IT'S ME YOU HURT
Reporting Angga and Raya

"Ziva, mama promised from now on mama will fill the days of mama's life with happiness! Mama will always remember the promise of mama with Ziva, to live well even though Ziva is no longer with mama in this world!" Reyna stroked Ziva's navel as if she was stroking his son's head with affection.

Ziva walked along with his net of the mound of earth before him. 'Inside lies my son's body, my dear son! Rest in peace, son. Mama here will be fine!' Tears fell on Reyna's cheeks, but a smile rose from her lips.

Reyna no longer wants to dissolve in grief. For the sake of her promise to her late son, and also for the health of the baby in the womb, Reyna must fight herself to be a happy person! Since learning that she is pregnant, Reyna tries to look at everything from a positive perspective. If Reyna had seen the dark and sad side of her life before, Reyna could now see the other side of her life as bright and hopeful.

So strange a way of life that Reyna had to go through until now, even he had to lose his most valuable property in this world. If Reyna can write it down in a story, Reyna isn't even sure she can string words together to write down her life's journey. Even a thousand words would not be able to describe the weight of the loss he felt.

But there is no point in lamenting yourself and living in regret. Reyna must make peace with herself.

Yes, said one's greatest enemy is himself! It is so hard to conquer our own hearts. The only way is to be at peace with yourself. The way? Forgive me! Conch! Forgive those who hurt you and take care of everything that has happened and will happen! Reyna's heart felt light, as if all the burdens had disappeared.

"Dear Ziva, this is mama bringing beautiful flowers and Ziva's favorite Elsa doll. Hmm, soon Ziva will have a sister, surely Ziva in Heaven already knows right?!"

"What is the meaning of mama's dream when Ziva gives mama your favorite pony doll son? Ziva wants to give Ziva dolls to Ziva's sister?! Www..." Suddenly the baby in the womb moves. In her second pregnancy, only this time Reyna felt the movement of the fetus in her stomach. Reyna held her stomach while smiling happily.

"Look on, grandpa in mom's belly move. I think Dedek would like to greet brother Ziva!"

"So my mom went to the health center and checked the health of my mother's stomach. The doctor said, Dedek in the stomach of a healthy mother. May his dede always be healthy until the body is safe."

"Thank you Ziva was ever present to brighten your life and give you happiness! Mama will never forget Ziva, Ziva will always live in your heart!"

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Arriving home, Ziva was immediately greeted by Father and Mother at the dinner table. Tumben father and mother together, because usually one will definitely keep the stall.

"The shop hasn't opened yet, ma'am?" Reyna asked as she took off the sling bag she was using. From Ziva's death until yesterday their shop was closed.

"Today the shop is open. It was again in Gina's care. Let's eat first, son. Remember your health and the baby in your womb!" Mom said as she pulled the chair next to her for Reyna to sit down.

"Wash your hands and eat! Done eating and mom wants to talk to you about something!" Saying Father.

Reyna looked at her parents in front of her. 'What exactly do they want to talk to me about? What's the baby in my womb?' Reyna only dared to go to the kitchen to wash her hands, Reyna did not dare to ask her parents directly.

"So how's the baby in your womb, son? You should have invited mom to accompany you to check the contents in the puskesmas!" Mother asked with a smile because it was nice to see Reyna can eat normally without having to nausea and remove her stomach contents.

"Alhamdulillah the baby is healthy ma'am. Now my pregnancy is twenty weeks into the second trimester. The weight is normal, thank God everything is fine." Reyna stopped her mouthful and answered mother's question.

"I'm fine ma'am. This morning I saw my mother busy in the kitchen. I don't want to trouble mom. Anyway I'd like to go early in the morning to get an initial number, because after that I have to visit Ziva's grave."

After the meal, Reyna tidied up the food on the table and was about to stand up carrying the dirty dishes to the kitchen.

"Sit down, son. Mom and Dad want to talk about something." Reyna who stood up to go to the kitchen immediately sat back to hear Mother's words.

"You know Lisa's your Uncle's son?! Her husband is now a police officer. Yesterday at the tahlilan show Lisa and her husband came."

Reyna just silently listened to what dad said while occasionally nodding her head. Reyna did not notice the arrival of her cousin. From Ziva's death until last night, Reyna's world was dark. Reyna could see and think of nothing but her sadness. So Reyna didn't really remember and pay attention to anyone she met and everything that was going on around her until last night.

"We had a long conversation with Lisa and her husband. According to Lisa's husband we can report Angga and his wife for a case of negligence that led to death." Dad glanced at Reyna and spoke carefully.

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Reyna just silently looked at the father and mother alternately, took a deep breath and threw it away slowly.

"Father will report Angga and his wife for negligence resulting in Ziva's death!"

"Did you see at the time of Ziva's death an incongruity or something that we can report as evidence to the authorities about Angga arau Raya?"

Reyna was still silent, taking a deep breath and exhaling it violently. Reyna remembered the blue mark on Ziva's arm that looked like someone's pinch. Of course Reyna knew clearly the body of her daughter. Not a day later they parted ways, and before Angga picked up Ziva, Reyna bathed and dressed Ziva. Reyna still vividly remembered that time when she had not seen any marks on Ziva's body.

A moment of Reyna's chest went straight up and down, claustrophobic with emotions! His beloved son, not once did Reyna beat or yell at him. Because in addition to her great love for her children, Reyna also does not teach and educate her children with violence. Not once did Reyna hit or play with her son.

Ziva is also a sweet and obedient child. It is very unlikely that Ziva made mischief in the Angga house, until it should deserve rough treatment from someone. Reyna is very unwilling if her son is indeed getting bad treatment from Angga or Raya. Reyna's face momentarily turned flushed red restraining emotions!