Tear Flower
Chapter 9's
Life is between two choices. Survive in a sad situation or go for a change for the better.
The dark night had come, the gray clouds were gripping him even more. The wind roared with solitude.
In the middle of silence Ayana sits at the bus stop while contacting someone. The answer that he thought there would be a little hope actually closed all possibilities.
"Mas, I'm leaving. I don't know when to come back, are you gonna wait?" he said on the sidelines of the pain.
"It's good that you go, and if you can't go back. You just brought shit into my life. You don't deserve to be a mother or a wife. Just go, there!" The call ended unilaterally.
Again and again the tears should flow dampening the pain in the chest. Lost all dreams to get love from the husband.
The words had already strengthened him to keep going and disappear. Without anyone by her side, Ayana cries back to hold back the tightness that continues to snatch away all happiness.
Slowly sobs were heard with the roar of the sky. Not long after the rain came so hard to muffle Ayana's heartbreaking cry.
He grabbed the bag he was carrying to channel the pain. The loss of the baby who is intentional by the husband, treated like a shadow, thrown away reality, not considered like a wife, and accused of not being a good mother, becomes a bitter reality accepted by Ayana.
He went away carrying a myriad of pains that settled in the deepest recesses of the heart. Regardless of the cold air or the rain that soaked her, Ayana continued to roar, spilling all the pain in her household.
Ayana's phone shook again, the owner who was still surging in a suffocating feeling looked at her glance. The name of Gibran is there, hesitatingly he pressed the green button and brought it closer to the earlobe.
"Assalamu'alaikum huh? Where is mama? Mommy's out there?" tanyanya.
Long Ayana did not understand the words of her sister-in-law, so Gibran kept calling her name.
"Mr go, see you. Say thank you to your father and mother."
Ayana also immediately turned off the phone connection and grasped the smart object tightly, to make her nails whiten.
The tears returned sad. Its duration was so sharp that it gave off an extremely deep pain. The petals also one by one fall leaving the pistil alone.
In a different place, Gibran was surprised when he found the studio image of the brother-in-law had been destroyed. He hurriedly contacted her and found the answer not wearing.
Without further ado he immediately came to his biological brother who was relaxing in the family room.
Zidan, who was enjoying the grapes, was struck with a second blow from Gibran. He immediately got up from his seat and looked at him.
"What are you doing, huh? You as a sister have no courtesy to your own brother!" furious Zidan.
"For what reason did I act courteously to a brother who never appreciated his wife. Did Mas know Ayana left? He was so hurt that he ruined all his paintings. Wasn't Mas worried? Beyond the heavy rain, mbak-"
"I don't care at all. If you're really worried about her why not find her and protect her? Keep playing as a hero. Because Mas knows you like your own brother-in-law."
"I really like him .. I'll protect him, but only a brother. Don't blame me if those feelings change. Do not forget if the karma must come, until that time comes Mas do not regret. Live in regret!"
After saying that Gibran left a million pettiness. Zidan let out a rough sigh and rubbed the corner of his bloody lips.
From the dining room, Bella sees all the scenes. While holding a basket of fruit both corners of his lips curved to form a perfect curve.
"Good, everything is going well" he murmured.
...***...
The journey it takes to leave all the pain in the capital is very long. Ayana awoke from sleep seeing the dew accompanying the emptiness of her heart. He got out of the bus and walked to a hill.
The night after crying so hard, he took a public vehicle to get out of town. I don't know where he's headed, he doesn't care where the driver takes him. He wants to go as far as he can.
Too many tears come out during six years of marriage. There is no happiness that he feels, all the goodness of the husband is just a lie.
Love, far from the life of an Ayana Ghazella. He continued to be verbally abused without feeling genuine affection. He thought that by marrying Zidan's attitude would change, but in reality it was more severe.
The man often blames his existence. Unbeknownst to him, Zidan is already in love at first sight with Bella.
Bella is a high school friend who asks her to be introduced to Zaidan. He knew that Ayana was close to the talented young pianist. Like it or not, he introduced them.
Unknowingly a third person is present even though they are not married. The marriage took place because Zidan's parents believed that Ayana could be a companion to her first son.
Ayana who had fallen in love with her charm could not resist, especially Zidan's parents were so kind and had helped her all this time.
The beginning of the marriage is going smoothly, honey moon is so sweet like honey. But all of that did not last long. The disaster came when Zidan said, "I don't love you. I'm doing all this, because my father and mother are forcing me. If I don't marry you then the family's assets can't fall on me. You just brought shit!"
The husband added that bringing Bella before him shattered all expectations, "I can't marry her thanks to your existence. Well, I should thank you too. Because of you I can meet the woman I love."
"I'm sorry Ayana, I can't help that feeling. Em, while I'm going out of the country you please take good care of my man. Until it's time to come back I'll bring it back."
Those are the words they say make Ayana realize if the marriage she did was only on paper.
From then on Zidan's attitude changed, and the husband began to address him with the word not to wear. Unlikely when he was on stage, the piano keys he played were so playful tone full of love.
However, these notes are contrary to reality. The music that signifies that longing is not for him.
"I remember that again, I should have forgotten it. There was no place in his heart for me, we said .. There was never me, only you and him. God is very sick" he thought.
Tears fall again at the same time as the sun rises. His light accompanied him on his way to open a new leaf.