IT'S ME YOU HURT
Secret Kingdom

I don't want to hate, but why is it so hard for these hearts to forgive all their deeds. Especially Raya, I really hate Raya. His presence in my household is like a poison that destroys every cell and kills my soul. Wrong mas Angga also who can not stand the temptation. But as Mas Angga said, he doesn't love me anymore either. That love was lost along with my weight that made me no longer attractive.

Yeah, come to think of it for a long time, Angga doesn't love me anymore. Maybe after Ziva was born or since my body became fat, then the Angga is no longer the attention as before. Mas Angga rarely came home from work on time and mas Angga also rarely touched me.

I was just too naive to realize there was something different about Angga's attitude towards me, and foolishly I always tried to understand all his attitudes towards me. Without the presence of Raya my household is not in a state of good.

Mas Angga clasped Raya's hand and entered my house. I just looked at everything in silence, without saying anything. Seeing the Angga and Raya mas was not as painful as before, rather my feelings were already in the stage of numbness. My heart was already full of holes and there was no longer an empty place for me to feel pain. It's not that I don't love Angga anymore, my heart still expects and loves him. Though I said many times in my heart not to love and remember it anymore, why am I so hard to forget?! Yes, I am a weak woman. Forgetting about it was not as easy as turning the palm of the hand. Everything takes process and everything takes time.

"Let's go in, Ray!" Take Mas Angga.

I saw Raya obediently following the Angga mas, although she seemed reluctant to enter. Gina came out of the dining room together with Ziva. Ziva ran straight to Angga. Ziva missed his father a lot. Mas Angga immediately hugged and kissed Ziva.

"Ah, papa's daughter is getting prettier!" Praise Mas Angga for his beloved daughter.

"Yes dong. Kan Ziva's mom and dad's son."

Ziva answered proudly. Very smart my son. Where did he learn to talk like that?!

I saw Raya holding the arm of Angga mas who was still and was hugging Ziva. It seems Raya does not like the togetherness they see from her visible face... Oh my God, you're jealous of my son?! This is a bad sign, why this woman is jealous of Ziva who is still a child, she is also the son of Mas Angga who deserves the affection of his father. I won't let my son linger with someone like Raya.

"Mas, Ziva should be escorted home for a while in the afternoon! I don't want Ziva to spend the night with someone who doesn't like him!" I spoke while glancing dislike towards Raya

"What do you mean Reyna?!! Didn't you agree to spend two days with Ziva and me? Only two days too! I didn't ask for two weeks or two years. What do you mean by someone who doesn't like it? I'm Ziva's real father!!" Mas Angga replied a little annoyed.

"It's not you I mean, but the person next to you!" Reply relax.

"M-I mean you're me? Who doesn't like Ziva. I really like Ziva. Ziva's a sweet and adorable boy." Raya like being caught doing something wrong, her answer was also stammered while laughing forcefully and glancing towards the Angga mas.

"Dear Ziva, get into the room first as well!" I told Ziva to go into the room, as Angga lowered Ziva from his arms.

"Yes, ma." It was fortunate that Ziva obeyed without refuting or asking much.

"Gin, please take Ziva to the room!" I said to Gina.

"What do you mean Reyna?!" Mas Angga looks furious with my actions.

"I just don't want Ziva to be with your young wife, because he doesn't seem to like our son! I'm afraid something happened to Ziva, mas!" I deliberately put emphasis on the words of our son, so that Raya realized that Ziva is also his son Mas Angga.

"I'm not accusing you of Raya. I'm just afraid that anything will happen to my son. I'm afraid, I'm her real mother. As for you, only the stepmother is still unstable!" My words casually said it was labile. God forgive me for being so prejudiced. But I'm just trying to be careful. I've known Raya long enough as Fani's friend, even to take care of herself she can't. Moreover, he showed me the feeling of not liking Ziva.

"You call me labile, huh? Soon I will be a mother too. Just tell me you're just jealous of me, aren't you?!" Speak Raya with her lights.

God, this kid is really shameless. He had dared to come to my house, and inappropriately he spoke while shouting. He thought what market this house was, screaming like selling vegetables.

"You see, your young wife. I saw her face turn sullen and dislike when you held Ziva. He immediately embraced your hand as if jealous as you shared your attention with Ziva."

"Yes, mas. I saw it too!" Said Gina who suddenly came out of the room.

"What did you say? Lying Mas. How could I be like that! The brother and sister envious. Just tell me you're jealous and jealous of me, right?"

"What did you say? We are envious fellow brothers?! Heh elementary school boy, snatch guy's husband! Not shameless! You don't feel guilty coming to our house?!" Gina began to emotionally respond to Raya.

"It's Gin, be patient! Don't get emotional because of that woman!" I tried to calm Gina who began to be provoked by her emotions with Raya. Fortunately, my mother was in the stall, probably serving buyers, while my father still did not come home from the market.

"Pacify your sister Reyna! He better not interfere in the affairs of adults!"

What did Mas Angga say, what did he think my sister was? Gina was even older than his wife Kingdom. Why did he tell me to rebuke my sister, while his screaming wife ignored him.

"Did you say mas? Don't you interfere in adult affairs?! Helloo... I'm even older than your wife! You Raya Permatasari did you go to Tunas Harapan High School?"

Gina did not accept the words of Angga, but her emotions seemed more controlled than before. It seems like Gina knows Raya and she knows something about this woman.

"Mmm, why? You know me?!" Ckck, this kid is fearless. He even challenged Gina.

"You really don't know me? I'm Regina your upperclassman! Look at my face well. Wasn't it when you were a freshman and I was in second grade, you said you admired me so much!?"

Both of my sisters are beautiful, their skin is also white and have a slim body. They are also smart children because they are active in learning. Not only that, Gina is also active in several student activities. There must be a lot of Gina's schoolmates who knew her. I also just found out that Raya is one school with Gina.

"I-I, no, know you!" Raya replied, Her face also looks pale.

"No need to pretend you are! How could you possibly forget me your upperclassman brother when MOS (Student Orientation Period) that you so admired?!" Gina proudly introduced herself.