The Fuck Man Cindy Milen
Twenty Nine Days ...

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I still kept hugging Cindy's body tightly from behind, I sucked her body odor that Cindy exuded characteristically, I really miss her a lot , my heart is right now feeling a little relieved .

The words that I never dared to say even when we were together first come out of my mouth . Instantly I felt Cindy's body getting stiffened .

" You heard it Cindy, I still love you "I said again in a soft voice

I let go of my embrace and looked back into Cindy's eyes right in her bead . I saw him shaking slowly and then smiling little, I somehow hated that smile .

To be honest I felt scared by that smile, I had already given up all my pride for the sake of that woman, even I had barely lost my current pride .

" No, you never loved me Renal, from the past until now, never "he said calmly with a small smile to make me feel dislike

" If you love me why did you hurt me first? , why did you let me go ? " Connect it again with a soft voice even very slowly

" Ak—" I was cut off as I answered the woman's words and kept staring at Cindy

" Why did you let me be tormented, Renal "he said softly cutting my words to make me pause for a moment

" A-I couldn't support you back then, Cindy . if we lived together, our lives would be tormented , Marcell was like me, just like me . what did you expect by joining me at the time? , Marcell could have destroyed both of us Cindy " said I explained everything to make the woman was sad towards me

" When I left, I was looking at the campus that I was going to live in. I came back to just see you at school and wanted to tell you that I was accepted into the campus that you wanted . I succeeded Cindy, at least I can realize your wish, but I did not find you at that time even you did not send me a message , until finally you asked me to meet in an ordinary place . I can't do anything honestly I'm not sure that time you were really humming . After leaving you for two months and then I came back to just fix everything, but you left me Cindy . Though everything I do right now is only for you, when you go what can I get? , I just want to hear your praise and just a warm hug from you at that time , ' ' ' ' ' 'I just want to hear your praise and just a warm hug from you , but I realize what I've done is made you really get away from me, even if I come back after you I still can't be anything to you , I was looking for you Cindy and I really hated you and also hated myself back then , you disappeared into my life and I hate that I can't go back to finding you until I finally really hate you , you said you'd never leave me even if I evicted you, but look ?. That promise was useless, Cindy "My long cross took out all the weight that was on my chest at the moment

" I really want you and Rain in my life Cindy . Please come back , I really need you , Cindy "Say me slowly while continuing to stroke the woman's back head

" Is Cindy crying ? " I asked in my heart when I felt the warmth on my shoulder

Just as I was about to push the woman's body slowly to look at her two eyes Cindy suddenly held her back to make me stop my actions .

" Don't look at me like this 'Renal . just let me be like this for a second" she said quietly with a trembling voice that made me gently stroke Cindy's head again

" I still can't 'Renal" he said again in a soft voice but I can still hear him

Instantly my heart stopped beating upon hearing the woman's words .

" Why ? " i looked like a person who was really desperate

" Because I don't want to love you anymore 'Renal" he said softly to make me continue to hold back all the emotions that exist in me at this time

I don't know why I really can't be denied, whatever I want I always get . But somehow when I saw Cindy who rejected me like this, I couldn't do anything but force it.

I slowly pushed Cindy's body slowly away from her and I slowly pulled her chin so I could see her face .

" I will still ask you to marry me Cindy . Twenty-nine days from now I will ask you for the answer . Cindy let me fight for you this time , I'm sure , I can make you fall in love and come back to me , because actually you still love me as much as I still love you . so twenty-nine days from now on, even so I will make you fall in love with me . Cindy Milen this time I'm not kidding, I'm really not going to let go of you or Rain anymore, because now the main goal in my life is to get you and Rain " My words were steady and filled with confidence as I continued to look into Cindy's eyes

I saw Cindy who looked surprised but at once the woman smiled faintly at me while continuing to return my eyes.

" Just try Mr. Renal "he said slowly and smiled small to make me smile happy too

Look? , He still loves me, doesn't . I just need to convince him for now , I thought .