult.

Rather than me daydreaming, I was idly looking at my savings. A few months selling branded goods turned out to make me a lot of money in a short time. There were six million rupiahs in the wallet that I hid in a meeting. I am so thankful that Allah has made my fortune.

"Kids, want to go for a walk?" ask after you finish counting the money.

I felt the need to take my children for a walk even if it was just going around and eating on the side of the road. Something that no one ever did at all.

"You," replied Alif and Agil gleefully, while Anin only smiled with a funny face.

"Yes, take a shower first. Let handsome and beautiful son mother. Went where? To park? Around the road, is that eating? Or what do you want?"

"I want everything, Mom. I want to go to the park and eat fried chicken. Do you have money?" Alif answered and asked.

"There was. I have money, we go to the park and buy fried chicken that Alif wants. We take a shower" I said, holding Anin, my only daughter.

At three o'clock in the afternoon, we were on the bike and ready to go. Before I took the bike, Alif threw me a question. Questions that made my heart feel pinched.

"Why don't we wait for Dad, Mom? Same mom dad again marahan huh?"

I took a deep breath before answering. "No dear, the same mother father does not marahan kagi, will later if you wait for the father later. If Anin's hunting sleep is kasian, cook this take Anin a walk while sleeping," I replied as calmly as possible.

I'm so sad that my oldest son asked about our relationship. I don't know, he feels very sensitive to the surrounding environment. He could feel what someone around him was feeling. In fact, a child as small as Alif ever asked why his grandmother did not love him? Though neither me nor my mother ever mentioned her hatred for me and the children. A child as small as Alif can already feel that his grandmother does not like his mother, my heart really feels sliced if I remember that.

I deliberately drove the bike slowly. I enjoy the air that I haven't felt in a long time. The breeze blowing through my face made me relax. Ah, enjoy my life today.

All three of my children were very happy once they arrived at the park crowded with people. Most of them are happy little families, there are some mothers who are chasing their children who run to and fro.

"What kind of excuse does Agil want?"

"No, we'll buy fried chicken."

"Why? Are you worried that you don't have money? Are you afraid your mom's money is running out? I'm sorry, son. I'm looking for money to make my kids happy, you don't worry about me running out of money. As long as you are healthy, you will continue to make money to grant what you want. Yuk, we walk while choosing snacks, later Alif same Agil point in want yes."

"Bright mom?" My eldest son still can't believe it.

"Yes, we never go for a walk, right? Rarely outside either."

The four of us sat on the green grass, like the green of the neighboring grass. We were joking with the occasional Agil and Anin running around exploring the park.

"Mother, it's dad isn't it?" alif said, which surprised me.

I looked in the direction my son was pointing. How surprised I was to see my husband with another woman, who made my heart seem to decline was the daughter who was in the sling mas Anang, if I estimate the age of the child around a month.

My eyes are heating up, my eyes are blurred because they are filled with tears. My chest feels tight, my body feels helpless. In my heart I wondered if she was Winda and that baby was Shakila. Why would Mas Anang carry the baby if it was the daughter of Vinda with her husband. Is my hunch right? Shakila's my husband's son? It does not make sense if the child is not his child, it is not possible for Anang to willingly carry someone else's child so.

"Mom, mother. Is mom okay?" A small hand shaking my hand made me wake up from the daydream.

"Huh? No, I'm okay, baby. We go home yuk, we buy fried chicken on the way to the house aja ya." I got up from my seat and dragged my two children away from there.

During the trip, it was fortunate that Alif did not ask many things. Perhaps he was wondering who the woman and daughter were with his father.

*

Agil and Anin slept earlier than usual, I don't know, maybe they were tired because in the park running around so they slept earlier than usual.

I sat in front of the TV with thoughts everywhere. My body's at home, but not with my mind. Still clearly drawn the faces of women and babies who were carried by Mas Anang.

"Mother" call Alif sitting next to me.

"Yes, baby, what's wrong? You want something?"

"So dad, right, mom? Who's dad?"

Ah this kid, I guess he's after forgetting that. Apparently he was silent just to delay the question. Maybe she didn't want her sisters to hear questions from her, too.

"Yes, brother, that was dad. I don't know who the same woman is, you can be the boss."

"Workers can bring children? Working in the park? In the park make a walk doang."

"If being a boss is good, you can do anything. May also work bring children, so Alif school is smart, high, so can be the boss. Can pay people, can be happy father mother also."

"Oh, ma'am, but why go to the park?"

"There may be a meeting there. The meeting was not just in the office, my dear. It can also be in restaurants, cafes, hotels, buildings and other places. So free anywhere."

God, I feel like I'm fooling my own son. I'm sorry son, I don't want you to know about this. You're too small, your world is just playing and learning.