Pamite
98. True Taste

Since that day Rifki has been really impatient to undergo surgery. The thing that Rifki never wanted to do is now very eager to do and even he feels time is running very slow.

Rifki's shadow of Dara being abused and traumatized makes her more painful and sick. He realized one thing, there was nothing beside him when such a condition was a painful reality.

"What date is it?" ask Rifki at breakfast.

" date one, why?"

"It's okay, that means five more days of surgery, right? the operation is, isn't it, Mom?" I don't know how many times Rifki's convinced that.

"Yes so, can't wait, do you want to meet Dara?"

"Yes, I hope that hopefully Dara doesn't stay away from me like I did. Even if, yes, I will also be stubborn like him. I'm ashamed of myself, Mom. I've been thinking that no-no, I had time to think that Dara forgets me, forgets my love, forgets her love and is happy with other men. Hopefully Dara never knew my thoughts were this small."

"If you don't tell, he won't know. I'm glad your happiness's back."

***

"Ra, five more days of Rifki surgery. You want to come to the hospital?" ask Ayu when gathering with family at home.

"Kok you know?" Jaka asked.

"A few weeks ago I met Rifki I came to her house." Ayu answered blatantly because she already knew that Rifki accepted Dara as she was.

Jaka. Naturally, because he never knew when his wife met Rifki at his house. Slightly annoyed at doing something without his permission. But he did not show it in front of his family.

"No permission, my dear? When are you going there?"

"I'm sorry, not rude. But, if I'm the same permission you're not your permission, right? If I don't move, who wants to move? If I hadn't been there we wouldn't have known that Rifki wanted surgery. I did this because I didn't want this misunderstanding to drag on. You know that Rifki had always thought that Dara was happy with other men she thought Dara was married. You shadow dong when his condition is paralyzed blind he thought of something else. Even when he was told he wanted surgery he did not want why because his mind was there. He thought to what he could see that what he wanted to see was not there. I'm not here to blame anyone, huh Mas. I just regret the wasted six months."

Dara who became the main topic in the discussion was silent and did not budge. Not knowing what he was thinking, it seemed that he was too deep in thought.

"Dar, you're okay, right?" asked Bu Lin a little worried.

"Isn't anything ma'am I look at?"

"I'm ashamed to see him, Mom. I don't pantes for him, he can definitely find a better woman than me."

"You're the best for him, Dara. You weren't talking about Ma'am? He didn't want surgery because there was no one beside him. That means it's better to be blind forever than to lose you."

"That was before the night, Ma'am." Dara was still pampered with her stance.

"After he knows everything he's staying the same, he's going to surgery because he knows you're not married and he knows you need him."

Dara speechless. He doesn't know if he should be happy or sad or ashamed of what happened. Rifki was once in this position of losing confidence, not believing in herself, hating herself, but she was so muddled with her feelings. He chuckles with his love and finally Rifki comes back with a new spirit. Would that man do the same to her?

"Where do you want to come?" Ayu asked back because she had not received an answer from the girl.

"Don't ask that first, Dek!" tukas jaka who understands Dara's confused feelings.

"Maybe next day, you meet him, I'm not ready." Dara answered while looking down.

In the evening.

Dara stared at the side yard of her house which was filled with mango trees. Sitting by the window of his room with the window open. Feel the night wind blowing a little. Making her hair that had been covered with a veil waving because of the wind.

Dara still remembers very well that they should have had an engagement this month. He should have been busy with his script. But all of that is just wishful thinking that I do not know when it will be carried out.

"Does God believe that my love for you is so strong, brother? To the extent that God believes in us that we are capable of dealing with all of this, it is too much for me and for you. Am I wrong, am I sinful, if I wish we could have each other someday? Am I being too selfish to wish this. I don't know what tests will befall us in the future, I always hope that whatever God's way we will be happy. Even though I forced God a little bit that I wanted to be with you. I remember saying that my love for you was for today, tomorrow and forever. And it turns out that God still grants my prayers, my love for you still remains the same no matter what your circumstances. But I'm too scared to meet you."

Accompanied by rustling leaves blown by the wind. Dara, talk to herself. Figure out how the two feel and wonder why the test has never been completed. He did not regret what had happened, he only explored what God meant to give such a heavy test.

"Don't be afraid there's a brother! Did you tell me that Rifki wants surgery just because of you what are you afraid of?"

"I don't know Bang, but I don't think I'm ready to see him. Even though I really wanted to meet him. I want to hug him, I want to shed my tears that have been held for him." Dara started sobbing. "I'm so upset, Bang is with him. I miss everything I just want.." Dara was unable to continue her sentence as she hugged the waist of the older brother standing beside her.

Jaka silently stroked his sister's back. Allowing all the sadness and burdens she had withstood to spill through her tears.