Never Not
Ch. 139: Aishiteru

10 Chapters to the end

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..."When you love someone, you'll think you're right and everyone's wrong. Do not be quick to make a decision, let alone leave the person who loves us for the sake of the person who does not necessarily reciprocate our feelings."...

...~Key Ayano~...

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Shohei and Seina arrive at the condominium that was originally planned to be their residence. As Seina's feet stepped in, a familiar atmosphere could be felt because this was the second time she visited the apartment. Nothing has changed. The layout and furniture were still the same as when he set foot the first time. These include paintings of the man holding a sprig of Camelia flowers and a mysterious figure behind him that resembles a shadow.

"I don't have any wine. All my drink collection is just champagne" said Shohei from the mini bar table.

"No problem," replied Seina who then chose to sit quietly under the sofa.

Shohei walked towards her while carrying a bottle of champagne and two stemmed crystal glasses. The man sat in front of Seina while unscrewing the bottle. Just about to pour champagne, Seina even grabbed the bottle and took over pouring the alcoholic drink into the glass.

"I just found out that shohei-kun is a champagne lover."

"Not me, but ... Black Shadow's. This I prepared for him," Shohei replied without trying to cover up his identity as the controller of Black Shadow.

At that very moment, the bottle of champagne stopped flowing. Hearing the name of Black Shadow, a sudden feeling of guilt enveloped him. Given, there were many moments that led him to meet the masked man without Shohei's knowledge. They kiss every time they meet.

"Arigatou" said Shohei, sipping champagne in the glass Seina had just filled.

Shohei put down his empty glass and Seina immediately returned to pouring champagne. He also poured champagne in his glass.

"Arigatou," said the man as he slowly sipped back. His mind seemed sedentary, even branching out everywhere. Given Seto's untimely death, Ai's still-critical state, and the fate of his four hiding comrades. All of this made him unable to relax.

Same with Seina. Today really made him shocked, where he experienced captivity, almost faced with death, to find out the figure behind Black Shadow had been his own lover.

The silence hit the two until a few minutes passed just like that. Shohei glanced at Seina who was just bowed silently. Even the drinks in the glass were not finished.

"Gomen, this must be really boring for you" Shohei said in a heavy voice.

Seina shook her head. "Since my father's death, I've gotten used to this kind of silence."

"Gomen, I haven't been able to uncover your father's death."

"Don't keep saying sorry and thank you. That sentence is too good for me" said Seina Lirih.

"Wakatta (okay)," Shohei said briefly.

Seina again poured champagne in Shohei's empty glass. Shohei took another sip of the liquid while watching Seina who was staring around the room. The girl's eyes were again anchored to the only fresco in the apartment.

"This place .. was chosen by Black Shadow. Even the interior of this room was chosen by him. He also put up the painting to commemorate the beginning of our cooperation agreement. Located in Tokyo Skytree. I waited for him at the top of the tower every time our mission went well. We did a small celebration with a bottle of champagne" Shohei said in a weak voice.

This was too shocking for Seina. Knowing the fact that her lover is the figure behind Black Shadow all this time—man who made her crazy. In fact, while he was busy chasing the masked man, he did not realize there was another woman who so admired his lover.

"Shohei-kun," called Seina suddenly.

Shohei immediately looked at Seina who was lowered with both hands clenched at the sides of her thighs.

"Ano .. here ...." Seina fixed the sitting position as a diversion of nervousness that suddenly approached her. "I think .. I need to be honest with you. You deserve to know this" he said slowly while remaining down.

"If it's something bad to hear, you better keep it. Sometimes, ignorance is happiness" said the man.

Seina shook her head. "No. I can't. Keep all this, because ... will only make me feel guilty for you."

"Then ... did after you told me that, you were sure that everything would be fine? You want to get rid of the guilt in you, but you forget what you said could hurt me. Isn't that selfish?" shohei asked as she stared at the nanar towards Seina.

Seina raised her gaze, returning Shohei's gaze with teary eyes. "Shohei-kun, did you .. already know about it?"

Shohei averted his gaze, gulping down the remaining champagne in his glass. "If I can choose, I don't want to know anything."

"Council, gomennasai ...." The woman's voice was soft and almost gone. A speck of tears began to fall on his cheek and wet the glass table.

"Jamette!"

(Yamette: stop)

Seina again lowered her head until her face was invisible. "I betrayed you."

Shohei raised his head, not wanting to let his teary eyes be seen by Seina. "Jamette!"

The man raised his tone. "I told you, I don't want to hear it anymore! I have gone through a time of heartbreak. Please don't remind me!"

Both of them were silent, just looking at each other.

"About our next relationship, I'll leave you to decide" Seina said, wiping away tears.

"We'd better decide together" Shohei said, "do you still want to be with me or not?"

Seina tergugu's. "I have no rights" Seina refused.

"Your answer will be my answer as well" Shohei said slowly.

Seina moistened her lips, then said, "i'd be so selfish if I wanted you to be able to take me back." He paused his sentence just to catch his breath, then went back to saying, "I don't expect you to give me another chance either. You deserve better than me. This ... is my answer."

Shohei looked at Seina netra sayu who was filled with puddles of tears. The man nodded slowly, then said in a hoarse tone. "Wakatta. (All right)"

Just that one word. No other word added. However, it was quite meaningful that he accepted Seina's decision.

Seina then took her phone. Intentionally moving her thumb finger over the screen. "I'll have the driver pick me up. Thank you for accepting me to visit here. I will always support you. Lasshara ...."

Shohei nodded slowly. What else can he say? It's all over!

Silent moment. The woman actually left after saying a short farewell sentence. Sayonarah!

Meanwhile, Shohei was still sculpting with his mouth tightly gritted. However, his brain seemed to replay the memories between himself and Seina. For a moment, his gaze was fixed on the place Seina had just occupied. Then he turned to stare at the empty champagne bottle that the girl had poured for him. Not only that, he was also staring around his residence. Isn't this condo, he's preparing to live with Seina?

Realizing that her goal was Seina, she stood up and walked out of her apartment, leaving an empty champagne bottle lying on the floor with her hand. The man rushed out of the building to catch up with Seina. Unfortunately, the girl was no longer there. He ran out into the streets, with his head turned to the left and his eyes running all over.

Just as he straightened his gaze, his bead of eyes caught the figure of Seina standing pecking across the street.

"Yin-chan! Seina!" yelled the man. Unfortunately, the woman did not look at all. What was visible in her eyes at this moment was the girl unceasingly wiping away the tears.

"Dine!" call him once more while crossing, no matter the density of the vehicle that continues to pass and almost hit him.

When their distance was close, Seina was finally able to hear a familiar voice that kept calling out to her. He turned his head to the side, followed by widened eyes as he saw Shohei standing on a zebra cross.

"Shohei-kun." Seina immediately approached him. He gasped at the sweat on the man's face.

Shohei stared at the black net-goals seina. With a gasping breath, he said, "Seina-chan, listen to me! From the beginning, I told you that I'm not romantic. I'm stupid when it comes to romance and I'm always nervous about dealing with a woman I like. But, this time I will dare to reveal it to you." Shohei paused his speech just to take a deep breath, "Aishiteru .. aishiteru .. aishiteru." He said that sentence three times without feeling nervous. "I want to say a more romantic word and a longer sentence, but unfortunately I can only say that. Gomen ...." Shohei.

Seina's lips trembled withstanding the cry mixed with haru's taste. "I don't deserve your love."

"Aishiteru."

"Give those words to a proper woman."

"Only you deserve it."

"Women aren't just me!"

"But you're all I love."

"Don't be stupid like this!"

Shohei immediately wrapped it up with a hug. "When my day is over the edge, I still choose to continue to love you. In fact, if I were to repeat the days that have passed, I would still choose to fall back in love with you."

"Shohei-kun ...." Seina was unable to speak anymore.

Shohei tightened his embrace. "While you may not feel the same way, at least remember there are men like this who are so bad at loving you."

Seina returned Shohei's embrace, closed her eyes deeply and said, "Shohei-kun, Aishiteru Yo."

They looked at each other with their hands cupping their faces. The noses of the two who were clashing together, was enough to be proof of how close their faces were at the moment. Whether who started first, their eyes suddenly drooped as the lips of the two would meet. Damn, the sound of a car horn coming from the front thwarted all that. Shohei and Seina also realized that they were in the middle of the road, where the signal lights for pedestrians who want to cross have turned into lights for vehicles to pass.

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Author notes.

FYI Gays, on Friday the Japanese world was shocked by the death of former prime minister Shinzo Abe. He was shot while performing an oration in the street. Shinzo Abe is Japan's longest-serving prime minister. It is still unknown what caused the shooting. Most likely this (new assumption) attack from his political opponents yes, considering he has the dominant power in Japan.

So gays, apart from the case of this former Japanese PM, the real politics is indeed cruel, gays. There are some readers who wonder if a figure like Kazuya Toda the main antagonist is in the real world?

Don't naive. Since the time of the kingdom, power and the throne was seized at the expense of the blood of many people. The transfer of power from orla to orba also took many innocent lives. Come on, gays, from now on open your eyes wide. Do not just look around you, but also spread the view to the whole world. The cave will always invite you to think widely.