The Fading Love
Should never have married

"You didn't tell me you had headaches, Aya" I turned to avoid eye contact with Zidan, I just regained consciousness from fainting and I was already in the hospital. I forgot what happened to me, all I remember is my head hurts and I don't remember anything else.

Zidan rubbed my hands occasionally kissing her.

"Yes, tomorrow we do a biopsy examination yes, so that we know the tumor in your head that includes a malignant or benign tumor" Yes, Zidan has explained about my condition, Zidan has explained about my condition, in my head there was a tumor that was the cause of my headache all this time. Actually I had expected it long ago, if there was something wrong with me and sure enough, I had a brain tumor. I don't know what's going to happen with me after this, the illness I'm suffering could take my life, I don't want to go this fast, I don't want to go, I don't want to leave my very young son, my son still needs a mother figure. I rubbed my tears violently, tears that described how my defense was collapsing now, The doctor's verdict on me made me even weaker.

"Yes.." I cut off Zidan's words.

"I don't want Zidan, I don't want to leave Aska, I don't want to...." Zidan wiped my tears, stroked my cheeks and looked at me with eyes so deep.

"don't say that, you'll get well, we'll get treatment, baby. I'll take you to the best hospital.Samai the tumor disappeared from your head, you will be healthy again, and we can take care of Aska together" I didn't know what to respond to, I didn't know if I could recover and saw my son grow up, which I knew after learning about my condition, I became so weak. I looked at my son who was sleeping on the sofa, his tiny face looked so tired. Zidan is forced to take Aska to the hospital because no one is keeping her at home.

"I'm sorry, sorry I wasn't there to protect you. You hit my parents inside our own house, I'm sorry" Zidan said softly, I reluctantly looked at his face, there was still a feeling of heartache when I saw Zidan leaving just like that as I begged to stay.

"It's important that your job Zi? until I beg you to choose to leave. You stay with Aska at home, but you know at home your parents hate me so much, Zi" I hold it desperately so that my voice does not tremble because of the tightness I feel in the chest.

"wouldn't they get more angry after knowing I'm sick" I smiled.

"honey.. yes, you need to rest" I pulled my hand that Zidan held.

"Ema Bener Zi, we should never have met and married" Zidan again clasped my hand, he rubbed the back of my hand with his thumb.

"Now you rest, I want to go home first all nitipin Aska with my friend, if he has to take care of you in the hospital"

"i want to go home, I'm not papa, don't leave Aska with strangers" I raised my voice a little, what the hell, Zidan, he wanted to leave Aska to someone else even though he said it was his friend.

"you're still sick Aya, you need treatment, he's my friend, you don't have to worry"

"He has a family here, but our son has to be passed on to someone else because he never gets a confession from his family" I muttered but Zidan still clearly heard what I said.

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"Father, Aska does not want, Aska wants to be equally mamah" Zidan sat to equal his height with the child, Zidan tidied Aska's hair a little messy.

"So son, Aska here first, Aska can not come to the hospital, mamah papah does not want Aska to be sick"

"ZIDAN!" Zidan gasped in shock as his shoulders were patted from behind.

"mut does not want to be trite again, you go home now equally mamah. or "Dewi paused his sentence and stared intently at Aska.

"your friend who met the child's mother and told me about you and Karina" Zidan firmly clenched his one hand.

"mah, please, Inayah is sick, Inayah needs Zidan" Dewi smiled obliquely at what Zidan had just said.

"Good dong if so, mamah can directly meet him and say all he has, what are the convulsions Inayah"

"fuck..." Zidan was really in a difficult situation, he could not raise his wife who was lying on her sickly bed, but he also did not want Dewi to make things more complicated, he said, Zidan is not ready to lose his first love, Zidan does not want to part with Inayah who will certainly be disappointed after knowing everything, Zidan can not.

"So how do you want to come home, or meet the woman?"

"Zidan mamah" the smile of victory was clearly drawn on the face of the Goddess. Dewi wants to take forcibly Aska who is still in the sling of Zidan.

"Don't hurt Zidan mah's son, he's Zidan's flesh and blood, Zidan won't stay still if you hurt him again" now Zidan's speech changed firmly.

"Leave the boy here, Zidan"

"mama has no heart, Aska is only four years old mah, Aska son of Zidan, Zidan is crazy to leave Aska alone in this house while Inayah is not home" Zidan paused his words and took a deep breath.

"Zidan will take Aska first to the hospital, Zidan will follow, mamah go first"

"alert until you deny"

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"Aska temenin mamah yes son, papah must go, if mamah ask Papah where" Aska nodded with Pororo's bag containing a change of clothes for him and for Inayah who had Zidan prepared. The boy changed his clothes and took a shower.

"Aska enter now yes son, papah must go" Zidan opened the door of the room, the man just peeked from the outside, Aska had turned to look at the papah for a while, but then Zidan closed the door to Inayah's ward.

Zidan sat in a long chair in front of Inayah's room, and he covered his face with both hands.

"I don't want to lose Inayah, I can't keep going, I can't keep getting rich" Zidan stood up again, his face turned serious.

"I'm going to defend my marriage to Inayah, the innocent girl I went after 12 years ago. Women with shady eyes and sweet smiles. I'm sorry Karina"