IT'S ME YOU HURT
Rayhan is the Kingdom

I am so grateful to have a daughter like Ziva. All my tiredness will pay off with happiness just by looking at my son who is in deep sleep. Kuciumi all over his face. I stopped because Ziva groaned a little because he was disturbed by my actions.

'Ah son, you are the biggest reason that made Mama survive this life!' my voice was slow, so that Ziva would not be disturbed.

I saw the clock on the wall, it was ten, it had been an hour Mas Angga out of the house somewhere. I tried to call him a few times but not picked up, I also sent a message via WA but the message was only read and not replied to.

Unknowingly I started to fall asleep. Sleepy and tired. I usually go to bed at this hour because I wake up every day at 4 am.

At 12 pm past 5 minutes Mas Angga just came home, I woke up because of the sound of a car entering the yard. I know Mas Angga is coming. Who else would have come this late if not Mas Angga. Father, Mother-in-Law and Fani had already slept in their rooms.

Kreeks!

The sound of the door opening. I pretended to sleep and closed my eyes. Mas Angga patted my arms softly "Na...Reyna you're asleep? I want to talk to you."

I opened my eyes "Yes Mas?" I tried to get up and sit on the bed.

"I want to say something" Mas Angga replied quietly.

I saw her face was very tense, while continuing to comb her hair with her hands back.

"Yes, what are you talking about?" I answered gently and with a slight smile that I forced, as I still remembered the incident earlier.

"I wanted to apologize for slapping you earlier." Answer Angga while looking down. I saw regret on his face.

Yes, during dating and marrying Mas Angga never said rude to me, let alone rude. I know Mas Angga's a good man. That's what made me fall in love with her, other than her good looks.

"I'm sorry, too, for accusing you of cheating on me." My answer.

Mas Angg did not answer, He just exhaled a long breath violently.

For a moment we were silent while staring at each other.

"You're not wrong Reyna." Mas Angga said while looking at the place. Trying to avoid my eyes. He was afraid to look me in the eye.

"I was having an affair!"

Deeegh!

It feels like this heart really stopped beating hearing Mas Angga's confession.

I stood up and looked at my husband. I shook my head, not believing.

No. gabe. It's just a dream. There is no way the husband I love can betray me. I hope this isn't true, just a prank from my husband for me to improve myself, and manage my body like a girl before.

'Yes I'll do it, manage my body like a girl just now as long as all this isn't true!' my mind is trying to make a fight.

"And now the Kingdom is pregnant." Continue Mas Angga, looking down.

My heart is getting sore like it's getting ripped apart.

It hurts!

It was very painful to hear the confession from my husband. 'Oh my God, is this what it feels like to be betrayed?!' My inner. 'So the contact in WA mas Angga named 'Rayhan' is Raya?'

But Raya? I think I've heard that name. I asked Mas Angga.

"Raya? Who is mas?" My eyes are getting hot, as hot as my heart.

"I, yes Raya." answered Mas Angga with a brick.

"Ka, you know him. He is a schoolmate of Fani who often comes to this house." said Mas Angga with a slow and heart.

Degh's! It turns out that it is true that my assumption of Raya which is meant by Angga is a friend of Fani who often comes here.

I know Raya. He's Fani's schoolmate who comes to this house a lot. He and Fani often make a messy house, plastic packages used snacks that they eat are always just placed on the table of the television room after watching Korean Drama. In the corner of the room was provided a trash can. They will return to the room without cleaning up the trash they made.

Fani's friend is beautiful. Still young. His long hair, clean white skin and slim body make Raya liked by many men in school. 'Yeah, boys at school or anywhere. Not my husband! Why should my husband?' these tears cannot fall.

"Na..Reyna.." Mas Angga's voice made me realize from my daydream about Raya. I looked at the face of Mas Angga.

"True Mas you are having an affair with Raya's friend Fani!?" With tears falling on my cheeks, I stared at Mas Angga with a wailing look. I wish all this wasn't true.

"That's not true, is it?!"

"You're just testing me, right?"

"You want me skinny, hhmm?? Yes, I will diet to be slim like Raya" I said enthusiastically hopeful.

"I'm sorry Reyna." Mas Angga said, once again he apologized. That's all Mas Angga can say to answer my question.

"Why Mas? Why do you want me?!" I started talking and lost control.

"Why are you cheating? What's my cage!?" I fell on the floor and cried.

"Crush... Keep your voice Reyna. The whole house can wake up hearing your voice." Mas Angga said while crouching in front of me.

"I'm sorry Na, but I'm also a normal guy. I need a woman who can please me." He gave an excuse for his depraved deeds.

"Why mas? Why are you with me?" I said softly, sobbing, like saying to myself.

"Is it because I'm fat? I'm no longer attractive in your eyes?"

"But I gave birth to your son Mas! I took care of your family until I forgot to take care of my own body! Hiiiiks.." I said sobbing.

For a moment we both fell into a deep drown with our thoughts.

"So I met his parents." said Mas Angga.

"I'll marry Raya! polygamy is not forbidden by religion." said Mas Angga steadily.

"But the marriage must be with the permission of the first wife, Mas! I won't allow it!" Let Angga think I'm selfish.

"Am I sick so I can't serve you?"

"Can't I give you a descendant? Answer Mas!" I said with a high voice.

"I will marry her in full. You are still my first wife!"

"You and Ziva can stay in this house comfortably."

Has Mas Angga gone mad? She thought I would stay in this house as a maid, taking care of her family, while she was cool sleeping with her mistress?!

I came back crying so much.

I kept crying while falling down and facing the floor.

"Why Mas? Why?" I said in a weak voice.

"I'm sorry... I, just don't love you anymore." Mas Angga replied in a soft voice while bowing his head. Yes very slowly, but still can be heard clearly in my ears.

Degh's!

I stood up, gathering all my strength. I wiped my tears, and looked at him fixedly.

Never thought that the husband I loved and respected would not want me anymore! The love he once said to me was gone somewhere.

Three more years I survived living in this house like a maid, with all the insults from mother-in-law and sister-in-law all because of Mas Angga. I did everything sincerely because of my love and devotion to my husband.