The Wrong Way to Love a Psychopath
Chapter 16 Memories

While working as a mental health nurse, Anika is always looking for ways to meet Kairi. But it is very difficult to approach that particular room for a long time with a lot of care.

There was even a special officer to clean his room so there was no chance for him. When Kairi was taken to take a shower or go out for check-ups, she was always escorted with strict guard.

"What really happened to him, brother?" anika asked one of her seniors at lunch.

His senior shook his head. "I know less too."

"Listen he moved from the RSJ next door, because the equipment there is not complete" replied another colleague.

"Why should he be isolated, brother?" asked Anika pretending to be curious.

"Last time he tried to kill himself by banging his head, so now enter a special room."

Anika rolled her eyes. He was shocked and saddened to hear that.

"Why ask? A handsome?" ask his coworker to joke.

"What's crazy!?" the oldest of them started laughing. Anika pretends to feel funny. Though in his heart he felt very sorry for Kairi's condition.

One night when Anika has to finish a lot of work because there are employees who are on leave, Anika can only finish her job longer than usual.

In the afternoon the hospital was quiet. Anika had suspected this until she immediately headed for Kairi's room before the night shift came.

He tried to tap on the window glass but got no response.

Kairi's gaze remained empty.

From morning to night, the position does not change. Is his brain damaged?

Anika gives up and goes home.

Although she can't talk to him, or touch him, Anika feels happy enough to meet Kairi to just see him alive.

Kairi's the one who has removed her trauma. That fact he always kept in his heart.

Anika little imagined her love story first with Kairi until awakened by her husband.

"Where is your job?" Yaslan had just finished his bath and had already put his nightgown on. "It's been almost a month working there?"

Anika realizes she is married and tries to bury her sweet memories into the deepest part of her head.

"Fun mas." answered Anika trying not to look too happy.

Yaslan looked at him fixedly. "Stop calling dong! Call Baby, or my love, or my love."

Anika actually remembered Kairi again when she called him affectionately.

"Have you taken your sleeping pills, honey?" tanyanya clasped Anika's hand and kissed her.

The big but flaky hands look like Kairi's.

"Not yet" Anika replied looking at Yaslan despite her thoughts on something else.

"Well, can you try today, baby?" tanyanya while continuing her kiss from the forehead to the lips to the neck.

Light kisses have been used to do, even hugging each other naked. But when Yaslan started to be more intimate, Anika was terrified.

This time Anika felt she could control herself more. She let Yaslan take off her evening gown, now starting to taste the other parts.

"Where? Still scared of Yang?" Yaslan wanted to make sure Anika was ready to accept herself. He did not want to aggravate the trauma he suffered.

But how surprised Yaslan was when he got the answer to a hot kiss from his wife who had wrapped her whole body into Yaslan's body with passion.

Anika took off Yaslan's clothes while continuing to kiss him, then began to climb the man who had been lying in wonder.

Every touch she felt she did while imagining another man. A thinner and pale white body, a body full of wounds.

They complete their intimate relationship in a fairly short time, with Anika being more active.

"You have a wild side as well" Yaslan said lying in sweat with their activities just now.

"I'm sorry, I don't like it..." Anika was a little embarrassed of herself. He felt he was over-expressing his love passion.

"No! I like!" honest answer. "You are just like everyone else."

Yaslan stroked Anika's hair. His wife eventually became his. "Where did you learn that?" tanyanya was a little suspicious.

"Watch." Anika has lied. There's no way she's saying frankly she's tried every position with her old 'husband.

Yaslan laughed gruntingly. "My shy wife turned out to have high sexual desire." She thought that because of her trauma, Anika had been holding back her sexual desire all along. He was relieved to know his wife was still normal, even far from what he imagined.

"That means your trauma is gone, dear?" tanyanya while continuing to caress her long hair.

Anika still silently covered half her face with a pillow. There were many secrets she kept from her husband.

"Yes." he answered no more.

While having sex with Yaslan earlier, Anika actually imagined Kairi. By doing so, Anika was able to overcome her trauma.

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Yaslan felt more satisfied with his home life after being able to be more intimate with his wife. Tiring studies and long work feel lighter.

Even so she was a little surprised because Anika every night asked for rations. He felt his wife's libido was higher than his own.

Maybe because he was young, Yaslan's mind after finishing making love with his favorite woman. He and Anika are four years apart.

Today is Sunday. Some of Yaslan's best friends plan to play to his new home.

"Crazy! Lucky for you, Lan! My wife is always quiet as a doll every time we play!" His fellow employees looked envious at Yaslan's confession.

"Maybe he pretended to be traumatized, when in fact he was afraid of being mistaken for a prostitute!"

"So your mouth is oy!" his other friend warned.

"The spectrum is real." Yaslan started talking. "He used to wake up a lot because of his trauma."

"Yes too."

Yaslan just said trauma in the past, nothing more. He did not say what his wife had experienced until it caused trauma.

"By the way, where's your wife?" Her best friend realized she had not met Anika.

"She was suddenly asked to come to work."

"Gini Sunday? Very diligent about your wife! My wife at her workhouse continues nontooon!"

"Udah dong do not be compared-banding want to continue! Kasian I'm single alone."

Yaslan smiled proudly at his wife. He forgot the fact that his wife had hidden many things from him.

At Anika's place of work, the head of the hospital asked her to replace a nurse who suddenly became ill. Although not yet certified nursing, Anika began to be trusted to fill the list of patients and other things that involve patients directly.

Anika is taking care of an adult psychiatric hospital patient who is considered almost cured and has been trusted to get out of their room.

Most inpatients he saw had schizotypal*, a mood disorder and mental impairment resulting from brain damage.

Although their behavior and expression are different, they are also human. Anika felt very concerned to see them. Mental disabilities do not look like physical disabilities, so many treat them like healthy people. Instead, they need more care because they cannot think normally.

As she flipped open the patient's inpatient logbook, Anika found her name.

Evan Kairi.

He skimmed his profile and his diagnosis of the disease.

Psychiatric disorder paranoid schizophrenia.

Anika recalls the psychology books she often read, and knows that this disorder is one type of schizophrenia where the sufferer experiences delusions that others want to fight against him.

After slightly recording the information in her little notebook, Anika was startled by the voice that called out to her.

"Anika's mother!"

"Yes Mom!"

"Mom was asked to help the nurse to bathe the patient."

"Okay, ma'am, I'll be there soon."

Anika stuffed her notebook into a uniform bag and headed straight for the patient bathroom section.

To prevent unwanted things like suicide and so on, the patient room is not equipped with a bathroom. The ceiling of the room should be high, and the bed should be connected to the floor.

"Mother rubbed her body with waslapp ya ma'am."

Anika takes the waslapp given. There were about four people in the bathroom.

Bathing a patient of a person with a mental disorder (ODGJ) is challenging. Because of the situation, some are bathed in mattresses, some are able to bathe themselves even though they are still guarded. This time the patient is quite dangerous so it requires extra handling.

As she approached the patient, Anika recognized the owner of her scarred body. The patient still wears pants for privacy, but not all of his legs leave smooth skin.

Although her hands trembled slightly, Anika gently began to wash her body. Two male nurses on the left-right held her hand, and a female nurse held the shower head.

Anika then remembered her memories long ago, when Kairi once washed herself with her hands still tied. Although at first she was frightened washed by her kidnappers and rapists, but after getting to know Kairi, Anika could feel patience and tenderness in every wash.

Seeing this state, Anika involuntarily cried.

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*Skizotipal: A personality disorder that causes a person to have difficulty in establishing close relationships with others because they feel very uncomfortable to interact.

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