The Fading Love
fresh blood

My head seems to want to break, actually this pain I have been enduring since I delivered Aska earlier. I don't know what's going on with me, I've had headaches lately, even fainting. I haven't been to the hospital to check, maybe later if Aska's off school

Soon Aska returned home from school, I was forced to contact Zidan to ask for help to pick up Aska today, I hope Zidan has a moment, you can not stand it, the blood in my nose also continues to flow nonstop.

My hands even had trouble reaching for the phone above Nakas, the phone screen was faint in my eyes, Zidan's number was hard to find there.

*"Assalamualaikum Zi"

"why, I want this meeting"

"Zi, I may ask for help, today you pick up Aska yes, my head hurts so much Zi" was clearly heard from there.

"i can't, I have to meet, I close the call*" I look at my phone screen, Zidan has decided the call, I really can't even open my eyes.

My eyes began to fog, not to mention my stomach which felt stirred up in there. I immediately ran into the bathroom, lest I litter the mattress.

All the food I ate this morning came out with no leftovers. My body was very weak, not to mention the pain that was not helped, I pulled my hair rough to reduce the pain, the bathroom wall suddenly changed color to dark, and, but sometimes I see it faint. I could not endure the pain anymore and lost my consciousness.

....

The sound of a child crying that I first heard, I tried to open my eyes even though it was very difficult. I felt the weight on my stomach, like something was going down, I realized I was still in the bathroom.

"mom" Aska's voice resuscitated me.

"my child" I woke up in a hurry, I found Aska's eyes were swollen, her school clothes were still attached, even the bag on her back was still there.

"who's home, son?"

"the teacher's mother" I searched for her teacher's whereabouts.

"where's the teacher's mother, son?"

"had come home mah" Aska hugged me, her tears breaking again. Surely Aska was afraid to see her mother who fell asleep with her face filled with blood spots for the second time.

"mama why bleed again, Aska is not fussy, Aska already wants to go to school, but why did mama bleed again" O God, Aska I was scared, I was scared, I rubbed Aska's back to calm down.

"dizzy darling, this is not Aska ko's fault" Aska further tightened her arms around my neck.

"Yo we clean up, Aska must be tired "Aska nodded obediently.

....

After eating, Aska immediately ran into her room, maybe it was very sleepy too, I also wanted to rest for a while.

When I wanted to climb the stairs, the sound of the footprints from the front stopped my steps, I rushed out to ascertain who it was.

"Zidan" I'm a little surprised, because it's not usually Zidan comes home this fast, not to mention his bent face makes me more confused. I approached to help Zidan with his briefcase, Zidan also took off his suit and threw the suit onto the sofa. I followed Zidan into the room

Zidan's face was completely exhausted, Zidan went straight into the bathroom to clean up. I've prepared a t-shirt and some home pants for Zidan to wear.

"Zi, want to eat?"

I waited for Zidan below, before long Zidan came down with a fresher appearance, the towel on his head still stuck.

" sorry yes, I did not have time to cook another, just this is all there, you go home impromptu" I spoke while pouring water into a glass.

"a lot of work, huh Zi?"

"heum"

"Dad" called.

"yes" I turned my attention completely to Zidan, it seems like Zidan wants to talk important things.

"tomorrow I have a job, maybe back next month" wait, did I not hear wrong.

"you said Zi, I don't understand"

"i've got a job out of town, coming home next month" I didn't hear wrong, Zidan actually said I'd be going again and coming home next month.

"why so long? Zi, outside of town where?"

"there is a project development that I have to monitor its development, I can't go back and forth" right, when I had the heart to ask Zidan back and forth. This is also not my first time in staying away, two weeks is not a short time, but what else, Zidan has his obligations as well.

"where is Zi?, who knows I can follow you there"

"don't be weird you, I want to work, not want to go out" I also didn't say Zidan wanted to go out, I just asked, but why he answered had to be really tired anyway.

"Why suddenly tell me Zi"

"i also just found out, tomorrow you help me finish my clothes" I just nodded.

"what am I gonna bring?"

"no need Zi, you've gone home safely I'm so grateful" it's just that the chat that happened at the dinner table I'm so not in appetite to hear Zidan want to go for about two weeks.

After eating, I made green tea for Zidan who is now sitting relaxing in the living room, I also brought the pastry I made yesterday.

"it's raining so hard" I sat next to Zidan, Zidan ignored my words, he was still focused on his phone, I don't know what he saw until so comfortable.

"in drinking Zi tea, mumpung is still anget, it will not feel good again if it is cold" Zidan is still indifferent as well. Every now and then Zidan laughs at his phone, I feel neglected to be there. I'd rather go into the room than stay next to Zidan but get knocked down.

In the room, I sat pensively in front of my dressing table, thinking again about Zidan's words a few minutes ago.

"two weeks?" I muttered to myself

"why so sudden" I piled my hands on the table, I looked at my face from the reflection of the mirror in front.

"i felt that there was something Zidan was hiding from me, I felt that Zidan had changed not because of that misunderstanding, but there was another factor" thinking about it made my head again throb violently, I felt that I was in a deep state, the blood flowed back out. I stared at the ceiling of the room. I heard that the door to the room was open, Zidan turned off the lights when I was still sitting, there was no way he wouldn't see me here.

I just looked around and decided to go into the bathroom to clean my face.