IT'S ME YOU HURT
Relinquish

Anger, hatred and resentment engulfed Reyna's heart. Thinking of the blue mark on Ziva's arm, and the alleged violence from Raya against Ziva made Reyna's heart very sick! Which mother would be willing to hurt her child even to the point of losing his life. Reyna never even spoke rudely or hit Ziva.

His poor son, anyone who saw Ziva would have liked and loved him, unexpectedly Ziva had to die with his father and stepmother. Tightness in the chest! Reyna's heart is pumped tight, making Reyna's chest go up and down because it holds the anger in the heart! His head hurt thinking about it, it really hurt like it was smashed with a big wood. Reyna's chest was hot as if it was about to burn. Her stomach was full, like...

"Mhmmppphh..... Mmmpphh...." Reyna ran to the kitchen to throw up all the food she had just eaten.

"Ohhweekkkk!!! Uhhwweekkk! Uhhweekkk!" Reyna pulled out her stomach. He fell on the kitchen floor limp.

"Astagfrirullahaladzim! Reyna, what's going on, son? Your face is as pale as paper!" Mother gently rubbed her daughter's face with a feeling of worry. The father who also followed mother into the kitchen directly held both of Reyna's shoulders from behind.

"Let's go, help me take Reyna to her room!"

"I, yeah!"

"Astagfirullah son, what happened? Why is your face so pale?" Mother asked after they laid Reyna on the bed.

Reyna just cried sobbing without saying anything, like she was harboring a deep heartache.

"My head hurts...." Reyna said then in a weak voice while holding her head.

"What's going on, son, are you feeling all right?" It was my turn to ask.

"Ziva! L'm... I really hate the people who hurt my daughter!" Reyna said quietly but her voice shook with emphasis even with a faltering breath while holding back sobs, as if to destroy those responsible for her daughter's death. His muscles hardened, his head filled with anger and hatred, making him want to scream, rebel, even almost lose his sanity.

"Asatgfirullahaladhim... Istighfar! istighfar!" I'm trying to calm Reyna down.

"No ma'am. I will not forgive those who have hurt Ziva!" Reyna said with a trembling voice. His red eyes held back the flames of anger that were overpowering him. Reyna had forgotten her promise to her son's deceased! So great and fierce was the anger that Reyna felt until the feeling was able to hurt her body!

"Istighfar... Remember the baby in your womb, you have hurt your body and baby with your own feelings and thoughts!"

Degh!! Reyna was instantly silent, pervading her mother's words.. Reyna's heart trembled violently accepting the upheaval in her heart. On the one hand he did not accept the death of his son Ziva, but on the one hand his heart wants to give up all that has happened for the sake of his promise to his late son and his happiness with the baby in the womb and with his family.

"I'm sorry!" That's the only word that came out of Reyna's lips. Reyna seems to have begun to master herself. He then tried to sit on the bed while resting his head.

"Thank God you've calmed down, son. I'm so sad to see you like that." Mother cried silently as she rubbed Reyna's head gently.

His heart ached to see the daughter he loved so much depressed. If possible, let all the misfortune Reyna felt be transferred to her. Which undamaged mother saw her daughter's life fall apart like that. It was too much of a trial that her daughter had to go through. If you have to regret it, then your biggest regret is giving permission to Angga to take Ziva that day. Reyna has a bad feeling and does not allow Angga to take Ziva, but it is her mother who persuades Reyna to allow Angga to take Ziva.

"I'm sorry ma'am." Reyna once again apologized to Mom, sobbing.

"Mom should be apologizing to you, son. If that day I had listened to your words and not allowed Angga to take Ziva, then perhaps Ziva would still be alive today!" Mama said with a sob full of regret.

"No ma'am. Don't blame yourself. Mom also did it because she thought about Ziva's feelings. I never blame you." Reyna said sincerely while holding her hand trying to calm her.

"I apologize to my father and mother for being a burden to you, I even hurt you with my current circumstances."

"It's okay, son. We never felt your presence and Ziva as a burden. We would be very happy if you would share your hardship with us. You're a mother, son, you must understand what mom and dad feel!" Mother's voice turned to hold Reyna's hand tightly.

"Thank you, and I'm sorry... And I have promised to deliver all that has passed for the sake of the house of my son Ziva and the baby in my womb. L'm... I want to be calm and live happily with the people who love me." Once again Reyna apologized and revealed what she felt, tears kept streaming down Reyna's cheeks.

"Yes son. All will pass by changing with the happiness that awaits you with the child in your womb." I'm trying to calm Reyna down.

"Reyna... If you report your ex-husband Angga and his wife to the police over Ziva's death, reminding you of the bitter memories you want to forget that hurt you so much, then you better not go on with it! Let them be free from the laws of the world, provided that the daughter of the father can live a quiet life unshadowed by the bitter memories of the past. Let them not be in prison, as long as you are free from the prison of sorrow that hurt you! Now the most important thing is your happiness, forget the past!" Father expressed his anger and desire to report Angga and his wife, as long as he no longer saw the daughter he loved so deeply imprisoned in the bitterness of the past.

The events in the warehouse yesterday deeply shook his soul. How not, the father saw directly his eldest daughter almost died from giving up on life, in front of his own eyes. Luckily Reyna's life was helped. I don't know what will happen if I get late even if it's a few seconds.

"If Angga and his wife were indeed involved with Ziva's death, then the father was very confident that even though they could be free from the laws of man but they would never be able to escape the laws of God, he said, the judge is fair!" Dad sighed deeply and threw it away violently.

"One thing you ask son, never give up! Mom and Dad love you so much!" As powerful as the father tries to stay strong and does not want to shed tears, but what is the power of the father is only a parent who loves his child very much. Although it feels so hard to let go of what has happened to her beloved granddaughter, but for now Reyna's life and happiness are top priorities.