IT'S ME YOU HURT
Meet Ziva

There is nothing more painful than losing a child! If a child is called a 'yatim' child when it loses a Father, the child 'queen' when it loses a Mother, the child 'orphan' if it loses a father and mother, is called a 'widow' when a wife loses a husband, it is called 'young' if a husband loses a wife. But there is no term for a parent who has lost a child! There is no word in the world that can describe what it is like to lose a child! Especially for a mother who has given birth and raised her child lovingly.

If parting with Angga makes Reyna very hurt and lost. And so this moment of loss of Ziva makes Reyna lose her way, lose her grip and life expectancy. Reyna no longer had the strength to breathe.

I don't know what got into it, so Reyna desperately ended her life by hanging herself. Thought's dead-end. The loss of Ziva leaves Reyna living a life of excruciating regret, so death is the only way Reyna chooses to end her suffering without thinking about the great sin that awaits if she dies with her own hands.

Reyna has been standing on the chair, and will soon complete the act. Reyna could no longer think clearly. Reyna closed her eyes and pushed the chair with her feet, so that her body hung in the air.

"Astagfirullahalaziimm!!!"

Dad just walked into the barn to store the carpet. But he was presented with a vision that made his heart almost stop beating. Dad saw Reyna pushing the chair with her feet and hanging in the air with her neck tied. Dad immediately ran to Reyna, and hugged Reyna's legs so that Reyna's body no longer hung in the air.

"Mother! Gina's! Reva! Please Reyna!" Dad screamed loudly, like a madman until the veins around his neck came out. Which old man was not crazy, seeing firsthand such an incident. Dad was so shocked and saddened by Reyna's decision. A few seconds later Mother, Gina and Reva had already arrived at the warehouse.

"Astagfirullahalaziimu..." Mother, Gina and Reva simultaneously said Istigfar. Who would not be surprised to see the scene before them.

"Sir Reyna, why should you go this way?!" Gina cries for Reyna who killed herself.

"No Gina. Your brother is not dead! Let's all help dad. Whooo! I just saw Reyna pushing the chair with her feet. It's possible that Reyna just fainted and hasn't died yet." Said the father enthusiastically but full of worry, the father with all his might to hold back from crying.

They cut the rope and untied Reyna's neck and carried Reyna to her room and laid Reyna on the bed.

Still clearly visible remains of sobs from Father and Mother. They were so overwhelmed by what happened to them. How not, they had just grieved the loss of their only granddaughter, and at this moment they had almost lost their eldest daughter.

"She, Reva... Quickly get Sister Ela! I hope he's not in a picket right now." Tell the father to his two daughters.

"Well yeah." Say Gina and Reva simultaneously. They then went out and called Sister Ela whose house was only four different houses with their house.

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Meanwhile, in a state of fainting, Reyna dreams of being a walk in the flower garden. The garden is very large and there are many beautiful flowers. Reyna smiled as she closed her eyes, inhaling the fragrance of the fragrant flowers and indulging her sense of smell and calming it. Suddenly Reyna heard a little boy calling.

"Mama... Mama..." Reyna opened her eyes when she heard someone calling her mom.

"Diva..." Said Reyna with a smile full of affection to the child just this puppet.

"My mom is the same Ziva!" Reyna kissed the face of the princess she loved so much. Ziva did not reply and only smiled and walked straight ahead, heading towards the shining stairs and soaring into the sky.

"Diva..." Reyna runs over to intercept Ziva by holding his daughter's hand.

"Ziva, where are you going, baby? Why did you leave your mom?" Reyna asked gently and affectionately.

"Ma, Mama promised Ziva." Ziva said sulked but with his cute and adorable style.

"Promise? What promise, dear?" Reyna said confused, it seems Reyna had promised something but he had not been able to keep it. Maybe Reyna promised to buy toys, dolls, or maybe a walk to the mall. Reyna had completely forgotten her promise to her son.

"Mom promised Ziva would be fine if Ziva didn't exist. Mama forgot?"

Suddenly a flash of events before Ziva died until the moment Ziva died flashed in front of Reyna. Starting from the togetherness of Reyna and Ziva, then when Reyna argued with Angga for changing his mind and not allowing Angga to bring Ziva, then when Reyna with Ziva in the room, and then when she was with Ziva, they make a promise with the little finger and a stamp with the thumb.

Ziva died in the hospital, making Reyna's chest very tight and barely able to breathe. Reyna realized that the favorite child in front of her had died.

Ziva walked up the stairs and left Reyna with his own thoughts.

"Ziva, wait for mama son! Mama's with Ziva, right?!" Reyna ran towards Ziva who was already on the first rung of the stairs.

Ziva just shook his head without saying anything. Ziva then gives his beloved doll to Reyna, Ziva's favorite little pony doll that was brought to Angga's house before Ziva died. Out of nowhere the doll was suddenly in Ziva's hands and handed over to Reyna. 'Wasn't this doll in Ziva's toy basket that Bi Nur gave me after Ziva's funeral. Why did Ziva hand this doll to me?' Inner Reyna.

Ziva just smiled and nodded at Reyna. A sweet smile filled with peace that makes the heart feel calm. Ziva then handed something back to Reyna. Reyna receives Ziva's gift, and it turns out that it was Ziva's shirt before Ziva died. Reyna suddenly remembers doctor Vita, the beautiful doctor who gave Ziva the clothes that Vita had sewed shortly after Ziva died. 'Why did Ziva give you this shirt?' inner Reyna.

"Ma... Reyna!" Reyna then opened her eyes, slowly Reyna began to realize from her stupor, her head hurt. 'Where is this? What the hell's going on?' Reyna asked in her heart. Reyna saw the faces of the two parents who loved her so much, they looked sad and worried about the state of their firstborn. Father was still crying while tightly grasping the hand of his eldest daughter lovingly and kissing Reyna's hand.

Reyna had only twice seen her father cry, first at the death of her son Ziva and second at this time.

'What has happened that has made father and mother very sad?!'

"You're conscious, son? Alhamdulillahot... Thank goodness!" Mother cried while hugging Reyna who was still lying on the bed, but this time with tears of gratitude because her son was still given the opportunity by the Creator to be in this world.