IT'S ME YOU HURT
Suicide

"I'm sorry ma'am, we tried our best, but God willed something else. We can't save Ziva's sister." Speak to the doctor with great sympathy for the family.

Like a bolt of lightning in broad daylight, Reyna immediately fell to the floor. His brain felt empty, he could no longer think of anything. His world is completely collapsing. The light that had always illuminated his world was gone leaving behind a dense darkness. Her cute and beautiful son is dead!

"I mean doctor, my son ..." Angga was unable to continue his own words. He was also devastated by the sudden departure of his son.

"Yes, the time of his death was 15:35." Speak to the doctor with a flat face.

The family crying broke out. All were saddened by the sudden departure of the beautiful and adorable little girl.

The doctor explained briefly the process of surgery is so complicated, because in addition to a hard impact on the head of Ziva that causes a precursor between the brain and the skull, which is very difficult, ziva's waist seemed to hit something when he fell, causing his kidneys to malfunction. Plus when taken to the hospital, Ziva's condition was very severe.

"No! My son is alive! Ziva can't leave me!" Reyna suddenly spoke out loudly. Make all eyes on him. The doctor withdrew to the family and went back inside.

"Reyna, we're all here so saddened by Ziva's sudden departure! Let your heart accept the Creator's will." Said Angga while holding Reyna's two shoulders, still with tears flowing from her net.

"No mas, Ziva can't leave me. Ziva is all I have! God can't possibly do that to me!" Reyna said with sobs.

"Ikhlas Reyna! We have to let Ziva go. God knows best for our children." Angga tried to calm Reyna down.

"What's my fault with you, Mom? Huh uh?! Why are you so brave to me?! I tried to forbid you to bring Ziva, right? Why are you so hard on me?! It's not enough that you hurt me, Mas?!" Reyna said in a hoarse and slow voice, as if she no longer had the strength to speak. Reyna looked at Angga with a shattered and desperate look. Had Reyna been able to turn back the clock, Reyna would have been so tough and decisive that Angga could not have brought Ziva and the accident would not have happened.

Angga was so slapped with Reyna's words. Although at this time his feelings had changed in the woman who had once filled his heart, but Angga knew he had incised such a deep wound for the woman who had given him this princess. Angga was so devastated and saddened by the passing of the little girl he had always been proud of.

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While the family was waiting in the recovery room and about to bring Ziva's body home, a doctor came looking for Ziva's parents.

"Can I meet Ziva's parents?" Asked a beautiful woman in a green doctor suit, to the waiting family.

Reyna looked around looking for Angga, no Angga with them. Only Reyna and her family have arrived at the hospital, Anbva's family and Angga's wife there. 'Ah, Mas Angga doesn't exist. Maybe Angga's mas is taking care of Reyna's inner administration.

"Yes, I'm Ziva's mother. What's the matter doc?" Reyna replied weakly and helplessly.

"Sorry to come with me for a minute, ma'am? something to give you." The doctor asked Reyna kindly.

Reyna followed Vita to a room. Upon arriving in the room, Vita's doctor takes something on the table and hands it to Reyna.

"This.ah, my son... " Reyna received Ziva's shirt which Vita handed to Reyna. Reyna's tears broke again, Reyna hugged and kissed the clothes that Ziva had worn earlier.

"I... I put this shirt on to her this morning. My son was healthy and alive this morning!" Reyna cries while kissing the shirt Ziva wore before the accident. On his collar was a blood stain, and on the front was like a scar of stitches extending vertically from top to bottom.

"When the medical action, we cut off Ziva's sister's clothes to make it easier to handle. But I've re-stitched her clothes ma'am." Said Vuta doctor politely, it seems that doctor Vita understood the meaning of the frown on Reyna's forehead while staring at Ziva's clothes.

"Thank you so much doc." Reyna said as she cried and hugged Ziva's clothes.

"I'm sorry... We have tried our best. But when he was taken to the hospital, Ziva's sister was already very bad." It seems Doctor Vita is so empathetic to Ziva's death. Reyna could only smile while crying, and continued to hug her dead child's clothes.

*****

Three days have passed since Ziva's death.

Mom and Gina would always accompany Reyna, wherever Reyna was. They won't let Reyna be alone. Mom and Gina sleep with Reyna.

When it had just finished the three-night ceremony of Ziva's death, the guests had already returned home. Dad was tidying up the chairs, while mom, Gina and Reva were rolling the carpet, sweeping and tidying the house. Reyna is alone sitting pensively on the bed staring at Ziva's pony doll Reva bought a few months ago.

Reyna was like an empty shell, her body alive but her heart seemed to die along with the death of the jeweled little princess of her heart. Since Ziva's death, Reyna has eaten nothing. For three days, I persuaded Reyna to eat, and she even tried to feed Reyna to eat. But the result is nil, Reyna does not want to touch the food in the slightest.

Although Reyna was reluctant to eat, but actually at first Reyna had tried to eat even a little, but her body rejected all the food that entered her body. Maybe due to the influence of heavy stress that makes Reyna difficult to digest food in his body.

Only water could enter her body, and a little milk was given to Reyna. That should only be a little, because if Reyna drinks most milk, she will also feel nauseous and vomit all the contents of her stomach.

Reyna was distressed and devastated by the death of her son. Not a day passed by Reyna without crying. Her eyes were swollen and almost irritated by crying too much. In her heart and mind is only her beautiful and cute little daughter Ziva who is currently gone to face the creator, leaving Ziva with a tormenting feeling of sadness. His soul was so shaken. Reyna really felt alone and left behind. Life seems unfair to him. Reyna initially lost her husband to the temptation of the actor, and now Reyna has to lose her son Ziva for good.

Without anyone noticing, Reyna goes to the warehouse that used to be Gina's room. There Reyna searched for something, and finally found a rope in the cardboard in the warehouse. Whether what possessed Reyna, Reyna also made a knot and began to launch the action to end her life that felt dark.

Reyna tied the rope up through the air vents in the shed, and inserted the knot she made into her neck.

Reyna is now standing on the chair, and will be completing the action soon. Reyna could no longer think clearly. Reyna closed her eyes and pushed the chair away, so her body hung in the air. 'Goodbye to the world that has given me so much disappointment!' inner Reyna.