Tear Flower
Chapter 57's
"Ma-Mas Arfan?" Call Ayana did not expect that Arfan could come there.
The CEO also glanced at him and looked back at Zidan. The pianist was no less fierce watching the pair of beads next door.
"What are you doing? Let go of my hand," said Zidan, his muffled voice holding back the suddenly mounting anger.
"I will not let you go before .. you release Ayana," Arfan said firmly.
Zidan grinned widely, then clucked violently. "What right do you have to say that to me? Ayana's still my wife, so you can't do anything."
Now it's Arfan's turn to grunt. "She is indeed your wife, but .. wife on paper."
Arfan's words were immediately on target, Zidan widened his gaze of disbelief. Similarly, Ayana rounded both eyes to hear the words of her coworkers. However, at the bottom of his heart he was quite satisfied with what Arfan had thrown just now.
He looked at the two men taking turns, there was a glint radiating not to budge each other from the look in his eyes.
Arfan gripped Zidan's wrist even more so that he made him do the same. The two handsome figures maintained their respective egos.
Under the twilight sky this time, Ayana must be faced with the problem again. He was reunited with a man he wanted to forget.
"Can you let go of my hand? I don't want to be with you anymore, quickly sign the letter then .. we will officially part," said Ayana roused them from anger.
Zidan and Arfan looked at him compactly. The pianist did not expect to hear hurtful words from his wife.
"I won't sign our farewell letter. Because anyway I want to start over from the beginning. I love you, Ayana .. very," I'm Zidan again.
In front of the third person he dared to express his feelings. However, her persistence and earnestness did not arouse Ayana's feelings in the least.
The corner of Ayana's ranum lips lifted next to her and gave a sharp look. He looked up to more clearly show if he was really fed up.
"How many times do I need to tell you? If I want to split up? There's nothing we can keep from this toxic relationship anymore. Youunderstand? I want to split up!" ayana stressed the word parting at the end of the sentence.
"You hear that? Ayana wants to part, now let go of her hand." Arfan as fast as lightning pulled Zidan's hand making the grip on Ayana's arm was released.
Without saying a word, Arfan took Ayana away from Zidan. The man of Ashraf's descent silently pegged for the third time staring at the departure of the wife.
He rubbed his face while watching Ayana with another man. They disappeared behind the car door and hurried to leave her alone there.
Silence greets, loneliness welcomes, and emptiness increasingly comes crashing. The continuous throbbing pain in the chest drains the wound into the deepest recesses of the heart.
He squeezed his left chest hard trying to get rid of the pain there. However, still the pain can not just go away.
"Ayana, is there no chance for me anymore? I'm really sorry I hurt you for six years. Now I get the reward, if .. I love you so much and can't get you easily." He sighed violently and looked up at the sky with a tinge of orange red melted into one.
"O Allah, is the marriage of the servant with Ayana only limited to here? O Allah, if we are allowed to be together, make the way easy" raced Zidan alone.
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Moreover, he already knew the history of Ayana one year ago. Depression and trauma should never come back. If that happens, his soul will be threatened.
He squeezed the steering wheel of the powerful car, took a long breath and exhaled it slowly. Just as the charming lips opened about to say a word, Ayana's voice stopped her.
"Aren't I an ungodly wife? Ignoring my own husband like this?" said Ayana without taking her eyes off the window next to her.
He saw the scenery they passed, his mind was breezing everywhere thinking about many things.
Arfan shook his head a few times, "I don't think so. The wicked wife is her husband who used to be. If it's like Zidan, what do you deserve to be ungodly?"
Ayana is silent again, Arfan's words dance in the sense of hearing. He could not answer fear of defending himself.
"Yes Allah the servant does not know whether this is right or wrong, but. Forgive me for all the wrongs I have done to him" Ayana thought.
Arfan developed a smile understanding the painter's silence. It is not easy to face the problems of the past, especially the two do not want to succumb to each other.
Ayana who wants to split up and Zidan who wants to maintain the household, is very different.
They pull each other out of a floating relationship with no clear certainty. Of course, this can cause injury to each one.
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From that day on, Zidan decided not to go to Ayana anymore. In addition to getting rejection from his wife directly, he also got a threat from Danieal.
The man who works as a doctor at the largest hospital in his country was warned Zidan not to approach his sister again.
However, before that happened he already had the intention of staying away from Ayana. He did not give up his feelings or forget everything, but Zidan wanted to focus on God alone.
Every day, after training or going home from work he took the time to come to the nearest mosque. There he often prayed maghrib until the congregation isya.
After that he listened to the lectures given by some ustadz there. He also asked for advice and advice from the learned people about his relationship.
Most of them suggested that Zidan draw near to Allah. Ask the Owner of the Heart that He melt Ayana's heart.
"If you have truly repented of your deeds for six years, then turn to Allah in repentance. I am sure that Allah will open the door of His mercy for you. For the forgiveness of Allah is wide, no matter how many sins His servant ... God always gives an opportunity to change and draw near to Him."
"If you have repented, ask Allah to open your wife's heart again. Of course I also understand how she feels after years of being hurt by her husband. It is not easy to accept the past that has incised wounds."
"But believe that if God wills, nothing is impossible, and .. if God still dares for you to be together again, there will be a path you can take," utadz's name is Danish.
They had a conversation together inside the mosque after the worshippers dispersed. Zidan again asked for his advice and this time really made it open.
"Thank you Ustadz for the advice, I understand now" he replied, causing the man to develop a smile.