IT'S ME YOU HURT
Thankfully, it did not arrive on time

"If worry comes, leave it all to God! God knows you've been trying hard... Let God finish his part! Keep fighting! We just need to keep praying and surrender to God!"

"None of our weary labours is not counted by God. It will all pay off, at a price worth it. If the problem you are facing is so severe and you are unable to deal with it, close your eyes!leave everything to God!"

Mr. Ridwan spoke while continuing to work patching my motorcycle tires.

Really very meaningful advice! My heart trembled at Mr. Ridwan's words. Such words brighten my overcast heart!

Didn't feel my motorcycle tire was fixed, Mr. Ridwan then put my motorcycle tire back into place.

"How many sir?"

I want to pay for my motorcycle repair.

"Thirty thousand, ma'am."

Mr. Ridwan replied with a smile.

I gave him fifty grand with a smile.

"This sir. Thank you very much for everything sir. Your words and help mean so much to me."

"Sama-sama mbak, I only speak based on my life experience. I am so grateful that my life experience can be a blessing and a strength to others! Wait a minute, I'll get you the change."

"Oh, no need sir. That's for you, don't give me change." I am truly blessed by Mr. Ridwan.

After a moment of refusal to refuse from the Father, finally Mr. Ridwan also received my grant money that is not so much. Although my financial situation is also difficult at this time, but my parents always taught me to give, not because we already have abundant wealth, but because we have a longing to share with others. I am grateful to be blessed and given the opportunity to give.

I said goodbye, and hurried away with the order that people were waiting for. I was so afraid and anxious, on the way I prayed that God would soften the heart of the Father that I would deliver his goods.

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Strange, the father of the recipient of this item had called me many times because I was too late to deliver the order. The text message via WA that I sent was also not replyed, even though it had been read.

When I reached the delivery point, I sent him a message that I had reached his place. My phone then rang, I saw this phone from the number of the recipient.

[Hello, have you arrived?]

Strange sounds, so very friendly huh?! Very different from the one Mr was calling by shouting and getting angry at me. But this is still the voice of the Father, I remember clearly the voice. Does this man have two personalities? Or is this a trapping? Or, this is the new mode of kidnapping!??? Iiihhh, I'm afraid of being made...

But who would want to trap and kidnap an ugly, fat woman like me.

[I-iya Sir I've been at the 'Belangi' coffee house'. As per inter point. Where are you sitting in?]

[Oh, you're wearing that black jacket huh? I'm here.]

I walked towards her casually but my heart was very scared and nervous. What's gonna happen to me? I look around, fortunately the state of this coffee house is not quiet, if something happens to me I can scream and ask for help from others. When I got closer, I turned off my phone call.

"With Mr Roky? I open the conversation.

"Yes. How's your bike, it's fixed?" Huh uh?! Oh my God, what is this? Why is this man being friendly to me? He also asked me about the condition of my bike in a soft voice. It's strange! It scares me more.

"Alhamdulillah has been fixed sir. I'm so sorry it's too late to deliver the father's goods." I then handed the order to the Father. I intend to leave this place immediately after receiving the freight.

"Come, sit down! What do you want to eat?" Huh uh??? Not only did his attitude change by a hundred and eighty degrees, but he also asked what I was eating? Why would you offer me food?

"thank you. No, sir, I'm going home soon."

"Sit down first, I want to count my money in front of you! Let's not have my money for less."

"Sorry sir, I'm not reducing it. I never even opened that thing, sir!" I had to sit down again and agree to his invitation, of course I did not want to be accused of stealing the money. But then he laughed at me.

"Hahaha, I was just kidding. No need to be afraid like that! I know you're a good man."

I then saw this Father spending money in a paper bag wrapped in a black plastic bag. The money spent was forty million. I knew right away that it was forty million because the money was one hundred thousand, and there were four bendels, each one ten million. I could figure it out just by looking at it because I used to work at a finance company, and I replaced my friend several times as a cashier. The money looks new and has never been used like it was just pulled in the bank, it deserves that the item I brought was not too thick aka thin.

He should have been angry that his money had not arrived. I was surprised to see the forty million, so much money that I brought from earlier. Yes, for people like us forty million is a lot of money.

The father then counted the money that was still in the bendel with the four fingers of his right hand in the style of a bank teller, very quickly. Looks like this father has worked in the finance department or become a cashier.

"Pass, nothing less."

The father then took four hundred thousand pieces of money and gave them to me.

"It's for you!" Huh uh?!! What else is this? Not wrong? I was given four hundred thousand rupiah.

"What does this mean, sir?"

"This is for you, the cost between my goods as well as the cost of repairing your motorbike."

"Thank you sir. But no need, I only accept money according to the fees listed on the application only Sir. The cost of fixing my bike is not that much." I tried to subtly reject the money, so as not to offend Mr. Roky. Of course I didn't receive that much money, obviously it's very suspicious. If only that was overstated it was forty thousand, it is still natural that I accept it, but this is four hundred thousand.

"Just relax, this is halal money. I also gave it in sincerity, no ulterior motive. You don't have to be afraid!" It seems like this Mr. Roky understands the restlessness of my heart. It is impossible for me to accept money that is not clear where it comes from and for what reason.

"I want to thank you. Before that I apologized because I was angry and said rude.

"I also apologize sir for being late to deliver the goods ordered by Mr. Should have been when my tires deflated I immediately contacted Father. I also just found out that the money I brought was that much, it was only natural that Bapaka was angry with me."

"Actually the money, was waiting for my friend. I plan to invest in stocks through a trading application, and the money you bring will be deposited in the bank immediately. If only you had come on time, I would have given up the money to be deposited in the bank."