Tear Flower
THE SEASON 2 CHAPTER 15
Questions that offend to the personal realm are not easily accepted. Especially if it befalls someone with a condition that has gone through a painful phase.
Demanded to be perfect, no one can do it. For everything that happens in the world is God's plan, including a child.
"To Allah belongs the whole kingdom of the heavens and the earth. He created what He willed. He gives daughters to whom He wills, and sons to whom He wills, or He bestows men and women to whom He wills, and made barren unto whom He willed. Verily, Allah is All-Knowing, All-Powerful." (QS. Ash-Shura: 49-50)
That was the predetermined destiny, anyone could not judge others for the matter.
A child is a gift whose presence is unpredictable. His arrival provides unparalleled happiness especially for married couples who want children.
"Why Ayana? Why are you taking the medicine again and now? O Allah, do you want to be injected with a tranquilizer? What are you thinking?" danieal asked.
Ayana who had been holding herself back earlier, was now crying so much. He turned his back to his sister with sobs echoing in the room.
Danieal again and again sighed watching his sister slump. He was about to stretch out his hand, but was put back down. He felt Ayana like a withered flower that could be fragile at any time with just a touch.
His chest was also injured watching his sister regain the pain.
What else this time? Thought raging.
"Mas will contact Zidan," he continued from his seat.
Before stepping foot, his doctor's suit was pulled firmly by Ayana. Danieal looked back to find his sister looking down deeply.
"Don't tell Zidan anything, let it go. I beg you to understand, Mas," said Ayana Lirih.
Want to not want Danieal just nodded resignedly and sat back down. Ayana again pleaded to give him a sedative injection, and the doctor was forced to follow her wishes.
Ayana pointed clear liquid made her older sister was flabbergasted. Danieal closed his eyes tightly avoiding the pain right in front of him.
He could not if he had to watch his sister again keep a heavy burden.
"I have to go home now" said Ayana, shaking off the coarse blanket, and rising from her bed.
"But the infusion fluid is still there, at least spend it first" said Danieal refused and laid his tiny body again.
Ayana only according to resigned when her body still feels weak.
...***...
The clock showed at eight o'clock at night, when Ayana had just finished her infusion.
Danieal had continued to accompany his sister now opened the needle that stuck on the wrist.
Without any pain, Ayana just quietly flatly looked straight ahead. At the moment his feelings are completely clouded by the fog.
Danieal sighed many times to find the younger brother like this again. He was both worried and afraid that something big had happened.
He could not force her to come clean and burden her heart even deeper.
"Mas doesn't want to know anyway tonight we go home together. For this one Mas does not want you to refuse it," said Danieal after releasing the infusion from Ayana's hands and then clean up medical items.
"Mas will return this first and then we go home." Danieal breezed away leaving the room.
Ayana gave a short nod and stared at the departure of the elder sister in silence. Until the door closed his lips were still locked tightly.
A few seconds later, the phone that had been on the nightstand vibrated again.
Ayana glanced at him and found the same number repeatedly giving a short message.
The content of the chat is still the same as yesterday, where he is required to get a bogeyman who is clearly the prerogative of God.
Tears seeped out unbearably dripping on both cheeks.
Along the way there was only the roar of the car engine accompanying the brothers.
Since leaving the hospital ten minutes ago, Danieal and Ayana have been silent.
In silence Danieal continued to glance sideways watching Ayana who was looking out the window.
"What"
"I hope Mas doesn't have to talk about anything with Mas Zidan about the problems that are happening to me. I don't want to make him worry and make this problem bigger. I-"
"When is Ayana? How long do you want to behave like this? You can't keep everything hidden from your husband. Zidan has the right to know whatever happens to you. He's-"
Danieal continued chattering non-stop, without pause, making Ayana remember the incident a few days ago where he hid Kirana's whereabouts.
His chest rose and fell hearing word for word come out of the brother's mouth. His fingers clenched firmly as Danieal's words were triggered.
"DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW IT HURTS TO HAVE CHILDREN?" ayanas screams surprise Danieal.
He immediately stepped on the car's brake quickly making the two stumble forward. They catch each other's breath hunting intensely trying to calm down.
From behind, the sound of the car horn resuscitated them. Danieal rushed to the side of the road.
The brothers are still trying to calm down. Vehicle after vehicle continues to mill around non-stop.
"Eh! Ja-so you mean? ... Your situation now because you are required to have a child? Wh-what was that by Zidan?" With a slow movement Danieal turned his head to face the younger brother.
Ayana shook her head slowly while looking down deeply.
"Say! Who made you like this, SAY AYANA! LET'S SAY IT QUICKLY!" Danieal continues to force the sister to reveal who the perpetrator has been keeping her down.
"No, I can't"
"AYANA!" Danieal yelled again to make his sister jump in shock.
Seeing that he tried to set himself up again not to get carried away by emotions.
His blood boiled when he heard Ayana's words full of pain.
As a brother who had failed in protecting his sister, Danieal did not want to see Ayana continuously slumped.
He took a deep breath and exhaled slowly.
"Mas sorry ... I didn't mean to scream. Astaghfirullah, Mas got carried away and also carried away by emotions. I just don't want to see you continuously slump. You just recovered Ayana," he said regretfully.
Ayana wiped away the tears that had been flowing without pause.
His head was lifted again looking forward.
"I ... know. It's just that being charged continuously like that makes me very sick. Child ... I know for myself that is my biggest weakness. The child's problem was like drawing a sword right into the heart, i-"Ayanah could not continue her words and cried again.
"Mas understand, already do not continue to think later you are sick. I don't want to see you fall again. Take it easy you do not have to worry, here there is Mas, mama, and father who will always protect you, but ... Zidan also deserves to know."
"Because this issue is not just about us, but .. about you," Danieal said.
Ayana just nodded in understanding and set up a strategy to deal with her problem this time.