The Fuck Man Cindy Milen
Fear ...

...STILL POV CINDY.....

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After the event that we called the date was finally over now, we were in the apartment and I intended to prepare dinner for both of us .

I also started to focus on doing my work in the kitchen as usual, and I also did not forget to prepare my favorite drink Renal Milkshake .

When I was putting the Milkshake in the glass suddenly Renal came to me and took a glass of Milkshake that I had put in another glass and I saw Renal drink it without asking me for permission first .

Instantly I noticed the current look of Renal from head to toe of the man , renal's current appearance is very unusual because the man only wears short trending pants and also his Adidas jacket .

" Where are you going ? " I asked for a moment to make the man stop drinking and look at me

" Sports" he said briefly while putting the glass in his hand

" Sports ? " I asked while looking in wonder

" Yes, I will jog for a while around the apartment building and will go upstairs to train my muscles there" he said casually but I still continued to look in wonder at the man

" Tumbens ? " Many wonder

" It's a serious problem, baby" Renal said seriously but I increasingly did not understand the man's words

" Give me your index finger "he said again suddenly

" For what ? " Task me confused

And without waiting for my approval Renal immediately took my index finger and put it in the man's stomach, I who got the treatment also reflexively pulled my index finger to stay away but Renal still held my hand .

" Do you feel it ? " ask Renal while stabbing my index finger towards his stomach slowly

" Taste what? , I don't understand , Renal" I said confusedly

" My stomach is fatty and the abs are almost gone" he said

" Renal "call me slowly

" It could be later for this reason that you leave me, Cindy" he said with a worried face

" You're overreacting Renal, you know that "I said flat and was about to leave the man but Renal immediately held my hand

" I'm serious Cindy, let's look at my stomach, it's been a little swollen" she said dramatizing the situation to make me shake my head when I heard the man's drama

I really did not get out of thought with the man's attitude and way of mind, at this time I really do not see the cold, determined and bossy figure Renal . And right now all I see is Renal overdone and looks so much more like a child .

As soon as Renal pulled the zipper off his jacket and inside it Renal was wearing nothing, and I saw Renal pointing at the spot the man told me , and it's true that her stomach pengeng pincen looks bloated but it's just a little fat, I thought .

" You're too much Renal, you should sit here because soon the cooking I'm making will be finished " I said as I stepped foot into the kitchen to see my SOP which I almost forgot because of Renal's chat earlier

" No, I'll keep going, baby . Make sure your cooking does not contain a lot of fat because I can lose my abs-abs later and only leave one Pack on my stomach that is distended stomach "he said at length while peeling the flash of both my cheeks

I who got the treatment was about to protest but now Renal has run slowly towards the apartment door , I just sighed while staring at the man disappeared while shaking my head slowly .

I cleaned the kitchen after finishing my cooking, I intend to eat later with Renal if the man is back .

After finishing my work, I went back to Renal's room which has now become my room since we came home from the date .

When I was about to step into the bathroom in the room suddenly my eyes looked at something on the bed, a rectangular box of blue sea color that was there .

I immediately grabbed the box and saw a small piece of paper with my name on it . I immediately opened the box and found a new mobile phone , I was curious to take the phone out of the box .

I noticed the flat object and turned it on, instantly I smiled a little while looking at the picture on the screen on the phone .

The picture on the screen is a photo of me and Renal who were dating earlier , we did take some pictures earlier when we were dating and one of them is on the screen of this phone .

I continued to smile while staring at the screen of the phone until finally the phone that I was holding suddenly rang , I shook my head when I found the ID on the screen 'Husband '.

I stared at the writing while shaking my head, I thought Renal was really childish, I immediately pressed the green button on the screen .

" Have you seen your new phone ? " he said it without saying any greetings

" Hm "My heart is short

" That's yours, baby . Do you like the pictures on that screen ? " he said again

" Yes I like 'em, but you're too much ', Renal" I said

" No Cindy, it's no exaggeration for my Beloved and my future wife " he said softly and it was a success to make me embarrassed so I bit his lower lip so I did not smile too wide and fortunately Renal did not see the condition of my face at this time

" I Love You , Mommy "rerenal said again instantly to make my face blush perfectly , if Renal saw my current state maybe the man would tease me all out , kink .

" I Love You, Mommy "he said again when he never got an answer from me

I was embarrassed to just be quiet while neutralizing myself and my heartbeat, right now I feel like a teenager in love drunk and feeling his first puberty .

" I Love You, Mommy" Renal said again and again

Right now I am really embarrassed, I immediately dropped my body and buried my face with one of the pillows that were there .

I screamed so loudly to eliminate the feeling of debaran and happiness that was so overflowing in me that I was worried that I would go crazy this time .

" Renal can drive me crazy again if he continues like this "My words are deep in my heart and I immediately shake my head with a pillow that still covers my face

Instantly I took off the pillow on my face and sat myself on the bed while taking back the phone that I had put in bed .

I immediately opened the messenger application and typed something there with a smile .

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📨 TO : RENAL

" I love you Renal, please don't leave me again ya "

*send*.

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Without waiting for a long time the phone I was holding again rang immediately I pressed the green button again and put the flat object into my ear.

" Why suddenly send me such a message ? " Renal said a protest from there and I heard Renal's disjointed voice as if he was stabilizing his breath

" I'm just scared "I said honestly.

" What's up ? " She asked softly to make me nervous and squeezed the end of my shirt

" I'm just afraid this happiness is just for a moment, Renal" I said honestly and I heard a soft sigh from across the street

To be honest, I was afraid of the happiness that I was feeling right now, I was afraid that this happiness would only be a moment .

Instantly the pain I once felt was again present to make my thoughts and feelings become chaotic and afraid simultaneously .

" I'll try to keep this happiness forever, Cindy" he said softly

" You don't have to be afraid, because I won't leave you again, I promise you "

" But you used to promise me, too, Renal "I said softly as I remembered our past

Right now I don't care if Renal will think of me as what I am, I just want to be honest about the feelings I'm feeling right now , the fear of losing and getting dumped again . It's like a prolonged trauma that's inside you .

Our phone lines were still connected but I didn't hear any answer from there ', all I heard was footsteps running around and getting more and more clear in my ears .

In the instant my room door opened and showed Renal half-down as if he was taking a breath , soon Renal walked towards me with his face red from exhaustion and even the sweat on his face completely soaked the handsome face of the man and some of his hair was mixed with his own sweat water.

" Are you okay, hm ? " She asked softly while crouching right in front of me

" I'm afraid of Renal, I'm afraid you'll leave me and throw me back like I used to, I'm afraid to give all my heart to you, I'm afraid you'll hurt me again , I don't want to feel that pain anymore Renal, I'm afraid really, I'm afraid that everything I'm feeling right now is going to go away in a moment ', I'm afraid of what's going on right now " My words at length with a trembling voice let go of everything I wanted to say

Instantly I felt my eyes fade because of the tears that covered my vision and the next second those tears soaked my cheeks that I showed my weakness again in front of the man , instantly I felt Renal touch my cheek and wipe my tears with his thumb.

" Nobody will leave you dear, don't be afraid "he said to me

" You also promised not to leave me Renal, but what ? . You left me "My words brought it up again until the look on Renal's face turned sad and looked at me with a painful look in his eyes

" Ak—"

" You kept the promise but in fact you still left me, even after I begged you to still leave me. Renal I don't want that pain anymore, I don't want to feel that pain anymore "My voice cut off the man's words while bowing my head and hiding my tears that are now flowing more and more .

" So now what do you want it to be like, Cindy" Renal said slowly as if stuck in his own throat

I fell silent not answering the man's words because I also do not know what I really want at this time .

" You want me to leave you now ? " ask Renal again to make me immediately look at the man quickly and I see Renal's eyes reddened even in his eyes looks of pain that is getting stronger

I shook my head quickly, as fast as I could . I don't want Renal to leave me again.

" So what do you really want now, Cindy ? " Ask again in a voice that almost sounded desperate

" I— "

"I love you, I won't leave you again as much as I can, I really won't leave you Cindy" Renal said sincerely cutting off my words

I just looked at Renal with my own eyes and immediately hugged the man's body instantly and hid my face on the back of his neck.

" Don't leave me again" I said softly and felt small kisses on my head.

" Wouldn't, I wouldn't leave you so don't worry and think unnecessary things, I won't leave you Cindy, now stop crying " he said it calmed me down but I was still crying softly and when Renal was about to see my face I immediately hugged the man's body tightly until I heard a soft laugh from the man's mouth

" Well, you can cry as much as you, baby "he said to me as he continued to gently stroke my head and back

" Please don't think of anything unimportant ? " His words again, staring at me after I raised my face and stared at him

I felt Renal wipe away the remains of my tears and I just nodded weakly, at least the worry I felt at this moment was not as scary as before even now I was feeling a little calm .

I will continue to convince myself to start well with Renal and of course with my little angel Rain .