The Fading Love
old friend

Kitchen supplies are all exhausted, I today to the supermarket with Aska, coincidentally a holiday, I want to take Aska a walk as well. Before going to the supermarket, I took Aska to the park first, Aska had brought a ball for him to play in the park later, I also had prepared provisions for Aska to eat there, there, some of the treats I made myself.

"don't run Aska" Aska no longer heard my screams, the boy had run fast toward other children who were also in the park, I held a mat under a fairly lush tree, he said, put my luggage up there.

When I finished, I sat back on my back in the tree, watching Aska laughing merrily with the friends she had just met.

Seeing the laughter from my son made me a little able to forget about the matter yesterday, I did not want to continue crying just because of my own brain thoughts. Maybe I was too carried away feeling so sensitive, suspecting Zidan who is not-no, I believe Zidan will never betray our love.

I reached into my carry-on bag looking for a cell phone, I didn't want to see for myself how carefree Aska was playing, I wanted to share with zidan as well, and I wanted to keep everything Aska did as a memento. Every day Aska gets bigger, I don't want to miss a day of my child's growth.

Aska always felt lonely at home, Aska was an only child, I also could not always accompany her to play every time, actually I really want to get pregnant again, I really want to get pregnant again, I wish I could have a cute and beautiful daughter, but Zidan said he never wanted to have another child. Zidan said enough Aska, extinct is my hope to give a sister to Aska. Many people at home have a chatty daughter like me, funny too if imagined.

Not feeling the sun start to blister, me and Aska just finished lunch under a shady tree, I cleaned up because we had to go home soon.

"mom, next week we play here again yeah, same papah too" excited my son to say it, that, Aska still does not know if the papa work out of town and will go home two weeks later.

I can't remember the last time I, Aska and Zidan walked, which must have been a long time ago. Zidan is too busy with his work, I don't want to bother Zidan by asking for a vacation together, or just spending time in the park, sometimes... Zidan also left on Sunday, but he had no job in the office.

I rubbed the sweat that splashed on Aska's face with a tissue, Aska's gaze shone with a look of hope, she hoped like the other children, who could play with her papah as well.

"yes, later we say the same papah yes son" Aska nodded, Aska helped me carry a bag that is not too heavy, one hand I hold tightly.

"mommy, Aska wants to buy it" Aska pointed to the snack wrapped in chocolate among other snacks, I get one for Aska.

"this one"

"yes, Aska wants two" I actually don't really like if Aska eats snacks like this, I prefer to make it for my own child, which is definitely much healthier. But no papa at all, Aska also always according to what I said if I said no, but for today I will follow her.

I pushed the grocery trolley down the shelves looking for what I needed, from all kinds of kitchen spices, fruits, vegetables, rice, eggs, not to forget also the needs of bathing, and milk Aska.

"Daddy" the voice of a familiar woman.

"Khansa" is my best friend Kansa, my best friend when I sit in High School. We broke contact on graduation because Kansa continued her studies outside the city, I rushed to Kansa who seemed to be in a big pregnancy.

"astaga Kansa, I miss the same lo, Sa" I hugged Kansa even though it was blocked by her large stomach.

"gue too. Aya, you go where the hell, God, you are rich in the earth tau no" we describe hugs, I do not focus on the question Kansa, I focus on his big belly, I focus on his big belly, I rubbed that stomach.

"how many months, Sa?" Kansa smiled

"eight months, Aya"

"lo's first child?" Kansa nodded again.

"and Lo?" I turned to call Aska.

"Aska here son"

"this is my son's Aska"

"his father?"

"ay Allah Aya, the handsome Banget, looks like lo, but his eyes are loh, ka Zidan Banget" I just smiled in response to Kansa's words.

"we need to talk a lot, Aya"

"that's a lot I want to ask"

"Lo done shopping?"

"already "

"Kiya looking for a cafe to chat, I also can not stand for long, my son can get out of his cage" I laughed out loud, Kansa really likes to joke, Kansa really likes to joke, he can make me laugh the most.

....

Now that we were in one of the cafes we used to go to to spend time in, Aska sat quietly eating her order cake.

"so-so, you marry zidan"

"yes, I immediately got married after college, ka Zidan immediately came to propose, afraid of being captured by people he said" We laughed, Kansa hit the back of my hand on the table.

"the real napa" upset Kansa.

"goes who are afraid that he will marry another woman" I said in the end.

"Lo knows for himself how Zidan's parents don't like me. Zidan's parents wanted to match Zidan to his business friends" I was briefly my sentence, actually I never told this to others, but with Kansa different, but with Kansa different, Kansa even knows how complicated my relationship with Zidan used to be, I always tell her anything.

"Zidan came to see me in kosan, Zidan said that if I did not marry him, ka Zidan would be forced to marry the woman whose mother wanted" why the atmosphere became sad this way anyway, kansa's gaze was.

"ko so sad gini anyway" I forced a smile, remembering again how until now my husband's family has not approved of our relationship.

"don't talk about it Aya, it's important that you're happy now" I nodded.

"the news of Lo's parents with Brother Shaka Gimana" I clucked upset, but now the woman is pregnant, but still had time to ask me. Shaka ka used to be the same Kansa was close, but whose name is not a soul mate, they can what.

"Alhamdulillah my mother's father is healthy, they have retired, papah has the same garden rice fields that are handled in the village, while mamah has a rich supermarket store that is"

"Abang Shaka?"

"Iis, Lo here, look no distended stomach it's still a little bit of a bitch"

"gue just wants to hear the news, Aya"

"Abang Shaka is healthy, Abang Shaka is also married, there is already his son too, almost the same age Aska.

"definitely rich handsome Abang Shaka" really yes this Kansa, not changed at all.

"you're dark about it"

we laughed out loud