The Fading Love
increasingly foreign

After eating, Aska accompanied me to wash the dishes, Aska was calmer now, I will immediately clean my dish and put Aska to sleep, Aska was already sleepy once.

"Mama, sleepy Aska"

"yes, baby, just a second, mamah get this done first"

Quickly I finished, as I dried my hands and turned around, Aska was already sleeping with her head on the dining table. I picked up my son to be moved to his room, when on the stairs I passed Zidan who also wanted to go down.

His eyes seemed to have just woken up, maybe Zidan was thirsty and the water supply in the room was running out, I looked down past him, I was really still angry with Zidan's attitude earlier, likewise with Zidan who did not say anything, the more days I feel zidan more and more alien.

I put Aska who had slept well on her bed, my room lights off, there was no intention of me moving to the front room, just consider this my form of protest to Zidan.

...

At what time, I woke up feeling a tingle in my stomach, I squinted my eyes to see what was happening.

"sorry" I breathed heavily, that's Zidan, his breath right on my neck skin.

"still angry ya" I actually want to scream in front of Zidan's face now, I want to abuse him, I want to question his changing attitude that is getting stranger day by day in my opinion. I'm really amused.

Zidan's hand went into the nightgown I was wearing, moving abstractly inside, not to mention his breath.

" Zidan look out ah, amused" I felt the arm from Zidan.

"There goes into the room, narrow" I reasoned, but the Aska mattress is big, and enough for the three of you.

"sama you" I rolled a panted eye.

"i'm sleeping here"

"yes I've been sleeping here too" I held Zidan's hand that wanted to move more mischievously inside my shirt, I am tickled by Zidan's behavior.

"Zidan ah, no, amused"

"we're moving, yo"

"no, I want to be here, you're there"

"yeah, I'm here too" I'm afraid Aska wakes up with our debate, Zidan will continue to force if not followed, I wake up, I kiss my son's forehead short, leaving Zidan.

Inside the room, I immediately slept with a blanket covering my entire body, I was lazy to argue.

Zidan came up, and took down a little blanket from my face.

"Don't sleep with a blanket like this, you have trouble breathing" said Zidan and then sleeping in his place, Zidan's arm now piercing my stomach, Zidan also rubbed his face on my neck.

"sorry, I didn't mean to say that"

"sleep, it's night" I said ketus.

"you haven't said yes" sucks this one guy, it's already making heartache, now it's maksa to death.

"yes what?"

"Iis, sleep Zi, I'm sleepy" Zidan flipped my body facing her, I didn't want to look at her. Who doesn't hurt to try, there's a father who constantly questions his own child, what he thinks I'm pregnant with another man, I really can't think clearly, she said, not only am I disappointed, Aska too, Zidan had the heart for both of us.

"honey" called Zidan in her soft voice.

"are you getting more and more alien to Zi?" I ventured to ask, I looked for lies from Zidan's eyes, Zidan silently said nothing.

"there's something you're hiding from me, huh, Zi?"I rubbed his face which was silent.

"you're getting weird, I'm like losing my old Zidan, a zidan who never even raised his voice to me. Zidan who would never be tempted to be rude to me.." I couldn't bear to not cry in front of Zidan, too crowded it feels to hold back the change in Zidan's attitude that is getting more and more strange days.

"i've already apologized for our problems four years ago, I've been begging you Zi, I've quit that office, buried my dreams, I've been, I've done everything for you. Why are you getting so far away. I was wrong what Zi said, let me change, but don't get rich, you hurt me too our son "I covered my face with both hands, I sobbed in front of Zidan, I felt Zidan pull me into his arms, Zidan's hands rubbed my back.

"aa-i don't ask much ko same you, Zi, I just want you rich first again, dear me, always there when I need, not angry, not snapped me, not snapped me, hug me if I'm sad, appreciate what I've done for you with great difficulty"

"you why the hell Zi, you changed, you don't love me anymore, huh. You hate me so much to say that Aska is not your child, you accuse me of being pregnant with another man, you really do have the heart of the Zi, by the way" I have trouble talking because my chest is tight, the cries I was holding all spilled in front of Zidan.

Zidan did not say anything, Zidan kept silent and continued to tighten his embrace.

"Aska it is your son Zi, Aska the fruit of our love for twelve years, you can hardly question his presence. You know I love you so much, I willingly refute the words of my mother and father to stay married to you, and Until now I have never contacted my parents because they are still angry, I sacrificed everything in order to live with you, Zi"

"sorry" was just that one word that kept repeating itself from his mouth. I want to hear a longer explanation, if I'm wrong I want to know where it is, where it's not, so I can change what it wants.

"i love you, I love our son, I'm just emotionally hooked, I'm sorry, sorry" listening to what he said why it made me cry even more. I wrapped my hands around her waist even though it was difficult, I cried in her arms, maybe now the clothes that Zidan was wearing were wet because of my tears.

"So why are you so angry, I've cooked your favorite food, I'm the same Aska wait for you to come home so we can eat together, but why is your response even rich that anyway?" I still sob, my tears are still coming down

"in the office a lot of work, I'm dizzy, sorry for being a place to vent my emotions"

"yes, don't cry anymore" I raised my head to look at him, inexplicably Zidan laughed and kissed my lips briefly.

"why laugh, what's funny?"

"you're so funny baby, lips forward, red eyes that, gemsin tau not "

"ih, what a bummer "I banged his chest upset, another sad person even laugh, what a funny try.

"hus, Aska will wake up" right, it's midnight, Zidan smiled meaningfully looking at me, I know this perverted look.

"what"

"play yuk, long time ago we did not play "

"if I don't want to, you're angry, aren't you?"

"no, I don't want your meaning either" where I could refuse Zidan's request, I nodded, Zidan smiled and rushed down to lock the room, maybe tonight we will sleep up again, and hopefully tomorrow won't be the bad luck.