Tear Flower
THE SEASON 3 CHAPTER 90
"family?"
A word of millions of meanings sprang from the cleft lip of the ranum Hana Tsubasa. A word that never has any meaning of its own is simply floating without certainty.
As if the word was just a name without any meaningful meaning. The only family he had had instead gave him such a cruel, unforgettable wound.
Family, the closest people who give selfless affection, in fact sometimes become the heaviest wounds and the source of the worst pain.
Those who should give sincere affection are, in fact, the greatest calamity in life.
Parents who are supposed to give love, in fact incised a very widespread pain. The wound continued to grow over time without any healing.
Trauma and depression, the only two words that are the result of the terrible events they give. Sometimes mental illness cannot be cured.
Welcome home, sometimes just the smallest part of a wish for a small child to grow up in a toxic environment.
Again and again there is only a welcome silence every time you go home. However, the word return itself gives no guarantee if it is the real place to return.
Sometimes the house becomes the most uncomfortable place to visit. Sometimes the outside world becomes the most comfortable outlet that can be obtained.
All goes wrong, just rely on yourself to be strong to face all the problems that exist.
That's what Hana often feels. He never got the meaning of a real house. He was constantly doctored by his father to keep following what he wanted.
Selfish, being one word to describe attacking father like Bagus Prakasa.
The wings of life on Hana's back were forcibly broken. He was shattered along with a dream that had to be buried with his life.
"Yes, family. You must have got it too. You know.I thought I never felt the affection of the family, in fact... God brought Ayana to replace my fallen ones."
"The plan of God no one knows and that is the best plan. You have to be sure and confident if everything will be fine," said Jasmine still combing Hana's long hair giving it a bit of strength.
The owner went back to silence for a while watching the beautiful face of barbie behind him through the mirror.
Positive aura continues to manifest in a Jasmine, who has experienced her own dark time.
He also became a living witness as to what those people slaughtered the Jasmine family. All this time he just closed his eyes did not tell anyone about the horror.
Alone, alone, and alone, that was what Hana had always done for so many years. He has no friend who can do everything.
It was good to curb Hana too much for the princess to stay in the room forever. He does not care about his desires and does his own selfishness.
Tears are only a silent witness as to what invisible wounds continue to grow and grow.
"Can I get a new family?"
Another question sparked, Jasmine again stopped her movements and glanced at Hana. Her soft lips widened perfectly to hear the hopeful question.
"Em, I'm sure you can get it. You know for yourself, don't you? Ayana. He always considered anyone as his family, including you.Didn't he say that too?" jasmine's voice reminded him of a few minutes ago.
Ayana says she helped a friend, but was turned into a relative.
A warm feeling suddenly burst into the chest. Hana linking the fingers of the fingers in front of the chest increasingly felt a foreign feeling go into the deepest recesses.
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Not long after that Hana and Jasmine came out of the bathroom. There they saw the people in the room gathering together in a circle.
Everyone looked back to find the two women coming. Hurry Haidan and Haikal got up from their seats to let them join.
After they got back together, the conversation resumed. This time it was Ayana who started the words that the people there had agreed to.
"Hana." Call gently.
Not getting there, Ayana even got up from her seat and walked towards Hana. Bening who was beside him got up, allowing the painter to sit in his place.
Ayana thanked me and now is right near Hana.
"Well, do you want it all to be over soon?" ask Ayana later.
Hana was flabbergasted, her eyeballs looking at everyone taking turns and returning to Ayana. He saw the look in his eyes sure made him not careless.
He nodded briefly in response, Ayana reviewed a gentle smile and clasped her hands warmly.
"In that case, I'd like to ask for your help. What can?" ask Ayana again.
Hana hesitated to answer the question, until Ayana resumed her speech.
"I'm sorry, if the effect is cornering you or telling you to do something, but if you want it all done and over then this is the only way for us to deal with it. Take it easy, we won't make you do it alone" explained the painter adding more concern to Hana.
The woman watched her interlocutor, where Ayana was so careful in speaking. This makes Hana grow worse.
This was the first time in his life, there was someone asking for something so carefully as not to hurt his feelings.
Throughout life, Hana is constantly asked to do something without thinking about whether it can cause pain or not. Even the father did not hesitate to ask for something that meant a lot to him.
"No need to worry, Ayana. Say it, if I could do it, I would do it, "the reply is to curl the crescent moon on the painter's pretty face.
Hana was again made flabbergasted when the two beads of Ayana glazed over. He smiled just by hearing the answer.
Hana increasingly did not understand the making and waited for what word Ayana would say next.
"You can tell everyone what really happened. You can tell everything, your difficulties, your pain, what you feel all this time, even to your smallest secret."
"Don't keep it alone, Hana. You deserve happiness and to let go of that pain."
"Because birds will not be able to fly freely if they continue to be in a cage. You can open that cage door and go wherever you want. Fly as high as you want."
Ayana's words just stirred up another desire in Hana. Slowly his caramel chocolate bead widened perfectly.
Hannah had never heard of the great hope she had long buried. Being someone he had wanted all this time was far out of reach.
Even a small dream to get out of the room was never given. He was always locked up without being given access to anything.
When his father was slightly threatened, he was evacuated to a remote place so that people from the media could not sniff out his existence.
"Why does Ayana look so moved? Even the words he gave me were actually for me. I don't understand who Ayana really is."
"However, after hearing Jasmine's words earlier I realized that Ayana was a very good woman. From the past until now, he has always placed more importance on others than himself," Hana's monologue in mind.
A second later he threw himself hugging Ayana tightly while muttering to make the painter's soot bead widen.
"All right, I'll do it. I'll do it, Ayana" replied Hana.
Ayana was surprised, and immediately returned the hug was no less tight. Everyone saw that smiling haru, understanding what was happening.