IT'S ME YOU HURT
Letter from 2 years ago

Dava then took the file next to his seat which was the reason he returned home earlier. He felt bored and did not want to be late thinking about people who he thought were not important like Reyna.

When holding the map that contains the important file, it turns out there is another map that Dava also took from the desk of his study. Suddenly something fell down his feet. Dava picked up the item that had fallen down, and it was a white envelope. Dava wondered why there were white envelopes between the files on his desk.

'What's this envelope? Who put it on my desk?' No one dared to enter Dava's study but himself, his best friend Aldy, and his late wife.

"Bro, what'd you put an envelope on my desk?" Ask Dava to Aldy.

"Huh? The envelope? I didn't put anything on your desk. What envelope, bro?" Aldy was confused by Dava's question. Aldy pointed the rearview mirror at Dava to see what his best friend meant.

"No, it's nothing. Just concentrate on driving, look ahead. Don't get us in an accident!"

"Ah, this weirdo of yours! Don't you take it for granted." Aldy was a little upset with his best friend. Since then Dava spoke unclear, making him confused himself.

'Ah...who put this envelope?!' Heart wonders. If it wasn't Aldy, would his mother have put this envelope on his desk? There's no way his late wife put this envelope. No one dared to enter even just to clean the room, if there was no Aldy or Dava in it. So it's impossible if he or Aldy don't know it.

Dava then opens a white envelope that turns out to be a letter, from...

Her tears instantly dripped as she read the first sentence of the letter.

For my perfect husband, though,

Thank you for the great love from you.

I love you so much too.

I've always thanked God for meeting me with you.

Never a day did I feel happy to be the wife of a Dava Pratama.

I'm happy, very happy...

However, I realize

Nothing is eternal in this world...

My destiny with you and Dinda is only here....

I'm sorry I had to leave so soon.

Forgive me for this short time together,

I want to stay by your side and age with you.

But whatever I do, God determines.

We are only mortal men, God is the owner of the earth and its contents include us humans.

I'm sincere...

I have accepted my destiny.

Don't blame the circumstances, don't blame the creator for calling me so quickly, let alone blaming yourself!

Take care of Dinda, the fruit of our love!

Remember and love me in this year!

Remember, just one year after my departure, Mas!

After that, forget me!

Find a good woman who can be with you and be a good mother to Dinda, then love her and be happy!

I really want to see you and our son happy, from where I am....

Your wife, Sarah.

It turned out that the envelope was a letter from his late wife Sarah, written before he died. Sarah knew very well that her departure would leave Dava deeply shaken. And she did not want to see her husband too long to dissolve in her silent sadness. He hopes Dava can forget himself, and get married again and live happily with Dinda and her new wife.

It's been two years since the death of the wife he loved so much for all eternity, somehow Dava just found the letter now. The letter was tucked inside a map on Dava's desk.

Dava was claustrophobic, and his heart still ached when he remembered his wife struggling alone with a deadly disease, and eventually died when he was not with her in the hospital. It felt like a huge rock was squeezing in, making it hard to breathe. Tears flowed down his face which looked still very handsome. Dava no longer cares what others say if anyone sees a Dava Pratama crying. The letter he held was even wet with his tears.

"Bro, what are you doing?" Aldy saw Dava sitting on the back bench through the rearview mirror.

"Davas... You're okay, right?!" Aldy immediately pulled over the vehicle he was driving when there was no answer to his question, only a heartbreaking cry that Aldy heard from his best friend.

"Hey, hey...Dava! Oh my God, what am I supposed to do?" Aldy squeezes his hair, not knowing what to do to calm Dava down.

Aldy then contacted his sister Rendi for help. Rendi is a psychiatrist or specialist who specializes in mental and behavioral health or psychiatry. Dr. Rendi then led Aldy to provide first aid by calming Dava, then took Dava to the hospital where doctors practice Rendi to get further medical treatment.

Since Sarah died, Dava has been a patient with Dr. Rendi. Dava was diagnosed with stress disorder or post-traumatic anxiety disorder due to remembering a traumatic event due to the loss of his wife, in medical language called PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder).

in addition, Dava also has a panic disorder that makes him feel pain in the left chest, irregular heartbeat, hunting breath, dizziness, and abdominal pain.

This has been the third time Dava suffered shock to shortness of breath due to recalling the very painful event for him, the loss of a wife he loved so much. Dava's disease first appeared the day after Sarah's death.

Both illnesses were reported a year ago. At that time Dava had a fight with Dinda because Dava did not attend her daughter's school graduation because there was a job that Dava could not leave. Dinda is furious at her father and then blames Dava for the death of her mother Sarah. It makes Dava mentally depressed and trigger the disease recurrent.

After an argument over her son, Dava goes to Sarah's grave to pour out the pain and pressure she feels in this world. Dava goes to Sarah's grave alone not to be escorted or accompanied by a driver because Aldy is reviewing the location for the opening of a new branch in another city. Fortunately, there was a woman who passed by and helped Dava, he gave first aid and drove Dava to the hospital to get further medical treatment by doctors.

Whether the woman was helping Dava at the time, Rendi's doctor had tried to ask for a phone number from the woman but was not given. The woman said that she helped Dava sincerely without expecting anything in return.

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