The Wrong Way to Love a Psychopath
Chapter 29 Destroyed

"Mother .. hikshiks ..."

Little Anika cried on the bed, holding the blood flowing from the inside of her upper thigh.

"Help me ... mother .. pain ... huhuhu ...."

That night her virginity was lost to her own father. Anika doesn't know how to deal with this. The lower part of her stomach hurt a lot.

Previously, when her mother went shopping, her father always went into her room and touched the sensitive parts of Anika while she was studying.

"Quick learning! Don't mind dad!"

The other day, her father forced her to watch porn while holding onto her feminine area.

"You want to try, right? It's good, you'll like it."

And the night that her mother would go with her friends ...

"Mother, I'm coming!"

"Why? We have to learn, your father wants to accompany you to study."

"But ... Dad ..." Anika would like to say. He was eager to ask for help.

"Let's go, Anika!" shouted his father.

But Anika was too scared.

Then, every night, there was his mother at home, every night, his depraved father let go of his passion for Anika, his own child. The helpless little girl must serve the perverted old man. If he fights he will be beaten to a bruise. Her tiny body was all licked and touched lustfully.

The depraved man didn't care Anika cried, he didn't care that her son was tormented. He didn't care that his actions could incise deep wounds, he didn't care.

The important thing is that he feels happy and satisfied.

Feeling helpless against her father who every night forced her to have sex, so that she had been involved in this embarrassing scandal for too long, Anika was confused how to ask her mother for help.

He could only hope that his mother would find out and help him.

But one day, Anika steals a hearing of her mother's conversation on the phone with someone.

"Hikshir ... The child ... What was he thinking about to tease his own father?! Every night! Hikkii .... The child is not ashamed! It's disgusting!"

Anika realized it was impossible to ask for her mother's help. Because his mother knew, but did not want to help him. He even accused his daughter of the cause of all this.

When Anika notices her mother in the bathroom is removing a disgusting liquid from her vanity, with tears bubbling Anika tries to plead.

"Please Mom, Anika is not strong. Please tell dad, or let's get out of this house! Anika please, Mom!"

But his mother heartily said, "Don't fight your father! You know we can't survive without it! Money where?"

Her mother took off her hands, as if letting her daughter continue to be raped.

Eventually Anika could only give up this torment every night. Crying alone every night. Resisting the burden of mental and physical pain alone.

Until one day his menstrual period stopped.

Wh why? How am I supposed to? I've tried taking medicine why hasn't the blood come out yet?!

Anika scared. She's confused what she should do? Who can he ask for help?

"Hoeekkk!!!" Due to the influence of hormones, she feels nauseous and begins to be unable to control herself.

His mother who saw it began to suspect.

"Why you?" ask her daughter.

"Food poisoning."

"Open your clothes!" Her mother grabbed her shirt but Anika tried to fight back.

"Don't touch! Sorry Mom!"

Once managed to lift Anika's clothes and see her daughter's belly enlarged, instead of feeling surprised, or feel pity, but her mother actually felt very disgusted to see her daughter who was pregnant with her own husband.

His mother's reaction was like a storm. Anika felt her life was meaningless. He was getting scared and feeling guilty. He felt very disgusted at himself.

Eventually her parents took her daughter to the doctor for an abortion.

"To be able to have an abortion, the consent of the father of the fetus is needed. Is there a way to contact him?"

His father was irresponsible and pretended to ask, "Who's got my daughter pregnant?!"

Her mother was confused and crying. "Why is my daughter shameless enough to get pregnant out of wedlock?"

His father kept running away from trouble, "Prophe mah! Don't cry."

Her mother was too afraid of her husband, "Huhuhu ... How should we do doc? My own daughter doesn't know who the father of her fetus is. He may have slept with a lot of men."

His parents went on the stage to blame his own daughter for this incident they did.

Because she was too scared, too traumatized, Anika was speechless. He was afraid that telling the truth would make him suffer more. His body continued to tremble.

He thought it was better to bear it alone.

"That's because you don't use contraception! It's like this, right! Since the fetus is already growing, the cost is so expensive!"

After the fetal retrieval surgery, her mother still continues to blame her daughter.

Anika's body has been damaged. His soul is broken. He no longer wants to think. Whatever slander was thrown at him, he was silent. Too much is happening. Every night she raped her father, her mother didn't help her and even blamed her. And now she has killed her own baby.

The prolonged depression made Anika feel like running away from this reality. To overcome her trauma, Anika had a dissociation*.

Long time off from school, his best friend Bora is worried about him. But Anika is afraid of the story. He ran away from reality by lying that he was okay. After the abortion, her father raped her. But Anika was no longer crying. He's resigned.

No one can understand him and be sympathetic to him. Therefore Anika shows others that she is a good child who was raised lovingly.

All this time he has been playing with a happy family. Even to her husband.

He lied to everyone.

"Darling? How you feeling?"

Anika is now lying in a hospital bed. She had made her husband worried.

As Yaslan reached out his hand to caress his wife, Anika was terrified. He's blocking his body from being touched. His whole body was shaking. Her trauma that she thought healed had returned, she was afraid of being touched by the opposite sex.

After a day of hospital stays, Anika receives medicine and is allowed to go home. Yaslan brought her back home.

"You're on work leave first. I'll try to call the hospital chief. Rest at home, huh, Yang?"

Anika did not answer. His mind is still empty.

"Here I'll have lunch for you. You want me to bribe?"

Every day Yaslan tried to comfort his wife. Patiently she took care of him, trying not to touch him so that his trauma would not return.

"Did I say something wrong? Until your trauma comes up again?"

Anika shook her head.

I should have told him! inner Anika.

But I was too scared, I was afraid that Yaslan would also look at me with the same disgusted expression as my mother used to.

Anika felt herself weak. "I'm sorry .. huhuhu .... I'm sorry ...."

"Don't worry, rest a lot."

For three days Anika rested at home, she tried to do activities as usual. But he started hallucinating.

"Based liar! You have lied to everyone, lied to your husband. Anika is really disgusting and dirty. The real Anika is a baby killer..."

"No noise, let's say the radio is broken, I don't hear anything!"

Anika started to hear voices blaming her. Voices from her other self. Every time he ignored her, his voice was heard more and more often.

"Your husband is very patient in serving you. You don't deserve to live with him. He'll leave you if he finds out his wife is a dirty woman and a murderer."

It felt like all the suffering that had been harbored by Anika alone, had leaked out.

"I want to die!! Huhuhuh .... I can't stand it!"

"Don't say it like that, Yang! You have to look ahead! Forget that jerk! I'll help you, let's get excited!"

Anika was silent for a moment. She knew her husband couldn't help her. He'll just add to his wound. Even if he did not understand the story, he would not understand his suffering. The trauma will only get worse.

Yaslan was not desperate to accompany his wife. "Darling, today I'm cooking your favorite meal!"

The dining table has been decorated with candles and flowers by Yaslan. He cooked his wife's favorite special menu. "Let's eat a lot huh, Yang!"

"What a pity your husband. Always preparing good food, taking care of the house for you, he always spoils you. But the baby in your womb can never feel it. Your husband wants to have children, but how do you know the love of mother? How do you know if you've ever killed your own child?"

"Hiks hiks sorry .. forgive me. huhuhu ...."

His wife has been like that for a week. Crying, apologizing, dumbass, Yaslan was getting tired. He has done everything, but Anika has not improved. Even the trauma was worse than before they were married.

Yaslan was beginning to despair.

"You've been lying because you're selfish. You're just keeping your reputation, you're actually a dirty, broken chick. Your real family is damned! On the surface you look like a good boy when you are sinful!"

"Honey, yuk eaten dong..."

"SILENCE!! Stop talking!!"

"Yes Yang, sorry."

"Why do you think I should?!"

Yaslan was shocked to see his wife as if talking to the figure above him, not to himself.

"That's all I can do! Hikshiks ... How should I?!"

"You're just like your mother. You run away from reality and find safety. Your real self is a cruel man, who can kill his own flesh and blood!"

"It is not so ... hikshiks .. when it was 10, years ago, but why..."

"Yes? Who are you talking to?"

Her normal husband would definitely not be able to comprehend her whose soul was already damaged.

"Let's go to bed, you need to rest."

That night, Anika could not sleep. Her husband had fallen asleep must be tired of having to work and learn, not having to take care of the house and her mentally ill self.

Anika stands towards the closet and picks up Kairi's hoddie. He took her to the terrace and sat on the floor hugging her tightly.

"Kairi .. hikhikshiks ..."

All this time there was no one he could rely on, no place to live for him, no one to understand him, until he met Kairi.

"Navigator .... I miss you .. hikshiks ...."

But it was too late, and Anika had chosen Yaslan and ignored him. He could no longer repeat time.

"Kairi ... hikshikshiks .... If only I could be honest with my feelings ...."

Her face slumped on her knees still crying, when she heard someone's voice.

"Don't cry anymore, 'my wife'."

...ΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩ...

*Dissociation: The defense that the brain uses to overcome the trauma of sexual violence.

After this there will be a lot of Kairi, Yeay!