The Fuck Man Cindy Milen
Not Wanting to Make the Same Mistake...

...STILL POV CINDY......

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Right now I'm just silent and pecking in front of my parents' yard . Even my feet cannot step inside .

I looked at the yard of my house that was a little crowded and saw some people coming in and out of my house.

" Dear "call Renal while staring at me

" I'm fine" I said lying

At this time I even held my dike so as not to break even though it was clear that my eyes had turned red and shabby from crying earlier.

I slowly began to move my legs to enter my house, and instantly flashes of events some time ago were clearly recorded in my memory .

When I got to the door I found Mama who was kissing Papa who was already in the chest, As soon as I was silent sculpting even just to step even I could not .

Some of them looked at me with pity , and immediately I felt Renal's hand touching my shoulder so gently that it made me turn my gaze towards him and smile as if everything would be fine when everything was never okay from now on .

Luckily Rain had not yet woken up from his sleep at the time, not even Renal's parents knew about this .

" lt.. " Call me softly and softly with as my footsteps draw closer to them

Instantly I saw Hugo who was standing next to Mama while bringing up the middle-aged woman , I saw that Mama was just silent as she kept staring at Papa and I could see the glare of Mama's eyes that seemed so hurt .

" Ma "Call me slowly to make Mama turn her head towards the origin of my voice but there is no smile on Mama's face that I see only Mama's face looking at me with a hurt and disappointed look.

" Go home" said Mama slowly and it succeeded in making my heart feel so sliced

I also squeezed tightly into Renal's hand which I don't know since when it was held by my hand .

" Ma , Maa— "

" There is nothing to forgive, Papa has calmed down" said mama flatly cutting my speech

" Ma "

" Go home, isn't that man more important than your own Mama and Papa ? " Mama said flat and I immediately fell silent and lowered my head

" Tan— "

" I'm sorry "My raspy cut off Renal's speech

With one move I looked at Mama and again my tears dripped by themselves .

" Renal "Call me softly and softly without looking at the man

" Hm "surely muttered in response to my call as I continued to feel Renal's hand stroking my hair softly and gently

" Go home" I said for a moment to make the touch on my hair stop and the man stared confusedly at me but I still did not look at the man

" I— "

" Please Renal, I—I can't forgive myself if I continue with you" I said softly at the end cutting off the man's words

" Cindy "call her softly as she continues to stare softly at me

" Please Renal, leave me alone first . I— "my word hangs while closing my eyes and opening slowly as if to calm myself at this time

I even ignored some people who were staring at us with interest, with courage I looked at Renal right in front of his eyes .

" I don't feel well right now, coupled with you by my side, all of Renal's weight . at least let me think about it all, let me alone first . Renal please leave me as flat as " said me again in a soft voice and I saw Renal looking at me with an angry and dislikeful look.

" We'll talk after everything feels right "My welcome again

" What is not true ? " Tanya Renal doesn't like my words

" Everything feels wrong Renal, I, you and our dreams" I said, again breaking the hearts of those I love

And again I hurt Renal, again I have to hurt my loved ones to apologize to Mama so that the middle-aged woman can accept me back .

Wasn't I so mean here ', I've made my loved ones fall down and looked at me with a wounded gaze ', this is a fatal crime I committed 'no .

" I'll be back and of course I'll pick you up" Renal said flatly and left me who was about to fall if only no one would hold my body

" It's also that if I can go back to Renal, I just don't want to make the same mistake " My words were sad in my heart and suddenly everything felt dark and I began to faint with a body that felt very weak

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" Renal "Call me quietly without opening my eyes because I'm too comfortable with the touch .

" Let's rest for a little while, in a few hours your Papa will be buried" said the man and I knew it wasn't Renal's voice

" Hugo "my words choked when I found out the figure

" Hm" he muttered

" I'm lousy" I said again without intending to make both my eyes

" Why ? " Say as if I don't understand

" I hurt Renal again" I said slowly

" Hug "Call me again

" What's up ? " Say softly

" You still like me, don't you? , If you do, Marry me . Right now the child in my cage needs a father figure, I think my relationship with Renal will end , ' I think , the dream we built is over . I'll stop with everything , I stop chasing my happiness , I— "My words get stuck and I shed my tears again

I'm a stupid woman, not . To say such a thing alone has made me cry .

" Stupid" said Hugo instantly but I only fell silent when Hugo put an eye on me

As soon as I felt a warm embrace and a heavy burden on my body, I was sure that Hugo was currently squeezing my body to give me a hug

" I'll be here , cry if you want to cry . Everything will be fine I'm Cindy "he said to me

" Because I'm Papa—" I said intersected

" No, your father died because it was time God called him . He forgave you, Cindy " said Hugo slowly cutting off my words

I opened my eyes and I felt Hugo let go of his embrace.

" Before your Papa breathes his last he says he has forgiven you "he said again as if he kept me calm

" Now you can pull back your offer Cindy, do you still want me to marry you or do you go back to chasing all your happiness ? , I'm not the kind of guy who would let go of someone who's already offered me a wedding, remember that "he said again and again in a quiet voice

" I— "My speech is intersected

" Your father has forgiven you, forgive you" Hugo Sendu said

I don't know where Hugo knows and somehow I feel that Hugo is like my immediate family who knows everything, unlike me who always disappoints my parents .

" No, I won't make the same mistake a second time . I—"

" Are you ready to leave Renal and maybe leave Rain ? " gugo said instantly to make me speechless when biting my son

I got up from my sleep and sat on the edge of the bed , instantly my mind was imagined by Rain who I had just stayed in this morning maybe this time the child was crying when he found out my absence .

" Maybe they should be together, here I will take care of this baby, I will take care of the two children who are in my body at this time" I said softly

" You—" said Hugo intersected

" Hugo, I don't want to make the same mistake again, when I see Renal I always see Papa's disappointed face, I always see all my mistakes . I can't possibly make the only old man I have today disappointed again , I— "

" Are you ready to let go of Renal ? "Ask Hugo cut my speech

" I'm — , I think I'm ready "my word is slow and sounds unsure

" If you are ready then take off the ring in your day" said Hugo challenging me to make me silent while staring at the ring on my ring finger

" Start from the smallest thing , Cindy" he said again but I still kept silent

" We have to go to the cemetery now, stand up " said Hugo immediately to make me wake up and look at the man

" Hugo—"

" I'll take care of you and the two babies in your womb Cindy, I promise " said Hugo cutting my words to make me look wonder at the man

" Hugo you— "

" I still have Cindy's pride, even if you offer me marriage I still don't want to . I do still like you but I can't possibly snatch you from Renal, he's a crazy bastard and his dear bastard loves you very much.. , I have a promise with someone to keep you Cindy" Hugo said, again cutting off my speech

" Promise? , With whom ? " Many wonder

" Your late Papa" said Hugo, smiling gently at me, making me feel relieved

Hugo and I also walked together out of room , at least at this time my feelings are not too painful like that just now as soon as the burden on my mind has disappeared a little.