Marrying the Killer of my Girlfriend
FIRST LOVE OF BECCA

Pov: Becca's

Maybe it's like this to die.

It feels like you can no longer feel pain.

My heart is clearly broken into pieces.

My brains? Don't ask my brain to boil over all the madness that's going on.

Even my body that was now scarred and covered in blood felt nothing.

I was like floating.

I can no longer feel pain.

Maybe because the pain I've been receiving all this time has been so painful.

I'm already numb.

Or the..

Maybe I'm dead already.

I've moved to another world.

To the eternal world, because the mortal world has never given me hope.

But, uh,

This new world can't even make me feel better.

There is still a gaping hole at the bottom of my heart that I believe cannot be healed.

Wounds from feelings that are repeatedly rejected by hope.

Bemoan.

And empty.

....

Why is the world this long for me?

Why do I have to suffer this much?

Why would....

I have to see that shoulder I've been wanting to get away from?

And why should that shoulder embrace the woman I most do not want to be in this world?

Why!

Selene..

You are so outrageous!

Why do you always take away all that precious mine?

Why did you greedily take everything I wanted?

Why am I not the one being embraced by Aldebaran!

Why do you always mess up all my hopes, Selena!!

..

If Dio hadn't met Gery in the past, my brother would never have known you.

If only from the beginning I had firmly rejected your relationship like my parents did, Dio would not have been fooled by you.

If only I did not feel sorry for Dio who begged me to accept you, my brother and you would never be able to unite!

If only all that happened, Dio would not have to engage in this demonic plan!

My brother doesn't have to die!

My dear brother deserves a better life.

However, his fate was. because of me...

No. gabe...

It's all because of you!

If he hadn't picked you up back then, my brother would still be breathing and would have been a great person in the country later on.

And see what you did to my sister, Selena?

You without guilt even waltzed away with my love of death!

Even Dio hasn't even been gone a month and you've been holding another man?

Where's Selena's heart?

You destroyed my brother and now go take away the one I love without understanding my feelings?

I'm ruined! Crushed ruined ruined!

My brother died because of you!

And now the only man who makes me happy chooses to be with you!

You're the antagonist, Selena.

Friends never stab from behind like this!

And you know Selena?

I tried to forget Aldebaran, by trying to date Gery. That was once.

I thought I could forget about my prince and start with Gery.

But did you know Selena?

Did you know that Gery never gave up his eyes on you?

And do you know, every night we fight because Gery never misses a day without flattering you?

Gery has always praised you and is proud to know and grow up with Selena Ariadna.

Imagine Selena!

I tried to forget Aldebaran back then,

But you didn't even let me start my love story with Gery!

Our three-year love story is always filled with quarrels because of you!

You take my brother and keep Gery by your side!

Why do you have Selena?

And when Aldebaran returns,

Why did you also take this remaining mine? Whyyy???

I fell in love with Aldebaran first!

But why are you in his arms right now?

You're evil, Selena.

You destroyed me until there was nothing left of me.

I'm ruined! Crushed ruined ruined!

.......

My mind floated back when I first fell in love with Aldebaran.

At our first meeting.

At the time, I was 8 years old. Aldebaran was probably 10 or 11 years old.

If you think this is just monkey love, you're wrong.

Because this was the beginning of how my heart fell and melted to him.

At that time, there was a banquet to introduce the long-lost heir of the Gurnawijaya family.

And that heir is Aldebaran.

A child missing since birth and returning home after 10 years without news.

I came with my father and mother, who were invited as guests of Gurnawijaya's wife at the time, Celine. My mom and Celine are best friends in her social group.

Dio did not attend the party held at Gurnawijaya's house because it clashed with his school field trip activities.

At that time, I was afraid to find a friend to play with and was disappointed to not find a child my age.

Until finally, I reflexively pecked when I saw a beautiful-looking man passing in front of me.

Aldebaran Gurnavijaya's.

Which is greeted by many people and surrounded by guests who want to see the appearance of the heir to the conglomerate on this land of Jakarta.

My mouth gaped. Cold sweat poured out from behind the princess dress I wore. My body is still stiff.

When he saw the man who was greeting the friendly guests also threw his smile at me.

Makes me feel wrong.

Aldebaran, since he was young, has never been awkward in the middle of the limelight.

However, his looks and appearance did not necessarily make me fall in love with him.

But it was her kindness that plunged my feelings into the trough of love for her.

At that time, all guests had gathered and shrouded the luxurious living room of the Gurnawijaya family. Aldebaran's grandfather, who was still alive, officially introduced his grandson as the heir to the legitimate Gurnawijaya family.

At that time, a low clap of applause flooded the entire room, until no one realized that Grandpa Aldebaran was coughing because he had to announce this announcement in a loud voice.

With responsiveness, Aldebaran who stood beside his grandfather immediately took a drink of water in the corner of the room while running, then gave it to his grandfather quickly.

Which makes the guests look.

Because the work of giving a drink is unnatural to be done by a prince, but rather becomes the daily task of a household assistant.

Aldebaran even patted his grandfather's shoulder to make sure his grandfather's cough recovered and did not choke again.

All the guests in the room re-clapped to see the heir of Gurnawijaya who was very humble and full of initiative from a young age.

However, the extremely noisy party atmosphere did not seem suitable for an Aldebaran.

Without her noticing, I watched as she tried to escape from the living room and sneaked into the garden beside the house.

I then chased him!

I don't want to lose the chance to be his friend!

Aldebaran ran through the garden until we were at the corner of the flower garden growing tall bushes.

And I gasped when I saw Aldebaran coming into the bush.

What does he want to do in the bushes?

Is he playing hide-and-seek? I thought plain at the time.

Not much thought, I continued to pursue him.