Teach Me (Naina)
Chapter 86 The Dealing of Aminah
"Astaghfirullah al-adhiim! Speak, Mi! It's not appropriate for a mother to say that. Remember, Naina was Alfin's choice. No matter how hard we oppose the boy, he will never change his choices. Umi knows for herself how hard Alfin if you have a choice. Don't take Umi's selfish attitude, keep our son away like we did, Mi. Don't repeat Abi's old mistake."
Ahmad stiffened to hear the inappropriate words spoken by Aminah. His gaze was full of disappointment, hitting a gentle figure whose blink of an eye just turned hard.
Aminah shook her head, insisting on her decision to annul Alfin and Naina's marriage. She was reluctant to even look at her husband who was now turning around to defend the girl.
"But Alfin's been wretched ever since he was with her. Umi did not want the child's misfortune to infect Alfin," ketus Aminah while wiping her tears that fell. Actually the heart hurts, but what to say. He loves his son very much.
"Astaghfirullah al-adhiim! Who did Umi call unlucky? What kind of misfortune did Umi mean? Everything that happens is a provision from Allah, Mi. All God has arranged. Umi did not want .. what Umi forgot, all we experience is the will of God. What happened to Alphin was God's rebuke for our negligence in keeping His trust. Don't give up all the same mistakes Naina. That girl doesn't want any of this to happen either, Mi."
Aminah sobbed, but still turned away from her husband. Khadijah was really disappointed with the woman who had conceived him, considering that Aminah had been a gentle woman and a wise mother. He hides a feeling of disappointment that is growing.
"Umi know, Umi also remember, but if there is a better choice why should force a clear harm to the life of our child, Bi," said Aminah staring hard at her husband.
Ahmad massaged his dizzy temple, his marriage to Aminah for life, never saw the hardness of the woman's heart. He always looked wise, gentle, and always accepted every test that befell him.
"Try Umi look back at the Qur'an verse that Umi always read. Allah says: "Wa 'asaa an takrahuu syai'aw-wa huwa khairul-lakum, wa 'asaa an tuhibbuu syai'aw-wa huwa syarrul-lakum. However, you may not like something, when it is good for you, and you may like something, when it is not good for you"*. What we think is good is not good for God. So does Alfin, what Umi thinks is good, not necessarily good for him."
Ahmad stared deeply at the wife's sad face, each line still looking stiff and hard. He glanced at his eldest daughter, instantly knowing the pregnant woman was feeling disappointment. He who believes that his mother is a wise woman, but instead is controlled by selfishness.
Again Ahmad sighed, trying to unravel the tightness that spread in the chest. The man's gaze was again imprinted on the figure of Aminah who flirted at his harsh attitude.
"Not always the cactus is bad, one day it will give us beautiful flowers. Nor is it forever that a caterpillar is disgusting. One day she will become a cocoon and bear fruit into a beautiful butterfly. Mi, God does not give us what we want, but God gives us what we need."
Aminah's shoulders lifted and fell heavily. Ahmad knew that his wife was trying to let go of the burden that had plagued his heart.
"Perhaps what Alfin needs to accompany his hijrah journey is a simple girl and what it is like Naina. Someone who can learn religion together. Someone who willingly struggles to obey Him. Nadia is indeed a good girl, religious as well, but not necessarily able to compensate for Alfin's hard journey." Ahmad gulped his hard-earned saliva.
The liquid shafts felt like spiked spherical objects piercing the throat. Feeling thirsty, but unable to flush it.
"Umi's just a normal human being who wants to see her son happy. Umi's just a mother who doesn't want her child to continue to suffer." Aminah covered her face, sobbing bitterly considering the fate of her youngest child.
Since getting to know Naina, Alfin has often encountered reinforcements and danger. She accepts that she thinks Naina is a good girl and is able to guide Alfin to stay on the right path. Aminah just does not know, what kind of thorny road that must be passed by the hijrahors.
Ahmad sighed, remaining patient in the face of Aminah's harsh attitude. His heart ceaselessly prayed for the inner calm of his wife who was being seduced by the seduction of the devil.
"Istighfar, Mi. Please forgive Allah. Don't let the demons fill Umi's heart shrouded in agitation and sadness. Do not drag on in lamenting something because that is where the devil is very very easily seduced. Istighfar, Mi. Astaghfirullah al-'adhiim! Calm Umi's heart," said Ahmad while gently rubbing Aminah's hand hoping to penetrate into his heart.
However, what he never expected, Aminah withdrew her hand. Grasping it in front of the stomach, resisting the touch of the husband. Ahmad was stunned, his breathing repeated.
"Know ... That every leaf that falls, has been recorded as his destiny, and he is in His power. So rest assured .. All that HE gives, is the best even though the best is not always the most beautiful."
Ahmad left after saying his last sentence. The old heart was scratched in disappointment, stepping away leaving hope in the room.
"Pig!" lirih Khadijah called Ahmad. He stared at his first love, who was never disappointed.
Ahmad's footsteps stopped, his right hand held high.
"They need a place and time to calm down. If you need that too, go get it. Meet your husband and your children" Ahmad said without turning around.
He continued his steps to get out, leaving Aminah in tears. One by one his loved ones left because of a strong selfishness.
The pregnant woman's lips twitched, said something, but could not be moved in the mouth. He looked down again, rubbing his stomach which was not calm.
"You also want to leave Umi .. go, get colonized. Go everything and stay with Umi yourself!" ketus Aminah while shrinking her falling tears.
"Eye!" Khadijah. Although disappointed, he did not have the heart to leave Aminah alone.
"What's this?"
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*Al-Baqarah: 216