Marrying the Killer of my Girlfriend
SUPPORTING ACTOR

POV: Helena

I led Josh Rainer to a room on the third floor that we often used to spend time together.

Long ago.

We haven't spent years together in our favorite room.

Without a fight, Josh followed behind me.

We arrived at the room with a beautiful door on the 3rd floor. With a high ceiling and soundproofing, this is a fitting room to have a four-eye talk with my ex-lover.

This is a versatile room that oval shape resembles a stage show. This room has a mini stage, complete with sound system, lighting and audience seats capacity of 20-30 people in it.

We have always called it a creative room. It was in this place that I often practiced my musical acting and singing skills.

And so is Josh. This is where he practiced playing a musical instrument. On the mini stage itself, there is his mother's classical piano and various violins hanging on the left side of the studio.

In the past, we used to be in the bar. When Josh plays an instrument, I sometimes harmonize it with my vocals. Sometimes if I'm memorizing my Broadway scenario, Josh also helps me by giving accompaniment music at every rehearsal.

We're a perfect fit, aren't we?

Unfortunately, that love wasn't there for me.

I took a breath while opening the door of this unlocked creative room.

Josh turned on the light with an automatic remote on his watch.

I rushed towards the mini stage up there with half a run.

Everything is still the same.

Same stage, same person.

It's just a feeling that's so different.

"Selena has a high curiosity and easy insecure. Please don't mind the story as long as you're in the room, yeah" Josh Rainer opened the conversation while following me from back to the mini stage.

I smiled at the dikulum.

Josh was very attentive and concerned about Selena's feelings.

Josh finally really felt the love he had never felt.

"What if it's her story with you that's gonna make me insecure?" I said turn to him.

We are now on a mini stage, our favorite place to spend this long.

In front of me, Josh Rainer's jaw seemed to harden before returning to his own defense.

“You and I have been done since last year, Helena. You left me alone at that time.” Josh opened his words.

I'm already under the floodlights on this stage.

"Josh Rainer, you owe me an explanation" I said.

Josh doesn't seem to like this topic very much. His forehead looked cringing.

"I want us to review it from each version of what really happened between the counts. I don't want anyone to misunderstand here" I said straightforwardly.

Josh Rainer has now also been standing under the floodlights, making it and I like being theater actors in this mini-show room.

I took a deep breath before taking out everything I had been holding onto her all this time.

“You know why I left you? Because I want you to rethink that marriage is not limited to marrying your best friend since your childhood" I started.

Josh Rainer seemed to be listening closely.

"I wish you could feel the love I feel for you too. I want a year without me to make you sure that you can finally fall in love with me, too" I wrote.

Josh Rainer's eyes glared as if trying to rethink.

"What do you mean?" josh asked confusedly.

It's really strange. My ex-boyfriend and I are talking about what happened to our relationship that ran aground even though he is now engaged.

"But you actually left and have been like a stranger to me ever since, Josh. I'm so sad" I'm obviously very serious.

Josh seemed choked and confused to respond to me.

"You rejected my proposal, you didn't want to be my wife then when that's what our two fathers expected. You said you wanted to focus on your career, remember?" Josh tried to re-refresh our problem last year.

"My only mistake here is that I forgot that you're so insensitive to other people's feelings. If I had told you what I really wanted, maybe you wouldn't have been so cold to me and none of this would have happened?" I said expectantly.

Josh seemed to want to interrupt but I interrupted him again.

"Josh Rainer, I want to marry you if you also feel the love I feel for you. Not because of the insistence of others, I know this is important to you but do you not think about how I feel? Have a husband who has never loved me in his entire life?"

Nadaku has gone up. If Selena had peeked out from behind the entrance, she would have heard all of this.

"Helena. I told you back then I wanted to try! You know how my weird life has taken away all my love. I need time! And you walked away from me for not waiting for me?" josh said with a high tone.

I've been crying so much.

"What if until the end of your life you never loved you? Josh. I just don't want our parents' wishes to backfire on our future. I don't want to live a lifetime with people who pretend to love me" I said sobbing.

"I don't really want to talk about this anymore. Not only are you sick, I am too! Until my father dies, I can't go one time to his will!" emotion Josh.

We were still staring at this mini stage. We also release emotions that we cannot stand for events without explanation that has already happened.

"I think everything is clear. I just want you to love me as much as I love you. And you just want the wedding to happen so that your father will finally be proud of you just once in your life" I said sharply.

"Don't talk about me and my dad like that!" his yell.

Josh was already so emotionally burned when I said that. I was shocked to hear it myself.

"Yes and it's very clear you want to marry me just so your father is happy. We don't fit in here. We can't be together" I said, trying hard.

I'm trying to hold his arm.

"I just wanted to tell you. No woman on this earth wants to hear a reason for marriage other than pure love from her partner" I said firmly.

Josh was trying to suppress his anger at me.

"And I saw something different between you and Selena. That's called love." I said trying to sound strong.

Josh now seems softened after I mention his fiancee's name.

We were silent for a while until Josh started again.

He seemed calmer at the moment.

"Would you like to hear my version?" said Josh sharply.

I nodded quickly.

"I wanted to marry you because there was no woman as good as you in my life at the time" she said firmly.

I now look down with tears that I can't stand.

"I don't know what love is, but I want to make you happy. You are the one who understands me the best, the one who is best with me and is always there for me. I think that reason is enough and I hope that love will come by itself later" he explained.

I was still trying to digest her words with a pang of heart.

"I want to marry you, and have a child from you Helena. Then I'm going to try to be the best husband and father of our children, learn from how I didn't get the father figure I had hoped for all my life" Josh continued.

Oh naw.

Why is this confession so painful?

"Helena, the main reason is that I want to see you happy. I want to be happy with the person who has always been there for me when sad and happy. As for the wishes of my father and your father, it is only a complement to be able to truly bind us. Just as a reminder that it looks like the universe is supporting us together" said Josh Rainer, now in a soft tone.

I don't know why all of his confessions made me feel like I was electrocuted.

I fell down and sat down, still crying.

Knowing the fact he used to wish he could continue to be happy with me until we died.

While I, demand him to prove his love to me before we continue.

It was obviously hard for him to prove, with all the life problems he had gone through

I'm the one who's selfish here.

And I also destroyed my own dreams.

To be able to love her all my life.

I'm really sorry.

"When you turned me down, can you imagine how it felt? I have no one to support me anymore. I don't have anyone else I can fight for his happiness," she said.

"Then months later, my father died. Can you imagine what it's like to be a wasted person and have no one to care about me after you've all left?" smith again.

Josh Rainer sat in front of me. He now rubbed my head.

Making my crying break more and more.

"I will always remember all your kindness for me, Helena. I also thank you, if we don't part, I won't be able to feel the true love of Selena. This is the true destiny" he said, calming me down.

I gripped his shoulder hard. Crying out there.

Hugged it.

"I love you Josh Rainer."

Josh seemed to want to let go of my grip on him, but I didn't allow it.

"Saking my love for you, I really let you go of me."

Now Josh Rainer is trying to pull my face, not believing what he's hearing.

"Go away from me and reach for your love with Selena. I will always support you as long as you are happy" I said in pain, but I was relieved.

Unexpectedly, Josh hugged me back.

So tight.

"Thank you for staying nice to me. Thank you for everything Helena. You are still the best person in my life" he said softly.

If only I had time to return..

I don't think I'll use it either.

Because whenever I accepted her proposal back then, a year later she would meet Selena.

There is no guarantee that their love story will change.

Yes, this is my destiny.

And this is the fate of Josh and Selena.

Forever, Aldebaran and I are just supporting actors in their stories.

"Josh, there's one last thing you need to do," I said suddenly remembering an important thing.

Josh looked confused and let go of his embrace to me.

"Telfon my father, explain to him that the agreement between your father and my father to marry us will never happen" I said straightforwardly.